“No, I don’t have feelings for him. I’m in love with you. This is my son's first Christmas and I will not let you ruin it. If you don’t want to be here, then I’ll meet you at the apartment.” I hissed running into Blake.
“Woah what’s going on?”
“Go ask your best friend.” I pushed past him and went over to where Sawyer was talking to Harper.
“What’s wrong?” Sawyer frowned looking me over. Her hand resting on her bulging baby bump. I can’t wait to meet my nephew and the next couple of months.
“Dom’s been acting weird all morning. He woke up from a nightmare and didn’t want to talk about it. Just a little bit ago I was talking to Lucas about Rowan and everything today. I hugged him. Dom thinks I still have feelings for Lucas.”
“As much as I wish things worked between you and my brother it just wasn’t meant to be. We all got lucky in this situation and the future they may change. I’m sure being here isn’t where he wants to be. I see the way you look at him and I know you're happy.” Harper smiled squeezing my shoulder.
“She’s right most people wouldn’t want to spend Christmas with their ex and with a kid involved.”
“I just can’t believe he asked that.” I sighed running my fingers through my hair.
“Go have fun with Rowan. Later you can figure out what’s going on.” I hugged them before going over to Rowan.
“Did you have a good time?” Zoey came over hugging me.
“Yes, thank you for having all of us. Rowan loves playing with all his cousins.”
“Of course. Kinsley, you are always a part of this family.”
“Thank you that means a lot.”
“Drive safe okay. We will talk soon.” I nodded going over to Stef and Lucas. Rowan was curled up against Stef falling asleep.
“Come here baby give mom a kiss.” I pulled Rowan my arms where he snuggled up. I wrapped my arms around him, soaking in this moment with him.
“Love you, buddy. I hope you had a good Christmas. You are going to be staying with daddy tonight, momma will see you in the morning.” I gave him another kiss before handing him off to Lucas.
“Hope everything works out,” Stef said hugging me.
“Thank you. I’ll talk to you guys later.” I said goodbye before going to find Dom. I haven’t spoken to him for the last couple of hours. I was too furious that he asked that question and today was important to me.
“Can we talk now?” Dom asked looking at me worried.
“Do you want to tell me what the hell that was Dominic? Lucas and I have a son together and that’s all that’s between us. Do you have any idea how blessed we are that our co-parenting is where it is? I just want Rowan to know his parents love him and can be civil.” I cried.
“I’m sorry Kinsley. This nightmare put me through the wringer and then seeing my mom.” I walked over wrapping my arms his waist.
“I’m in love you with you; you know that right. I know you’ve been through hell and I may not be able to understand a lot of it, but I want you to be able to talk to me.” He wrapped his arms around me kissing my forehead.
“My nightmare was about you. Brandon had broken in and was attacking you. Rowan was in the background screaming. You kept calling for me and I couldn’t get to you. No matter how much I tried the screams only got louder.” He sobbed pulling me closer as my tears soaked his shirt.
“I’m okay. He can’t hurt me anymore.” I reached up cupping his cheeks so he’s looking at me. I could see the fear in his eyes as he looked at me. I haven’t heard anything from Brandon in over a year and I don’t think I will ever again.
“I love you so damn Kinsley Flanigan.”
“I love you, Dominic Jackson.” He leaned down pressing his lips to mine. My arms snaked around his neck as he scooped me upsetting me on the counter.
“I think you're wearing too many clothes.” I moaned as he played with the hem of my shirt. This is exactly how our night is supposed to end.
“You think he had a good first Christmas?” I nodded curling more into his side as he wrapped his arm around me.
“Yea I think so. I’m sure he went right to sleep too. That little boy is so spoiled.”
“I’m sorry about earlier. You’re right we are lucky. Lucas is a cool guy and I feel like I could get along with him.”
“I don’t expect you guys to be best friends. I just want you two to at least be civil for everyone’s sake.”
“I will do my best.” I smiled leaning up to kiss him. He sighed in content as we laid, they’re in silence.
“Did that nightmare bring up bad memories?” I whispered. His mom was in an abusive relationship when he was a kid.
“If you don’t want to talk about it that’s fine. I hate how you went through that as a kid then experience it again with me. I don’t deserve you.” He quickly moved to pin my hands above my head.
“Kinsley I’ve been in love you since we were kids. We both have been through hell and back to get to this moment. If I told you earlier, you might not have Rowan. I can’t imagine not having him around and I know you can’t either.”
“You’re right I probably wouldn’t have Rowan. If it wasn’t for him, I don’t know where I would be right now.”
“I don’t even want to think about that. I’m so thankful I finally I get to call you mine. Rowan wasn’t planned but I can’t imagine you without him. Whether you knew it or not you were born to be a mother.” Tears filled my eyes as he leaned down pressing his lips to mine.
“You have no idea how much that means to me. I’m scared I’m going to wake up one day and I’m not going to be able to hear him call me momma.”
“He can still sign it.”
“I know but I’m scared he will be embarrassed when he gets older.”
“Stop thinking like that. He loves you more than this world. I’m sure you're going to embarrass him plenty but that will not be the reason he will be embarrassed.” I nodded curling up to him pressing my face into his neck.
“I’m so glad you’re here.” I smiled pulling Mina into my arms.
“Me too. I’ve missed my big brother. I can’t believe I’m finally seeing you and Kinsley together.”
“It is pretty crazy, but I’ve never been happier.”
“What about Rowan?”
“He’s my little buddy. I wish things were different but I’m so glad she has them. I can’t wait for one day to give him a little sibling.”
“Awe that’s going to be so cute.”
“How’s mom been?” She sighed turning to look the other way.
“She’s okay, some days are better than others. Dom, it's hard and I don’t know what I’m doing?”
“Maybe you guys should move back here.”
“I can’t I just got this great job and I may have a boyfriend too.”
“What’s his name?”
“Relax he is a good guy and his name is Rob.”
“I want to meet him if things get more serious.”
“Hey, I only the best for my little sister.”
“I know and I’m thankful for that.” I looked over to Kinsley who was playing with Rowan and my mom. I’m hoping spending time with us will help her depression. Mina and mom moved away as soon as Mina graduated school. With me traveling and leaving at any point I was happy they were getting away.