“Mommy, what are you doing?” Sophia looked at me with a frown on her face.
“Looking at houses for me and you.”
“We have a house.” She looked at me, confused making me smile at her.
“Baby, this is nana and pops house. Mommy is getting too old to live with her parents.”
“But who makes food?”
“I will. Don’t worry we will see nana and poppa all time.” My mom came in and Sophia went right to her wrapping her arms around her legs.
“Nana, mommy looking at houses.” My mom frowned at me, picking up Sophia bringing her back over to the table.
“You don’t have to move out.”
“I know and I love living here. It’s time for me to branch out and get my place. I can’t be living at my mommy and daddies for the rest of my life. We would still visit all the time. I want to live close by though.”
“If this is really what you want then we will help you. You two are more than welcome to stay as long as you need to.”
“Thank you. It will be good for all of us.”
“You’re going to have to tell your dad.” I nodded looking at Sophia who was curled up with my mom.
“What do you think of peanut, bath time?”
“No.” She pouted.
“Yea, it’s just about bedtime.”
“I don’t like bath time.”
“I can give her one.”
“No, I need to talk to her. Come on Sophia.” I reached for her, pulling her into my arms taking her to the bathroom. I started the water and got her undressed before putting her in the tub.
“I don’t want to move. I like it here.”
“So do I but it’s time for us to get our own house. We’re not moving for a while okay.” She nodded and I finished washing her hair.
“When we move, will daddy come back?” I hated questions about him, I dreaded them. Rickey has seen her a hand full of times and the last time being last year.
“You know daddy is busy.”
“We call him?”
“I’ll try okay.”
“I miss him.”
“I know baby.” I kissed her cheek before finishing up. I got her out and quickly wrapped the towel around her before she screamed.
“Go get your jammies.” She went to her room while I quickly cleaned up before going into her room. She had changed into her jammies and I went over brushing her hair.
“Can I stay with you tonight?” I smiled.
“Of course. Now go brush your teeth and go tell them goodnight.”
She pulled away and went to brush her teeth while I went downstairs. My mom was in the living room watching a show.
“With Uncle Tommy.”
“I’m going to curl up with her then I want to talk.”
“Come here.” She went over and jumped on my mom hugging her.
“Good night sweetheart. I love you.”
“Love you nana.” She kissed her forehead then Sophia came over to me.
“Bedtime.” I carried her up to my room lying down with her.
“Love you baby girl.”
“Love you, mommy.” I kissed her forehead, playing with her hair trying to get her to sleep. I wish things were different for her, she deserves the world and I will do everything I can to give that to her. Finally, she fell asleep and I carefully pulled away from her going downstairs. My mom was still on the couch when I went to curl up with her.
“She asked about Rickey.” I sighed.
“What are you going to do?”
“I will at least text him and see. I wish he never came back, I feel like it would be easier.”
“Do you wish you were together?”
“Kind of for her sake. I don’t think we would work together.”
“You’re doing so amazing with her and she will understand everything you do for her when she’s older.”
“I know, but it’s hard. I don’t think I could have done this without you guys though.”
“It’s more than I had when I had Elliot. It was just me and your dad.”
“But least you had daddy.”
“Yea, but it wasn’t easy at all.”
“Love you, mommy.”
“Love you too baby girl. Everything is going to be okay. She kissed my forehead and I pulled away from her going back upstairs. I heard Sophia whimpering so I quickly went in and pulled her into my arms.
“Mommy’s here, everything is okay.” She had tears in her eyes and she tried pushing me away.
“Sophia.” I shook her awake and she started sobbing.
“You’re okay, I got you.”
“Sh, I’m here nothing is going to hurt you.” She curled against my chest and I rubbed her back trying to soothe her. The door opened and my mom was frowning at us.
“She had a bad dream.”
“I got you.” I kissed her forehead while she calmed down more.
“Want to tell us about your dream?”
“You leave me like daddy.” Tears filled my eyes as I turned to look at her.
“I would never do that, you’re my best friend. It was just a dream baby, I’m not going anywhere without you.”
“Promise.” I kissed her forehead bringing her back to me.
“I love you so much baby girl.”
“Love you, mommy.” My mom had left and I turned to curl up with Sophia. She held onto me as if I was going to let her go but I never would.
“Wake up mommy.”
“I’m up baby.”
“Let’s go get some breakfast.”
I got up and pulled her onto my hip carrying her downstairs.
“Go give nana hugs.” I set her down and she hugged my mom’s legs before running back into my arms.
“Sophia, come help me get your plate ready.”
“Mommy.” Her arms wrapped around my neck and I wrapped an arm around her.
“I’m not going anywhere.” I kissed the side of her head, while my mom set the plates down.
“Thank you.” She turned around and we ate.
“Go watch your show. I have to go get ready.” She let me go and I ran upstairs and got ready for class. I went downstairs so I could give Sophia her kisses and hugs.
“Come here, I have to go to school.”
“No, don’t go.” She came running over to me latching onto me.
“Stay with me.”
“I have to go to class, I can’t stay. I won’t be long okay.”
“Mommy.” Sophia was sobbing against me and I don’t know what to do.
“You’re going to be with nana, everything is going to be okay.”
“I don’t want you to go.”
“Baby I have to. I will be back soon then we can go to the park okay.”
“Stay.” She sure knows how to break her momma’s heart.
“Sophia, your mom will be home soon. Come watch a movie, so the time will go faster till your mom gets home.”
“I love you, I will text you okay.”
“I love you, mommy.” I wiped her tears away and kissed her forehead.
“I will be back I promise.” I pulled away but she wouldn’t let go.
“Sophia, I’m going to be late.”
“What is going on?”
“Go see poppa.” She pulled away and she went to go see him, while I quietly left. I wish I could have stayed with her but I had to go to class. I pulled up late, so I had to rush inside. There was a seat open in the back luckily enough. I sat down and quickly got my notebook out writing down the notes. The class was over and I quickly grabbed my bag.
“Do you want my notes?” I turned to Colin smiled.
“Thank you, Colin, you’re the best.”
“So what made you late?”
“Um, I was wondering if you were doing anything Friday night?”
“Oh um I don’t know.”
“Think about it.” I nodded and he smiled at me before walking away. I liked Colin, he was a good guy but who knows how he’s going to react when he finds out I have a daughter.