I tried very hard to be worth on my father's praises.
Being the youngest child of Alonzo De Hizon was never easy.
No, being hidden in the society was never easy.
Yes I may have everything, wealth and glamorous life
and lot of girls may wanted to be in my shoes.
But not me.
It's lonely being me,
Its lonely being not part of your so-called family.
Its hard to be the best and yet you knew it will never be enough.
It's painful to work for their praises just for you to be love back.
Just a little attention from them, that is just all I want.
I just want them to be at least proud of me.
But I knew it will never gonna happen.
I was only adopted that's the reason why
You know how hurts to be slapped that truth on your face?
And you know what hurts the most? To be asked to repay their goodness by marrying their son-the person whom you thought your brother.
Sebastian Alexander De Hizon, the brother who despise me for unknown reason.
Beyond those icy cold stares and bad treatments he showed me, I know he was a good person.
Why he hates me? I could never know the reason why.
The warm meaningful stares and those stolen glances he gave me when he thought I wasn't looking,
Only him who knew what those meant are.
Whenever I stutter and blunder in front of him,
And this silly heart that throbs whenever he comes near me,
I couldn't explain why I feel that way...
I am about to marry him yes,
and neither one of us want it.
He loathe me and I'm afraid of him.
We can't be together, it will be like mixing oil into water
Yes, he hates me and I can't imagine spending my lifetime with him.
Well, I'm done and over with this kind of life
I had enough with the sorrow and pain
I got tired wishing to be love back
I got tired to ask for their acceptance anymore
I had enough of hypocrisy and pretensions
And this time I'll think of myself
This time I won't let my life be manipulated by anyone
I'll do what I have to do
And that is to runaway....
I am Emerald Marie De Hizon, married to the ruthless and this is my story....