Annabelle's point of view
Staring at the dark grey clouds that covered majority of the sky and the small little drops that dropped from the sky somehow felt relaxing.
The drops cascaded down the window elegantly as the wind blew, not harshly, but rather in a calm way.
I had been sitting in this place for a while now, just looking at the rain. There was too much on my mind and I didn't know what to do.
I wanted to forgive Xavier, but how could I? After what he had done, I really didn't think forgiveness was an option for now. He would really have to try hard to earn my forgiveness.
I could tell by the pain in his eyes that I saw that day in his eyes that he was fighting his own demons. I felt slightly bad for him. Just slightly though. It still didn't justify the things he had done to me.
Sighing, I stood up and made my way to the bathroom. I needed to take a shower. Hopefully, it would help in relaxing and calming my nerves.
Stripping out of my clothes, I stood under the shower. The water was hot, too hot but I could care less.
Did I deserve what is happening to me?
I knew no one would answer me, I wish someone did. Sighing, I showered and existed the bathroom wearing a towel. I popped my head out to see if someone else was in the room but luckily no one was there.
Quickly rushing to the closet, I look the door as I decide to pick an outfit. I didn't want to wear any dresses right now. I just wanted something comfy.
I went straight to the area where my pajamas were. Picking up a dark blue pair, I wore it and exited the closet.
Looking to my right, i saw that it was still raining. I was about to go and sit down at my previous spot when a knock disrupted me.
Heading towards the door, I turned the knob slowly. Was it Xavier? Hopefully not…
Opening the door, I saw Xavier standing there with little patches of blood covering his crisp white shirt. Looking at him with wide eyes, I stepped aside as he entered the room and went straight to the bathroom. Obviously, to take a shower.
Was he hurt? What did he do to be in this state? Did he got into a fight? Or did he t-torture someone?
All these questions suddenly occupied my thoughts. All the previous thoughts had vanished. I could hear the shower running. Closing the door, I went and took a seat on the bed.
After a while, I felt the shower turn off. After some shuffling, I saw Xavier come out in just a towel hanging low on his waist while another one helped in drying his dark hair.
Seeing this, I quickly averted my eyes. He, without saying anything, went to the closet. Once again, I sat there fiddling with my fingers.
After a while, Xavier came out wearing a midnight blue shirt with sweatpants. His hair was still wet from the shower. Looking at his face, I saw slight guilt in his eyes, our eyes only locked for a second before he lowered his head slightly, moving and sitting on his side of the bed.
"it's kind of late, you should probably go to sleep." he said as he laid down, moving his face to the other side. I just nodded, but then realized that he couldn't see me. So I just said a little 'okay' as I laid down.
"goodnight." he said the moment my eyes were about to drift into darkness, I also tried to say a little 'goodnight' but I think it ended up sounding like a dying horse, even though I don't know what a dying horse sounds like.
Hearing me, Xavier just let out a little laugh and then it was complete silence. The sleep in my eyes from before had completely disappeared and now I just laid there hearing Xavier let out calm, steady breaths.
Letting out a yawn, I opened my eyes and the first thing that I noticed was that Xavier was not beside me. How does he always manage to wake up so early?
The second I noticed was that Xavier was sitting on the couch using his phone. Upon seeing me wake up, he gave me a little smile. I didn't return it.
Sitting up, I ran a finger through my hair, untangling a few tangles. I pulled the duvet cover off me and went to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and then took a shower.
I wrapped a towel around me and was about to exit the bathroom when I remembered that Xavier was still there. Oh Goddess. I know he had seen me with nothing but I couldn't go out. I wanted to protect the little dignity I had left.
"H-hey, can you uhh leave the room for a second? I'll tell you when you can come back." I shouted as I clutched the towel tightly around me. I heard Xavier stand up before he replied.
"is this a way to lock me out of here?" he said and laughed slightly at the end. Hearing his words, I slightly turned red. Come to think of it, it didn't seem like such a bad idea. Might come in handy sometime.
"no it's not but thanks for the idea." I said smiling. It was good to be normal with your mate. Mate. With that word, all the bad things that my mate had done to me came rushing down on me.
I couldn't forgive him. Not after what he had done. Did I really expect him to be normal after those things? I didn't but there was a little part of me that did believe in changing Xavier. I wanted to listen to that part so badly but I couldn't just forget the things he had done to me. I just couldn't…
The opening and closing of the door snapped me out of my thoughts. Opening the door slightly, I looked around to see the room empty. I quickly moved to the closet and locked the door behind me. Letting out a little sigh of relief, I decide to pick my outfit for the day.
A dress caught my attention. It was in a light blue color, pink and lilac flowers covered the dress. The dress also had a collar. It looked very pretty.
I quickly wore it and paired it with light pink sandals. I had dried my hair so now I was putting it a ponytail because letting my hair down felt irritating to me.
"you can come in now" I said through our mindlink. After a second, I got a response saying 'okay'.
Moving to little table, I sat down and ate the breakfast that probably Xavier brought for me. It was the usual. I was almost done with my breakfast when Xavier entered the room.
He looked at me and smiled, moving to the seat chair next to me. He was wearing a dark grey fitted suit with a blue tie. He looked really good in it.
"i have some work so I will probably be busy. As I don't want your to be alone, I will ask the beta to keep you company." hearing his words, I choked on the water I was drinking. Xavier rushed to me and rubbed my back as I coughed like a maniac.
Was he serious? He was going to leave me in the presence of him. Even after seeing what he did that day. How could he? Hate and anger started to grow within my body. And here I thought that maybe, just maybe I could give him a chance.
"how could you? HOW COULD YOU?!?!" I yelled at him loudly. He really was going to leave me with that monster. Does he not have a single good cell in his body? Maybe I thought he would have changed since that day. But I was wrong. It was all an act.
I know by now angry tears were streaming down my face. I felt pathetic but rage was the overpowering that feeling. Xavier just had his lips into a thin line as he looked at me sadly.
"what?! Aren't you going to say something!? You know what, I don't even want to talk to you right now. Just please leave." I said as I turned away from him. Wrapping my arms around me, I let out a choked sob. Why?
"angel just le-" Xavier started to say. I was surprised that he had the audicaty to talk right now. Guess it was an act after all.
"LEAVE!! p-please." I said as more sobs escaped from my lips. I felt like throwing up. I didn't hear a word from Xavier after that and soon the sound of the door opening and closing confirmed that he had left.
Turning around, I saw the room empty. My legs gave out on me making me collapse down on the wooden floor. How could someone be this cruel? How?
Continuous knocking woke me up from my slumber. Looking around, I saw that I was still on the floor. When did I fall asleep? Sighing, I got up and ran a hand over my dress to remove any crinkles that had formed. My hand stopped midway when I realized who could be on the other side of that door. No.
"LEAVE!!!" I screamed at the person. Hearing my words, the knocking stopped causing me to let out a breath I didn't know I had been holding.
But then the knocking started again making me take steps away from the door. No. No. No. This can't be happening. Please no.
"open up already!" I heard a voice whining behind that door as I tried to calm my heart. That voice… Why did it sound so familiar? Like I had heard it before.
"goddess Ann, open up. I'm tired of standing here!" I hear the voice yell again. That voice. It belonged to Jax. Wait, was I hallucinating? Am I going crazy now? But that nickname, only a few people call me Ann.
I rushed to the door, opening it. In front of me stood my brother, one of my best friends. Seeing me, his eyes lit up as his shoulders sagged in relief. I ran to him and hugged him tightly. I had missed him abd my family so much.
"what are you doing here?" I asked as I finally let him go. I was about yo ask him to come inside but he beat me to it. Sitting down on the couch, he made himself comfortable. I rolled my eyes as I went to sit down on the chair.
"well…. I'm the new beta!" he said as he wiggled his eyebrows. I just looked at him dumbfounded. He was the beta. So what happened to Damon? Did Xavier kill him? Was that blood Damon's?
One thing that was really bothering me was that I had yelled at Xavier for no reason. I felt really bad now. He brought me my friend and I yelled at him and kicked him out of his room. I needed to apologize. But how in the world would I do that? Just say sorry for being rude. That works. Well, hopefully it does.
Looking at my best friend , I saw him snoring. Did he actually just fall asleep? Are you kidding me? What am I going to do with this boy? I got up and draped a blanket over his figure as I went to sit and read a book.
Looking over at Jax, two thoughts came to my mind. First, thank you for such amazing friend moon goddess. Second, why do I have such a dumb friend?