Hazel's point of view
I was currently sitting on the bed as I looked outside the window. My eyes never once leaving it.
Many thoughts were currently roaming in my mind making me want to rip my hair out. His thoughts filled my mind.
Before that attack, life was so different, so, so different. I don't even remember what happiness feels like anymore.
I wore my chear leader uniform and headed downstairs. My hair was in an updo. As I sat on the island stole, I unconsciously started playing with the necklace that Hayden had given me, a smile quickly appearing on my face as I gazed down at it with love.
My eighteenth birthday was a few weeks ago and about a day or two ago, I had found my mate, Hayden. He was the son of the gama. He had been out of the pack for a while, we didn't converse much but we did know each other since he used to visit the pack house pretty often.
When we found out that we were mates, I was shocked but happy, same went for Hayden. That night he had came into my room to give me this necklace. The memory was one of the best I've ever had. I mean, sure we didn't have many but intended on making a lot with him.
Knocking on the door made me snap out of my thoughts of my mate. I mentally sighed, getting up. I opened the door and my mouth slightly hung open as I looked at my mate standing there with his brown orbs looking anywhere but me. This indicated that he was nervous. My heart momentarily stopped as a terrifying thought came to my mind.
Was he going to reject me?
I opened the door a little more so he could enter. He entered the room carefully, his eyes quickly falling on the huge picture of me and my parents, this frame was one of the things I kept close to my heart.
"Take a seat." I said gesturing towards the couch that sat in the middle of my room. He nodded his head and sat down, I followed his action too.
"So..." i started as I looked at him, my heart wanting to burst out of my chest. He finally looked me in the eye and at that moment, my whole body froze, all the things around me felt as if they no longer existed and the only thing that existed were his beautiful brown orbs.
"I-I.. I'm not sure if you would want to be with me but please-" I stopped him right there. How could he think that I would not want to be with him? He was my mate!
"How can you say that?! Of course I want to be with you. You are my mate!"
"I know, I know. I just-you are higher rank than me and jus-" I cut him off once again. How could even think such a thing? Why would even someone ever care about ranks? They don't matter, love does.
"Do you really think I'm that type of a girl? That I'd reject you for some stupid ranks." I spit the words out, I feel my eyes start getting teary.
Seeing this, he quickly scoots closer and takes me in his arms, apologizing over and over. I felt a single tear drop fall from my eye as it trailed down my cheek.
"I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have said that." he said hugging me closer to his chest, I sigh nodding in his chest indicating that I forgave him.
A few moments later, I pull away. I feel something cold touching my neck, I look down to see a hanging around my neck. An audible gasp escapes my lips as I look at it with awe.
A laugh makes me snap from my thoughts as I look at Hayden who laughed at me. I glare at him, confused. How did he manage to put it around my neck without me noticing?
"I'm so sorry for whatever I said. I know you are not that type of girl Hazel. I just said that so I could give you the necklace." he said slightly shrugging. I narrowed my eyes at him and crossed my arms across my chest. He almost made me cry.
"You could've given it to me like a normal being." I say as I look down at the necklace, a smile unconsciously appearing on my face.
"We aren't normal beings, Haze. We're werewolves."
I look at him to see him giving me a cheeky grin. I laugh at that and hug him once again.
"Don't dissappear the necklace this time." I say to which he chuckles saying he won't.
Pulling away, I quickly look at my neck to see the necklace not there. I gasp and glare at Hayden who had the necklace dangling between his fingers.
"Maybe." he said with a smirk as he shrugged. I give him a playful smile before trying to snatch the necklace from his hand.
I fall right on top of him as falls back at the couch, both of us laughing loudly. I snatch the necklace from his hand but he moves his hand. I sigh, annoyed before looking down in his eyes, deeply. He looks back in my eyes too, his mouth slightly ajar.
I dip my head down and peck the corners of his lips, his heartbeat including mine raises at the contact. Without wasting time, I quickly snatch the necklace from his hand.
I get off of him and poke my tongue out at him, laughing as he playfully glares at me.
"Love you too hun." I say as I blow a kiss towards him. He stands up and pretends to catch it and puts his hand on his chest above his heart, sighing dreamily. We both laugh at that.
I exit the pack house and see Hayden already standing outside next to his silver audi. When he sees me, he grins and waves. I laugh and wave at him too. We were so childish. We seemed more like best friends than mates and I loved it.
We both get inside the car and Hayden starts driving both of us to school.
We make light conversation throughout the ride. Finally arriving at school, I practically jump out of the car. Hayden also comes and grabs my hand as we both enter the huge building.
"I was thinking something." Hayden says, I look at him with a raised brow.
"And what was that dumb brain thinking?" I say, trying my best to not laugh. Hearing this, Hayden let's out a dramatic gasp as he puts his hand on his heart.
"You wound me Haze. And as I was saying, I was thinking that...."
"WE SHOULD HAVE A MOVIE NIGHT!!!!" he yells so loud that I'm sure his voice could be heard through the whole school. I shush him down and look at him like he was crazy.
"Are you crazy? Be quiet you idiot!" I say as I smack him on his bicep.
"Owh, Owh woman. Stop being violent. Hey!! Someone please help me! This woman wants to ruin my gorgeous face." he says in an overly dramatic tone as he looks at the students passing by with his hands around his face and a fake pleading look.
People smile, awing at us. No one would ever think that Hayden was the quarterback and the popular boy of our school. He was never arrogant and always used to joke with everyone. Another thing I loved about him.
I grab his arm and drag him towards our lockers. He turns around, waving at all the students with a solemn look.
"Guess it's a goodbye my dear friends!" he says as he let's out a very fake sob. I roll my eyes at that but a scream makes me stop in my steps. It belonged to a girl.
After that, the chaos started. Screams, growls, roars, cries and so much more.
Hayden grabbed my arm and headed towards the exit. My heart was currently pounding heavily in my chest.
"And where do you think you both are going?" the gruff voice stops the both of us in our tracks. Hayden quickly pushes me behind him.
That one word that was enough o break me down. No, no, No! I couldn't leave him here. I couldn't.
"No, you are coming with me." I say as I grip his bicep tightly. Tears already clouding my vision. Hayden turns around slightly and gives me a sweet smile which told me that this wasn't going to end good. His eyes held so much longing, love and pain.
"You have to, Haze. Please. For me." he said, I shook my head rapidly, tears streaming down my cheeks.
"Are you guys done with this sappy ass shit?" the male said again. Hayden pushed me back as he shifted in his wolf, the man following his action.
Hayden jumps on top of the wolf but the wolf steps away, the canines of Hayden's wolf had left huge marks on the wolf's neck.
Hayden snarled at the man, showing his canines that had blood dripping from them. I took a step back, I had never in my life seen Hayden looking so scary but I knew he was doing this for us.
Hayden's eyes snapped towards me.
"Leave" I heard in my mind. I shook my head but he said it again, this time more loudly.
He quickly turned around when the other wolf decided to attack him. He barely managed to dodge the attack.
I took steps back as I saw three more wolves coming towards him. I shifted into my wolf and ran. The guilt clawed at me for leaving my mate alone.
I ran and ran until but stopped when a sharp pain ignited within my heart. I shifted into my human form. It started increasing, spreading through my whole body.
A loud painful scream escaped my throat as I clutched my chest. I screamed once again. I felt my wolf leave my head, my eyes widened at that. This meant one thing.
Hayden was no more...
"NOOOOOOOOO" I yelled as loud as I could as I fell on my knees, sobbing loudly. Hearing a twig snap, I stand up quickly wiping my tears, I ran as fast as I could in my human form. I couldn't wait and shift.
I hear footsteps coming from behind me. Before I have the chance to turn around, I feel something hit my head, hard making me collapse down on the floor. I feel blood trailing down my head. My breathing was heavy and my hand was still clutching my chest.
After a while, I finally let myself succumb to the darkness in hopes it would relieve me from the pain.
Then it came. The pain. The screams. The cries. The pleads...
"Hey! Listen to me! Hazel!!" I look up at Annabelle to see her looking at me with concern shining in her wide eyes.
"W-what happened?" I asked, it was then when I noticed the droplets of sweat covering my forehead as I panted heavily.
"Y-you were having a panic attack and kept screaming no." she said giving me a sad look. I was surprised that the look didn't have pity but genuine sadness. Every person who I ever met after that incident pitied me but not her. Why?
"I'm sorry if I disturbed you, I didn't intend to."
"No, no! You didn't disturb us at all. I am just happy that I could help, please if you ever need me, tell me. I'll try my best to help." she said giving me a sweet smile that also held pain. I just stared at her, how could someone be so kind like her? I was just burden and she was ready to care for me. Why?
"I will. Thank you." I said turning my attention to my slightly trembling fingers that rested in my lap. I sighed, I shouldn't have ventured too deep in my thoughts. They always resulted in this but there was Noone to help me before, now there is and I don't want them hurting because of my pathetic self.
"Do you want something to eat. Water?" Annabelle asked politely, a ghostly smile appeared on my face as I nodded my head.
"That would be great."
She nodded and left the room, closing the door softly behind her. I just stared at the door confused. She reminded me of my best friend, Blair. Blair was the alpha's daughter but she wasn't arrogant and bitchy about it. That was one thing that I loved about her, she was just so sweet and kind to everyone.
I missed her, so much. I didn't even get a chance to see her one last time. I didn't even get a chance to say a goodbye to him. All because of my selfish self. I wish I hadn't left, I wish I had stayed.
I sighed, I had a second opportunity. A second mate. I don't know how that's possible, I don't know if I'm glad that I have a second mate but one thing that I'm sure about is, I won't be selfish this time. I won't. Not again...