Annabelle’s point of view
Bright light shone in my face causing me to turn around in my position and let out incoherent words. A slight chuckle made me sigh as I opened my eyes but closed them immediately because of the bright light. Rubbing them, I hoped for the sleepiness to leave me.
I looked at Xavier who was standing close to the window as he opened the curtains much to my dismay. Sitting up in the bed, I looked at the bright light that shone into the room with squinted eyes. I ran my fingers through my hair in hopes of making it not look like a complete nest.
“Morning.” I say returning Xavier’s greeting with a small smile, I turned my attention towards the white and golden clock that hung on the wall just above the door to the bathroom. My eyes widened as I let out an audible gasp. It was almost 11 am. I looked at Xavier who just shrugged.
“I guess we overslept.” He said, I just nodded at his words before standing up and making my way to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth before stepping in the shower. After I was done with my shower, I dried my hair with a towel. I always tried to avoid electronics for my hair.
I decided on wearing a pair of light blue jeans and oversized yellow hoodie which read the words ‘sunshine’ on them. Recently, I had been obsessing over oversized clothes recently. They were the types of clothing that were practically too good to be true.
I let my hair down since it was still wet from the shower. Finally stepping out of the bathroom, I saw Xavier sitting on the sofa with his laptop settled on his lap as he typed furiously. His eyes were squinted and his body seemed tense.
Upon seeing me, he flashed me a tired smile before moving his attention back to the laptop. I went and sat next to him.
“What will we do about breakfast?” I questioned, since it was quite late, I would’ve predicted that the maids were long done with breakfast and now probably were preparing lunch. I guess we could wait till lunch. It was going to be in an hour so we wouldn’t have to wait much.
“If you want, I can ask the maids to bring it here.” I shook my head hearing his words. I could wait a while but if he wanted to have breakfast then I wouldn’t stop him.
“If you want then we can, if not, we can wait till lunch.” I said with a shrug. Xavier nodded his head at my words and also agreed on waiting till lunch. Xavier had already shut his laptop down and had his full attention on me now.
“So how was your stay at your parent’s house?” he asked, upon hearing him, a bright smile settled on my lips as I remembered the events that had taken place there and the little bundle of joy that was now a part of our family. I completely turned towards Xavier with both of my hands clasped together.
“Oh, it was great! You won’t believe what happened, I mean you would but still.” I said causing Xavier to chuckle. “So what happened?” he asked, genuinely seeming curious.
“So my brother Carson, well he has a daughter!! And oh my god, she is the cutest little thing ever!! Her little actions, the way she giggles, tries to hold the bottle as I feed her, the way she drools all over my shoulder as I make her burp and the best one, when she gives me her cute toothless grin and mind you, she only gives me that grin.” I say, finally finishing my rant with a huge smile. I honestly could talk endlessly about Harmony. She was just too adorable.
I narrow my eyes at Xavier when I hear his voice through our mindlink. He looks at me with an indescribable emotion which was also mixed with guilt, seeing the guilt in his eyes. I immediately regretted what I had said even though I didn’t know what triggered him but I’m sure it was because of my words.
“So now that is the reason why you smell like baby powder.” He said and I gaped at him. Was that the only thing that he heard from my long speech?
“You are kidding me, right?” I said as I narrowed my eyes at Xavier who actually looked confused. “Why would I be kidding?” he asked as he tilted his head to the side looking as confused as ever. I opened my mouth to speak but I stopped when he let the slightest of his smile slip. He was playing with me!
“I-you. You evil being!!” I said as I raised my finger towards him. He just chuckled at my words and gave me a smug look. “That sounds vaguely familiar, doesn’t it angel?” he said with a smirk and at that moment I remembered these were the exact same words I had said to him when he had scared me which had resulted in the both of us falling in the freezing cold water of the lake.
I really do suck at insults.
“Yes, you do.” Xavier said, his smirk widening as his eyes twinkled with amusement and mischief. Of course he found me funny. Anyone would. “Stop reading my thoughts.” I said with a pout. Hearing me, the smirk on his face widened even further. Don’t his cheeks hurt??
“I can’t help it.” He said with a shrug, the smirk on his face reducing just a fraction. As an alpha, he could easily read anyone’s mind but only of the people of his own pack. Since I was the luna and his equal, I could block him out but I didn’t know how to and it wasn’t like I could google ‘how to put a block in order to stop my mate from reading my thoughts’. The last thing I wanted was to look like a complete idiot.
“Aww, don’t worry, you’re not an idiot, angel.” Xavier said as he slung his arm over my shoulder. I just passed him a glare, I hoped it looked like a glare but my hopes died down when I heard Xavier chuckle.
Xavier raised both of his hands and for the first time, I didn’t flinch. He put both his hands on my cheeks, cupping them. His large hands completely covered my cheeks. I felt his warm lips touch my forehead as he murmured out some incoherent words.
“I said you’re adorable.”
Heat rushed to my cheeks upon hearing his words. I was sure he could feel my heated cheeks under his hands. I felt another peck on my forehead before I felt one on the tip of my nose. My light blue eyes stared into Xavier’s dark ones as he placed a chaste kiss on my lips making my cheeks even redder than before. I felt a weird feeling settle itself in the pit of my stomach making me slightly shift in my position.
What was he doing to me?
We entered the dining room and I saw Hazel and Jax already seated there. They both seemed to be in a deep conversation since they didn’t hear us enter. Xavier and I took our seats and at that moment, the two of them noticed us.
Hazel passed me a polite smile while Jax just gave me a smug look. I frowned at that, what was up with him?
The maids soon entered the dining room and served all of us our food. All of us ate our food in silence until Jax decided to speak up. “Why didn’t you join us for breakfast Ann?” he said with a smug face. I frowned at his words and just shrugged.
“Oh, really? But you were always an early bird. What caused you to sleep so late? ” He said with a smirk, I nodded at his words agreeing with him. I was always an early bird so waking up this late was kind of a surprise to me. And it wasn’t like we slept late, we slept rather early. I guess we both were tired.
“I know right. I guess the both of us were pretty tired.” I replied with a shrug. I looked at Xavier who had a smile on his face as he focused on his food. He looked like he was stopping himself from laughing. What was so funny?
I looked at Hazel to see her shaking her head as she also smiled, her eyes focused on the contents on her plate. I finally turned my attention towards Jax to see him also shaking his head as he muttered incoherent words under his breath.
What was wrong with them?
“What happened? Why are all of you acting so weird?” I questioned with my brows furrowed, a frown etched onto my face. Jax let out a loud groan as he rubbed his face, still muttering incoherent words under his breath.
“What are you even blabbering?” I questioned once again, my attention focused on Jax. In all honesty, Jax looked deranged.
“What do you think mates or couples do late at night?” he asked, I squinted my eyes as I tried to retrieve an answer but the only answer I ended up with was sleep. What do mates do except that? I looked at Xavier for help but he just looked at me with amusement shining in his eyes.
“They sleep? Maybe watch Netflix?” I guessed, I heard another loud groan which was followed by banging. I looked at Jax to see him banging his head on the table. “Goddamn, you’re way too innocent, Ann.” Jax said with a sigh.
I thought for a while and then realization dawned upon me. A gasp escaped through my lips as I looked at Jax with a horrified expression. I heard a snort from beside me as I looked at Xavier who was biting his knuckle in order to stop himself from laughing.
“We didn’t do what you are thinking we did!!!” I exclaimed, my cheeks suddenly feeling hot due to embarrassment. Why did he have to talk about such things while we ate? Now he ruined my appetite. I looked at my meal with longing but the tears in my eyes told me that I’d have to leave as soon as possible. I didn’t want to break down in front of everyone.
I excused myself and left the dining room, running as fast as I could to our room. Halfway through, I felt hot liquid starting to drip from my eyes causing my vision to get blurry. Hastily wiping away the tears, I walked towards our room. My legs felt like they would collapse any moment and so they did, right after I stepped into our room.
Our room. The same room which I had seen countless times in my nightmares.
The memories I had tried to shove at the back of my mind were once again starting to resurface. It wasn’t Jax’s fault because I knew his intentions were only to lighten up the mood. It was bound to happen sooner or later, that I knew of but still hoped that it wouldn’t happen.
I raised my hand to wipe the tears that streamed down my face, soaking my clothes. As I brought my hands down, I found them trembling furiously. At that moment, a thought that i wished to never think of hit me.
Was I doing the right thing?
I shook my head, hoping to get rid of that thought, a sob escaping past my lips at my unsuccessful attempt. I brought my quivering hands and ran them down my face as my whole body shook with uncontrollable sobs.
I felt the door of the room open, already knowing who it might be. I didn’t bother turning around instead I wiped the stream of fresh tears that flooded through my eyes. I felt Xavier kneel beside me and softly caress my cheek, wiping away the tears that soaked it as well. Goddess, why weren’t they stopping?
I lifted my eyes to meet Xavier’s only for guilt to hit me when I saw the pain and regret in his eyes. Great, I had managed to send him on another guilt trip. After finally making him momentarily forget about our past, I brought it back.
“I’m okay.” the words left my mouth before i could stop them, I saw Xavier’s brows furrow before he let out a little chuckle.
“You know you always sucked at lying.” he answered my unasked question with a pained expression. I bit my lip as I remembered how he and everyone I knew had told me that countless times. I had always been a bad liar and at times like these, I wish I wasn’t.
“I’m sorry, angel. I really am. I’d do anything and by anything I mean anything to remove those haunting memories that you have to live with every single day.” Xavier started and I knew he meant each and every word due to the sincerity that laced his tone.
I didn’t know what to say. I knew I hadn’t completely forgiven him yet. I don’t think anyone could, but then why did I feel so bad? I felt like I was the one who should be guilty.
Taking in a deep breath, I met Xavier’s eyes with a small smile. “Let’s go to sleep.” I said, sleep was my only escape now, only when I wasn’t being chased by my nightmares. Standing up, my legs first felt wobbly and were about to give up on me when Xavier wrapped his arm around my waist in a securing manner. Xavier removed his arm from my waist when I finally felt steady enough to walk on my own.
Quietly laying down on the bed, I brought the duvet up to my neck before turning towards Xavier’s side with my eyes closed. I heard Xavier’s footsteps move towards what I assumed as the window to close the curtains. After a few seconds, I was proved right when I heard the curtains close.
A few seconds later, I felt the bed dip indicating the presence of Xavier. I felt a hand touch my hair as it slowly caressed it bringing a sense of comfort to me. I felt Xavier’s lips touch my forehead, lingering there for a while. A sudden type of coldness enveloped me when his lips left my forehead and I controlled the urge to ask him to do it once again.
“I’m so sorry, angel. I wish I could change the past even if it meant sacrificing my life just so you wouldn’t have to go through those things, I really wish I could.” there was immense guilt and regret in his tone. It took everything in me to not comfort him and tell him it was okay.
“I have some work to do, i’ll be back, angel. Sleep well.” with that said, i felt Xavier get up before i heard the door open and close.
A quivering breath escaped past my lips as I felt the loneliness slowly creeping with me. But that wasn’t the thing that scared me. It was the feeling that laid beneath it all, deep inside the pit of my stomach causing me to twist and turn in my position, just wanting to be away from it.
It was a feeling that indicated bad news like something terrible was about to come. It wasn’t a pleasant feeling by any means; in fact it was a feeling that would want you to scream and shout at everyone around you, informing them of what was about to come.
Something terrible was about to happen...