Annabelle’s point of view
The dinner yesterday went amazing. It still was a shock how much Harmony loved Xavier. She hadn’t even been with him for a whole hour and she was attached like he was his mother or something. Although that thought was quite funny, Xavier acting as a father.
I tied my hair up, leaving a few tendrils to frame my face. Hazel was currently seated at my bed, we both had decided to have a movie marathon.
“Oh my God, you look so cute!!” Hazel exclaimed, I smiled at her while thanking her. She had been a lot more open and just happy now which made me extremely glad.
“Okay, now which movie do you want to watch?” I asked as I turned the TV on, moving my eyes to Hazel I looked at her expectantly for a suggestion since I always sucked at them.
“Wanna watch truth or dare?” Hazel said looking at me with her bright blue eyes. Hers were quite similar to mine but her hair was different, while mine was kind of golden, hers was a shade of platinum.
“Sure.” I said, switching onto Netflix and putting the movie on. We both sat down on the bed with our cozy blankets to keep us warm. Snacks laid in front of us, there was popcorn, chips, drinks and a pizza. It was the perfect movie night even though it was the middle of the day.
The weather recently had been very stormy that’s why we couldn’t go out, I felt bad for all the children that normally played in the gardens. They would be locked up in their houses but weather like these also bring hot chocolate so I think the children might not be complaining.
The movie started and Hazel opened the pizza box, passing me a slice which I gladly took. Stuffing the pizza into my mouth, I stared at the screen, watching intently.
I had also invited Selena but due to some urgent work, she couldn’t come. It did dim my mood a little since I would’ve loved to see Selena and Hazel get along but that wasn’t possible now, maybe another time.
“How was the dinner last night?” Hazel asked, I looked at her to see her attention focused on me.
“It was great! That little traitor gave her first kiss and to whom? Xavier! And here I thought I was her favorite person.” I said, pouting at the end. I heard Hazel chuckle as she sat the half eaten slice of pizza back in the box.
“The alpha doesn’t seem like a guy who’d love children but I guess we don’t know much about him yet, one thing that I may know is that he really cares about you.” she said with a shrug, my cheeks heated up at her words.
“So how are things going between you and Jax?” I said with a small smile, trying to divert the attention from me. Upon hearing me, a shy smile adorned her features as she fumbled with her fingers.
“He-he’s very nice, kind, caring and funny. He reminds me a lot of him. Even though they look different, their personalities are almost the same. I’m sure they would’ve been the best of friends.” she said with a faraway look, her eyes were glazed with tears. I bit my lip, regretting asking her that question.
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have asked that.” i said, looking down at my lap in guilt. I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up, “Hey, it isn’t your fault. Stop beating yourself for it, now lets focus on the movie!” she said, grabbing her half eaten slice and stuffing it in her mouth while focusing on the movie.
Grabbing my slice, I also turned my attention to the movie, even though I didn’t have any idea on what was happening.
During the movie, Hazel often cracked jokes that would have you rolling around in laughter. We had decided to watch horror movies although it seemed more like a comedy with all of Hazel’s comments.
Right now, I was sitting on the bed while listening to Lana Del Ray and scrolling through pinterest. Partially the reason to my actions was the uneasy feeling in the pit of my stomach. It was like the one that I had before once but even more stronger, i just wanted to get rid of it somehow.
Sighing, I closed the phone and laid down on the bed, maybe I should try to sleep. Twisting and turning, I willed for sleep to come but it didn’t. I laid in a fetus position, clutching my stomach tightly. I could feel the tears forming in my eyes. The disturbing feeling was growing stronger and stronger with each passing second.
What was happening?
My breathing turned ragged, it felt as if all the air was sucked out of me. Gasping for air, I stood up only to collapse back on the bed. A choked sob escaped past my lips as I clutched my stomach tightly.
Xavier, there is this terrible feeling i’m feeling and I don’t know how to get rid of it. I need your help.
I mindlinked Xavier but instead of getting a response, all I received was silence, an eerie type of silence. Maybe his block was up, that’s why he couldn’t reply. He must be busy. But why did I feel like that wasn’t the case?
The feeling started spreading throughout my whole body making me let out a loud ear-piercing scream. I heard the door open and with my blurry vision, I saw the silhouettes of whom I think were Hazel and Jax.
They both rushed towards me, I looked down sobbing loudly. My whole body shook with each sob, “What happened, Ann? Are you alright? Are you in pain? What’s going on? Call the doctor, Jax!!” Hazel said all at once, I could hear the worry that laced each of her words.
The pain came to a point where it was practically unbearable and at that moment I realized that it wasn’t my pain. It belonged to Xavier. My whole body froze as my skin turned as white as a sheet.
“I need to see him.” I murmured standing up, standing up took a lot of effort but at that moment, I didn’t care. Taking in a deep breath, I shifted into my wolf. The pain-filled howls of June didn’t help much either.
Grabbing one of Xavier’s shirt in my paws, I ran towards his office not caring about the weird glances I received from the people passing by. Without knocking, I entered Xavier’s office. I saw his head laying on the table, was he asleep? I really hoped he was.
Moving to the bathroom in his office, I shifted and quickly put on the shirt. I exited the bathroom and decided to wake Xavier so he could go sleep back in the room and not in this uncomfortable chair.
I was about to wake him up when the sound of something dripping caught my attention, the dreadful feeling returning again with full force making me also remind of the pain that I momentarily forgot.
I took careful steps towards Xavier, shaking his body lightly. A red patch on his black shirt caught my attention. At that moment, I felt my whole form go numb. With trembling hands, I grabbed his shoulders and raised his head from the chair.
Carefully resting it on the chair, I looked at the red puddle that laid right beneath the chair. I took a couple of steps back, my eyes wide.
“No, no, no, this can’t be happening. NO!!!” I screamed, I felt a hand on my shoulder, jerking away I turned to see frantic Jax. i looked behind him to see a couple of men who were also holding a rolling bed.
“Let them take him, Ann.” he whispered, his eyes and voice held worry. Nodding my head numbly, I stepped aside standing in the corner. My eyes remained focused on his face. His once tan skin now looked deadly pale.
The men carefully laid him on the stretcher. At that moment, I noticed the chair was also covered in blood. My eyes once again watered, my heart clenching in pain at the scene in front of me. It almost felt as if my heart was being ripped out of my chest.
My eyes remained focused on the chair, even though my eyes were focused on it, my mind was somewhere else. Ugly thoughts filled them and the demons that had left me, or so I thought, came back with full force.
What if they can’t save him?
Your mate is dying.
You couldn’t even save your mate.
He’s going to leave you.
The last sentence made me snap out of my thoughts. No, he won’t leave me. He can’t! I rushed out of the room and made my way to the infirmary. Arriving there, I quickly went to the girl sitting on the reception.
“Wh-where is he? The alpha.” I questioned, breathing heavily due to running all the way here. The girl was about to answer when I saw Jax standing talking to whom i’m assuming was a doctor.
Upon seeing me, he gave me a sad smile. The doctor left after a few seconds, I took that as a cue and made my way towards Jax.
“How is he? Where did they take him? Is he going to be alright?” I asked Jax all at once. I needed answers, hopefully they were what I hoped they would be.
“Breath, Ann. Breath. You’re not breathing.” he said, hearing him I took a deep breath even though all I wanted was to see him. It felt as if breathing didn’t matter at this point. I opened my eyes and looked at Jax with hope but the sigh that escaped past his lips told me I wasn’t going to like what he was about to say.
“He...he isn’t in a good condition. He lost a lot of blood, his wound was quite small but for some reason, it was bleeding quite a lot. They are trying to pick up a pulse right now but his chances are low, Ann.” he said while I just stood there frozen. It felt as if someone just sucked the life out of me.
“C-can I see him?” I asked already knowing the answer to my question. I heard a sigh from Jax and I knew the answer was no.
“I’m sorry Ann but we can’t. He is in the intensive care unit right now.” he said, I nodded my head, not saying anything. I didn’t know what to say. I felt like screaming but I just couldn’t. I felt like sobbing in a corner, expressing to anyone what I was going through but I couldn’t. I just couldn’t.
“Hey, you should sit down. It’s going to be alright.” Jax said, nodding my head once again I made my way to one of the seats that sat in the hallway. His words didn’t bring any comfort to me, even though I badly wanted them to. It was not going to be alright. This was probably all my fault. I had a strong guess of who might have done that to Xavier and I knew the reason to their actions was clearly me. He didn’t deserve the pain, he didn’t. He already suffered enough in his childhood, this just didn’t seem fair. Even though he did terrible things to me and his actions couldn’t be justified, he just didn’t deserve it.
He didn’t deserve me.
I held my head in my hands, moisture touched my palms and I knew that the dam was broken. I sobbed silently, not wanting to gain attention. The last thing I wanted was other people’s pity.
I’m not sure how long I sat there crying and drowning myself in guilt. The tears had stopped a while back. Now I just sat here beating myself up.
A pair of arms wrapped around me making me look up to see Hazel. She had tears in her eyes while she gave me a sad smile. Her eyes didn’t reflect pity, they reflected sympathy, she knew what I was going through.
Seeing her, the tears once again resurfaced as I hugged her tightly and cried in her shoulder. Her hands rubbed my back in order to sooth me. I didn’t know why I was crying once again but she felt like family. She was family and probably the only person who would understand my pain.
“It’s all my fault. I c-couldn’t be a good ma-te.” I said in between sobbing, her hand touched my hair as she caressed it.
“Hey, it’s not your fault. Nothing is your fault. It was bound to happen one way or another, you can’t change fate, Ann. But what you can do is pray that he will be alright.” she said, nodding at her words, I wiped away the tears even though it was quite hard since they wouldn’t stop.
“You’re right. I’ll pray. He has to come back.” I said, swiping my hand across my cheeks, removing the remnants of tears. Hazel smiled at me and squeezed my shoulder lightly.
“He will, Ann.” she said, standing up. I stood up with her, my eyes remained fixed on the intensive care unit at the end of the hallway.
You’ll have to come back, Xavier.
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