Hazel’s point of view
I made my way downstairs for breakfast. Wrapping my arms around myself, I looked at the dark clouds that had now settled in the sky. Guess we were in for more rain.
Arriving at the dining room, I looked at the empty head chair with pursed lips. Without saying a word, I sat down on my chair, Jax passed me a small smile before turning his attention to his plate.
“Where is Ann? Is she not going to eat? That’s not good for her, she didn’t have lunch or dinner yesterday as well.” I said when I noticed her absence. I knew she was in a lot of pain but she can’t skip meals like this. It’s not good for her health.
“Calm down, I’m sure she’s going to come.” just as he said that, I saw her enter the dining room. Her hair was wet probably from the shower she took while the bags under her eyes showed lack of sleep.
She sat down after passing the both of us a tired smile. Her eyes didn’t hold the usual sparkle in them but what did we expect? After what she is going through, I obviously wouldn’t expect her to be happy.
Everyone ate in a rather uncomfortable silence, I just somehow wanted to get rid of it. Guilt gnawed at my heart when I realized that I hadn’t yet told her about what I had seen yesterday. During all this, I had momentarily forgotten about it. It could be very helpful in finding that beta.
But that feeling, staring into those eyes, I knew that I had seen them before but I just couldn’t pinpoint where. And by the looks of it, I knew the person knew who I was well but there was that question again.
Who was that person?
“Hey, you good?” I turned my head upwards to see Jax looking at me with furrowed brows, concern and worry etched onto his face.
“I’m good, why?” I said turning towards Ann who had an experience similar to Jax.
“Oh, okay, you just zoned for some time.” he said, clearly not believing whatever I said. Nodding at his words, I stared at the food on my plate with sadness. I clearly remembered the times where the rogues wouldn’t give me food for days and would leave me in the basement, all beaten and bruised. Those were some times that I never wanted to think about, ever, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t stop myself from falling back into the endless pit of darkness.
“So did you contact all the alphas, Jax?” Ann questioned, staring at Jax who nodded his head, informing her about the packs that he had sent the letter to.
“Yes, I did inform all the packs that had contact with the alpha and also attached a picture of the beta.” Jax grimaced as he thought of that person. Honestly. It would be an understatement if I said I was shocked to know what the previous beta was like.
“That’s good, I checked the file out but there wasn’t any information that could help us.” Ann said, anger quite evident in her voice. Her fists were tightly holding the fork, her eyes shining with utter rage and disgust. One thing was sure that that disgusting beta wasn’t going to survive.
“We could search his room for evidence?” Jax suggested, Ann thought over his words before nodding her head while I just sat there quietly. Should I tell her what I saw right now?
I bit my lip, contemplating.
I will tell her but I can’t tell right now.
“I’m gonna take my leave, I have to visit Xavier.” Ann said before standing up and leaving. I turned my attention back to the now cold breakfast, playing around with the scrambled eggs, no longer having an appetite.
“Okay, I can clearly see that something is bothering you, you can tell me if you want.” Jax said after a few minutes of silence, turning my head from my plate, I looked at him and shrugged.
“It’s nothing, just tired.” what I said wasn’t a complete lie, sleep was something that I didn’t get very often because of my constant nightmares.
“I know it is something more than that, Hazel,” he said quietly, my eyes widened at his words as I stared at him with a bewildered expression, “But I won’t question.” he ended before standing up and leaving.
I sighed, staring at my plate with frustration. I was slightly glad that Jax wasn’t questioning me but I did feel extremely bad for lying to him. Hurt bursted within me as terrible memories started resurfacing.
“I need you right now, Rora. please come back.” I whispered as I held my head between my hands. I miss her so much, it hurt a lot when she disappeared without informing. It hurt when she wasn’t there to comfort me as I laid bloody and battered in that cell. It all hurt. But still, I missed her dearly, she was my wolf afterall, a part of me.
Standing up, I exited the dining hall. I stared at the rain that was now heavily pouring. Sighing, I stood there for a while, simple staring. I could feel the guilt gnawing at my heart and I so badly wanted to get rid of it but I knew I couldn’t. Not right now.
Taking in a deep breath, I knocked on the door lightly. It soon opened revealing Ann who looked quite distressed, the bags under her eyes were a dead giveaway. Even though she looked extremely tired she still managed to give me a smile.
“Hazel, what are you doing here? Is everything alright?” she questioned stepping aside so I could enter the room. Stepping inside, I looked at the untouched food that sat on her bed with a frown.
“I just wanted to talk, if that’s alright with you?”
“Of course, I’m here whenever you need me.” Ann said, sending a jolt of guilt through my body. Shaking my head, I tried to rid myself of all the negative thoughts and willed myself to focus on the reason why I was here.
“How are you holding up?” I questioned first, concern overpowering my other emotions. Even if i hadn’t known her for much long, I considered her the sister I never had and the best friend I lost.
“I don’t know to be honest, there are points where I want to scream at someone, just express my pain but there are moments where I just feel numb.” she said with a sigh, her sigh held the tiredness and pain her eyes reflected.
“If you want to talk, I’m here.”
Ann turned towards me with a small smile, “I’m glad to have you as my friend, Hazel.” she said those words and I could feel the sincerity in her voice which didn’t help in reducing the guilt I was feeling.
I was about to open my mouth again when the door swung open and a frantic Jax entered, his gaze landed on Ann before he said in a shaky voice, “It’s about the alpha, Ann.”
I heard a gasp from beside me, turning around I saw Ann standing with an horrified look, I could see the immense fear swirling in her irises.
“Can we talk later, Hazel?” she questioned and I nodded my head, assuring her. I was surprised that she didn’t just ignore me and run to her mate, this was just another example of how much of an angel she was.
“Sure, you need to be with the alpha right now.” I said, nodding her head, she and Jax left the room but I didn’t miss the wary glance Jax gave me. He was well aware that I was hiding someone and it did feel bad hiding stuff from him but I didn’t have any other option.
A sigh escaped my lips as I closed the door behind me. I made my way straight towards the bed, sitting down, I closed my eyes and massaged my temples to relieve myself of some stress.
That single question stroke again making me grow tense but that wasn’t the only thing that made me tense, it was the rattling of the doorknob.
Jumping from my position, I quickly went inside the bathroom, panic arising within me as I hid in the cupboards below the sink, since my frame was quite small, I easily fitted inside.
Since Jax and I hadn’t mated and I was yet to become a pack member, mindlink wasn’t an option for me.
My heart nearly burst out of my chest when I heard the door slam open and footsteps moving around the room, probably searching. The footsteps weren’t that heavy indicatin me that it wasn’t a male.
Was it the same person I had seen?
“Come out, come out wherever you are.” I heard someone say, her voice was feminine confirming my suspicion. Her voice sounded very familiar but I still couldn’t pinpoint from where I’d heard it.
Just then the cupboard opened and I came face to face with a pair of very familiar grey eyes. My voice got stuck in my throat as I stared at her with fear.
“Man, I really hoped it wasn’t going to be you but I guess luck is just not on my side today.” she said as she grabbed my arm pulling me out. I stumbled on my feet a bit and I was pretty sure a bruise was going to form due to her harsh grip on my arm but the shock I was feeling right now was overpowering every other emotion I felt.
“H-how?” I stuttered, I was still having a hard time wrapping my head around the information. A smirk formed on her red tainted lips as she stared at with eyes that once used to be filled with warmth but now were as cold as ice. Was it all a facade then?
“Well, you see before the rogues attacked, a rogue had asked me for information, if I didn’t give it to them, they would kill me so I told them everything I could find, then they made me an offer, that I could either join them or die with my pack when they attack. Now of course I couldn’t let myself die, I had a whole life ahead of me so I agreed.” she said with a careless shrug arising anger, how could she say such things so casually?
“Why did you do that to your own pack?” I gritted, it felt as if the girl I knew no longer existed. Hearing me, she let out a hearty chuckle as if all this was funny.
“Our own self always comes first, I just did what everyone in my situation would’ve done. Save my own self.” she said as if it was the most obvious thing ever which didn’t help with the rage and hurt I was feeling.
“How could be so selfish? How? Do you have any idea what I had to go through all these years?” I yelled, rage overtaking me. Her smirk widened just further hearing me.
“Of course I know, in fact I was the one who suggested it.” she grinned as she uttered those words. For a moment, everything went blank. All these years when I was being tortured, beaten and what not, missing my mate, family and her, she was living the best life knowing how I was suffering.
“Why?” I whispered but I knew she heard it when she let out another chuckle. It was anything but friendly.
“Isn’t it obvious? You always got the love from everyone, you were beautiful, loving and everything I wasn’t. And you know that didn’t even bother me because you were my best friend but when your mate turns out to be the guy I had always loved, I lost it. Each day, when I would see the both of you hanging out together, I would think of ways to kill you and you know I was going to kick you out of the pack but I was sure if I did then Hayden would leave as well so I didn’t “ she hissed, venom lacing her tone and whole being while I stood there with my mouth agape. Never in a million years would I have ever expected her to like him.
“But you know when the rogues told me what they wanted to do with you, was I happy? I was fucking ecstatic. It was like the best time of my life, seeing you suffer.” she said with another hearty chuckle, the happiness in her eyes hurt me deep within. How could she do something like this?
“Hayden was my mate that fate gave me, you can’t change fate.” I whispered with a broken voice as I stared at her face with hurt but she only grinned.
“You’re right just like you can’t change this.” she said as she raised a gun towards me. My breath hitched in my throat as I stared at with widened eyes. Was this how I was going to die? But I didn’t tell Ann about Blaire.
A loud sound resonated through the whole pack mansion and at that moment I felt light, I looked down at my stomach to see blood seeping through the once clean shirt. I brought my trembling hands and clutched the bloody area in hopes of stopping the blood but I knew no one could save me now.
I was dying.
With that, I let the endless darkness consume me.