Annabelle’s point of view
Fear. that was the only emotion that I felt at that moment. It wasn’t any normal fear, it was a paralyzing kind, one that would completely consume you as every nerve and cell in your body screamed in the horrifying feeling.
I stood there in the hallway, tears streaming down my face but no sound escaped from my mouth, I just stood there registering the doctor’s words.
His condition is worsening, I’m afraid to be the bearer of such news but his survival rates are reducing greatly and rapidly.
I could feel the thrumming of my heart, everything around me had seemed to fade. Only the fear remained. I could feel someone shaking me but I just stood there, my eyes focused on nothing particular and my thoughts focused on him.
What if he won’t make it?
Now my hope of him waking up and calling me angel had reduced greatly. It was as if I was tasting death, a rather disturbing and painful feeling.
You will never get to see his adorable blush.
“You have to listen to me, Ann.”
You will never get to hear him call you angel.
“Please, don’t let the demons get to your head.”
You will never get to feel his small pecks on the top of your head.
“You have to snap out of it, Ann.”
You will never get to see Luca.
“Please, I know they are clawing at you but don’t let them win.”
You will never get to see him. Never.
“Think of the alpha, think of Xavier. He wouldn’t want to see you in such condition when he wakes up, Ann.”
The last sentence made me snap out of my thoughts as I stared at Jax as he sighed in relief.
“If.” I whisper, my voice sounding quieter than usual. Jax first seems confused before realization sets in and he takes me in a comforting hug. My tears soak his shirt as the doctor’s words keep repeating in my head.
Pulling away, I wipe the remnants of tears before I take a seat in one of the plastic chairs, the familiar coldness and rigidness of the chair enveloping me.
“Did the doctors say anything?” I question as Jax takes a seat next to me, shaking his head.
“You should go check up on Hazel, she must be alone.” I whispered, I masaged my temples, closing my eyes as the tiredness from lack of sleep kicked in.
“I will, I’m just waiting for the doctors to arrive.” he said, a look of love and admiration settling on his features as he mentioned his mate. I smiled at that, happy for the both of them.
“You really do love her.” I mentioned. Even though I hadn’t known Hazel for a long time, the bond that I had formed with her was very precious to me and I didn’t want to lose it, ever.
“I do, she is my second mate, my second chance at life. I lost my first mate because of her selfishness, I don’t want to lose Hazel, ever. I don’t know what I would do without her to be honest. I can no longer imagine my life without her.” he whispers smiling, probably thinking about Hazel.
“She will never leave you, she isn’t like your previous mate.” I stated, I knew that she would never leave him and I couldn’t have been happier that she is his mate. They both were made for each other.
“The alpha won’t leave you as well, Ann.” he whispered, making me intake a sharp breath. I knew he wouldn’t but we don’t know what fate has planned for us.
“I-i know he won’t but one can never be so sure.” I sighed, the doctor’s words once again repeating in my head.
Instead of getting a reply, I heard shuffling. I turned my head upwards and saw Jax standing there with a scrunched face.
“What happened?” I asked when I noticed the stress lines on his forehead that had just now appeared. He shook his head before whispering, his tone holding stress when he uttered those words, “Something doesn’t feel right.”
“What do you mean?” I questioned standing up, concern washing over me as well.
“I don’t know, I’m going to go check up on Hazel, you stay here.” he said before leaving. I sat down and started praying for Hazel’s safety and for everything to be alright.
Just then I heard a loud bang making my heart momentarily stop. Everyone around me stopped whatever they were doing as fear took over all of them, including me. Please let everything be alright.
Jax’s point of view
I ran as fast as I could, making my way to Hazel’s room, fear seeping within my heart.
Something was wrong.
Just then I heard a loud bang making me stop dead in my tracks. Shifting into my wolf, I ran as fast as I could. I could feel my wolf, Jay, whimpering just increasing my worry and fear.
Finally arriving at the door, I slammed myself into it almost breaking the door off its hinges. Without wasting a single second, I entered the room and started searching for Hazel, my worry only increased when I didn’t find her anywhere in the room.
The metallic stench of blood hit my nostrils as I neared the bathroom. My heart fell when I saw my mate laying there, her hands bloodied as they clutched her stomach.
A howl of pain erupted from me as I moved near her pale form. A few warriors entered the room, panic etched onto their face. One of them passed me a pair of shorts as they exited the room, I went into the room and quickly shifted back to my human form and wore the shorts.
I stepped back into the bathroom and picked her into my arms carefully, the painful howls of my wolf making it hard to focus on anything so I, with a heavy heart, blocked him out.
Leaving the room, I rushed to the infirmary. A sob escaped past my lips as I realized this is the second time I was carrying her like this and both of the times she was on the verge of death. Was I her bad luck charm? She had just escaped those rogues just for her to land into another hell.
I was her hell.
Entering the infirmary, I saw a few doctors rushing towards me. Carefully lying Hazel down on the stretcher, I let the doctors do their job, my vision blurry from all the tears but still focused on my mate who was being taken away by doctors, once again.
Falling on my knees, I let out a series of sobs, each one reflecting the pain and hatred I felt for myself. Because of me, she is in such condition. She had already been going through so much but I just added even more to her plate.
I couldn’t protect her, I couldn’t protect my own mate. I failed just like always. No wonder my first mate left me as well. I am just worthless and a burden, she doesn’t deserve a pathetic mate like who failed in protecting her, twice.
She deserves so much better but now there is a chance that she might not even survive to know that. All because of me.
“Jax.” I hear someone whisper and I instantly know it’s Ann. looking at her, I start sobbing once again. Her face seemed pale as tears rolled down her cheeks as well. She wrapped her arms around me and took me in a hug, rubbing my back.
“She is in this condition all because of me, I couldn’t be a good mate and protect her. I failed her, Ann. I failed her.” I sob loudly, expressing the pain I felt.
“Hey, don’t say that, you didn’t do anything, it isn’t your fault, in fact it’s my fault. That person is behind me, he is the one who hurt Hazel as well.” she said and I could sense the guilt lacing her tone.
“If it’s not my fault then it isn’t yours as well.” I said as I pulled away and wiped my tears that coated my face away, Ann following my action. I looked at Ann and I could see the guilt swirling in her blue orbs. I sighed, she shouldn’t be feeling guilty, none of this is her fault.
It’s all that motherfucker’s fault. I swear to the moon goddess, if the alpha doesn’t do anything to him, I surely won’t hesitate.
“Hey, I’ve told you it’s not your fault, don’t feel bad, Ann. Hazel wouldn’t want to see you like this.” I whispered, ignoring the lump that formed in my throat when my mind conjured up horrifying possibilities.
What if she never wakes up to see us? To see me?
“Beta.” turning around, I see the female doctor standing there with a solemn face. Her expressions were a dead giveaway that something was wrong, not to forget the unsettling feeling that was starting to appear within the pit of my stomach.
“Doctor,” I acknowledged before asking the question whose answer I dreaded, “How is my mate? Is she alright?” it was quite painful to know these were the same words I had said when she had tried to end her life. Sometimes I really wonder which grave sin I had committed to always have my happiness snatched.
“She has lost quite a lot of blood, unfortunately the bullet hit some blood vessels causing internal bleeding. We are currently working on it but we’d suggest not keeping your hopes up.” the doctor explained, her face void of any emotion.
I wasn;t able to focus on the comforting hand that settled on my shoulder. I wasn’t able to focus on the words the doctor said. I wasn’t able to focus on the scream I heard when my body collapsed and landed on the tiles floor of the hospital.
All that I could focus on was one thing. My mate. She was the last person I remembered before I closed my eyes and succumbed to the darkness.
Annabelle’s point of view
I let out a startled scream when I saw my friend’s body land on the floor. A bunch of nurses rushed toward him while I tried to shake him awake. The relief I felt when I saw his chest and rise and fall was immense, removing all of the ugly thoughts that had started to appear in my mind.
He can’t leave me alone. He is the only person I have right now.
I had an idea of what he was doing by attacking the people close to me. He was trying to take out all of them so he could get to me, and if I was being honest, I would’ve given myself to him if it meant protecting my loved ones from harm’s way.
The nurses took Jax away to a room so he could rest.
“What happened to him?” I asked the doctoras she fumbled with a bunch of files. Hearing me, she turned her attention towards me before giving me a slight bow.
“He must’ve passed out from all the stress. Seeing your mate in such a condition can take a huge toll on the person.” she said in a monotone voice, her soft slightly softening at the end.
Nodding my head, I took a seat in the all too familiar hospital chair. I felt like I was here more than the house in the past few days and it surely wasn’t something that I would like to experience.
I felt moisture on my cheeks, raising my hands to my cheek, I saw that I was crying, again. Great. I’m pretty sure I have shedded more tears in these few days than my whole life.
I shifted in my seat slightly, closing my eyes. I willed myself to remember all the good times so I could escape my daunting thoughts. Our dates, movie marathons with Hazel, classes with Jax, nights with Harmony, baking with dad, playing dress up with Selena. All those happy moments, ones I would cherish until the day I take my last breath.
My family. My friends. And lastly, my mate.