Exhaling, he opened his eyes and stared at the white ceiling blankly. It was a rather pale shade of white and looked too blank.
Where in the world was he?
He groaned loudly before sitting up, the wounds on his backs were sending jolts of pain though his body. His eyes immediately went towards his wrists where there were no longer any cuffs. There was dry blood covering them while the cuts had turned an ugly shade of purple.
With much struggle, he stood up and noticed that he was in a hospital room. He limped towards the door, swinging it open and stepping outside. As soon he stepped into the hallway, he heard gasps and some startled screams and yells.
Immediately doctors rushed to his aid. He took in the scent of the doctors and knew he was back at his pack. His senses were weak but not completely gone.
"Alpha, let us check your wounds." The doctor said, panicked. Xavier frowned and nodded. He wanted to see his angel.
"L-Luna." He whispered, his voice was hoarse and barely audible but thankfully, the doctor heard him. He quickly nodded before turning to a nurse and yelling, "Call the Luna!"
The nurses quickly nodded before running out of the infirmary. Xavier quietly stared at the disappearing form of the nurse. His head felt heavy and his body was slightly swaying. He knew he was on the verge of fainting.
He just wanted to see his angel before that happened.
"Angel." That was the last word he said before fainting. The doctors eyes widened as he held the huge frame of Xavier. With much effort, he took him inside, careful not to touch his wounds but it was turning out to be hard since his whole back was ripped to shreds.
"We have to stitch up the-" The doctor got cut off by the door bursting open and a frantic Ann stepped in. Her eyes immediately fell on Xavier and she held in a sob. She was both relieved yet worried.
"H-how did he come back?" Her voice broke as she spoke, her eyes slowly trailing from his bruised wrists to the huge wound on his stomach caked with blood.
"We're not sure Luna. He just stepped out of this room and asked for you." The doctor explained before he began working on his wounds. She nodded her head, still confused. Deciding to let the doctor do his job alone, she stepped out of the room and sat on one of the many plastic chairs aligned with the wall.
Partially the reason to her leaving was also because she couldn't bear seeing him in that state.
Sitting down with her head between her hands, she exhaled a deep breath she didn't know she was holding. She was confused and she needed answers but she didn't know whom she could get them from.
She looked up at the door leading to his room and saw the doctor wrapping a bandage around his arm through the little window in the door.
The doctor stepped out of the room and went to a nurse, giving her some orders before the both of them stepped back into the room.
She watched them as they wrapped his whole torso in bandages after cleaning and stitching the wounds. It looked painful and made her heart ache just from the thought that he had to go through so much pain.
The doctor exited the room a while later and upon seeing him, she immediately stood up. The doctor gave her a bow before speaking, “We checked all his wounds and most of them were deep and required stitching, they might not heal anytime soon due to the silver in his body but we’ll try our best. We could ask for some potions from the witches if you want to, luna.”
She nodded, listening to each word the doctor said carefully. “Do we know any reliable witches?” The doctor seemed to be deep in his thoughts before his face lit up and he nodded. “We do know Luciana, luna. She is a very powerful witch and has helped us countless times. I'm sure she would be glad to help.”
“I’ll ask the beta to send the request to her.” The doctor nodded before leaving to treat some other patient.
She turned towards the door and contemplated on whether she should go inside or not. Shaking her head, she grabbed the metal handle, turning it around before stepping inside the room. She felt a strange feeling bubble inside her chest at the sight of him. He was breathing steadily, his chest rising and falling with each breath.
She carefully stepped towards him, taking a seat in the chair beside his bed. A sense of deja vu hit her as she did so. She looked at the white bandage wrapped around his wrist and bit her lip to stop herself from crying.
She observed his skin, it had grown less paler than before which she was happy about but the bruises adorning his skin didn't look so nice.
"Hey," She blurted out, gripping onto the railing of the bed tightly. "I-i don't know what to say b-ut please wake up, Xavier. I know it hurts so much and I'm being selfish but please, just for a second. I want to hear your voice. I want to see your beautiful blue eyes. I want to see you smile. Please." She mumbled, fiddling with her fingers.
She then looked up at his face and sighed."I don't know what I'm doing and I feel so stupid doing this but please wake up. I c-can't do this alone. I need you so badly." Her voice broke and she knew she was on the verge of crying but she tried to hold in everything in a feeble attempt.
"It really does surprise me if I'm being honest, from hating and fearing you, I have come to a point where I can't even seem to live without you." She lightly laughed, bringing her hand forward and caressing his cold one. They had come such a long way.
"Mates are such an intriguing thing, like you turn eighteen and one day just meet someone who suddenly waltzes in your life and just like that, your whole life turns upside down. That person becomes such a significant part of your life and without them, you just feel incomplete even if you have met them just for a few hours. Still even with all that, they are such a blessing. Someone you can love unconditionally without the fear of them ever leaving you, them loving you just the way you do. It all just seems so unrealistic, doesn’t it?” She whispered while looking at his face that held a peaceful look, still caressing his hand.
“We did start off really bad but I am so glad that we got to move past it. I may not have still completely forgiven you for what you have done but I can’t imagine my life without you, Xavier. I can’t. I’d rather prefer dying than being without you.” She sniffed, the mere thought of not being able to live without him made her heart clench in agony.
“I don’t know how many times I have said this but I miss you, Xavier. I miss you so much. Please come back.” She sobbed, feeling all her bottled up emotions come crashing down on her. No matter how hard she tried, she just couldn't stop the tears as they fell and as her heart ached.
She felt her demons starting to take over her again. She released a sigh, closing her eyes. She was so tired of them, so tired of everything. It all seemed never ending.
Feather like movements made her snap her eyes open. She felt her heart leap out of her chest as she stared at him with with her eyes wide and mouth slightly hung open. He was trying to open his eyes.
She was about to stand up and call the doctors when she felt a slight tug on her hand. Turning ariun, she glanced at him as he stared at the light above his head with his eyes narrowed to slits.
"This ceiling again." He muttered, seeming clearly annoyed by the white ceiling. She felt as if it had been ages since she had heard him and finally hearing him had returned a part she didn't know she had lost of herself.
"X-xav." She mumbled, feeling hot tears streaming down her face. Upon hearing her, he snapped his head towards her but immediately winced from the pain shooting through his back.
"I missed you so much." She sobbed, reaching ahead and taking him in a gentle hug. She immediately felt his arms wrap around her and felt another set of tears rise in her eyes.
"I missed you too. I'm so sorry angel." Hearing him call her angel made her heart burst in happiness. She felt as if this was a dream and that she would wake up any moment but she didn't care.
"Please don't be sorry. None of this is your fault. In fact it's all mine." She said, pulling away and taking a seat back at the chair. He stared at her with his dark blue eyes, shaking his head.
"If it isn't mine then it definitely isn't yours."
She shook her head but didn't argue. A constant smile was on her face and she wasn't aware that she could feel this happy. All the sadness and pain she had felt all this time seemed so much less in front of the happiness she felt right now.
"I wish I could change the past." She really wished she did. This way she would take away everyone's suffering but she couldn't.
"Don't beat yourself, angel. It's not worth it and neither is it your fault. The past is gone, think about your present." His hand raised from the bed and touched her cheek that was covered with tears, wiping them away.
"I don't know. Isn't it? I lost my father because of him. My mother hates me because of him. Hazel got shot because of him. Selena died because of him. He did all that because of me so I do think it's my fault." Xavier's eyes widened at his words and he felt like someone had twisted his heart with their bare hands. His angel had to go through so much and there was no one here to comfort her. She had to deal with it all alone.
"I'm so sorry, love. I should've fucking killed him when I had the chance." He mumbled, ways to kill him played in his head. She shook her head, feeling bad that now she had managed to make him guilty as well.
"Don't be sorry. Let's not talk about that, please. I'm sorry for bringing it up. Should I bring the doctor?" She asked, ready to get up and call the doctor but postponed that thought when he shook his head.
"I just want you to be here."
She nodded her head, the smile that had momentarily dissappeared from her face.
Seeing her smile, he felt his heart at ease. His thoughts soon drifted to the person who had let her escape and as soon as they did, a frown appeared on his face.
"A girl was the one who shot me but she also let me escape. Why?" She bit her lip, frowning. She knew the person was an assassin and had missed purposely. Now that person letting him escape just made it even more confusing.
"She was an assassin but she missed purposely. She definitely has an ulterior motive." He nodded his head before remembering the conversation he had with her.
"I'll help you escape," She started, a smirk slowly forming on her tainted lips, "But I get to have Jax." He frowned at her words. Why did she want him?
"Why him?" He asked, curious about why she wanted his beta. She lightly shrugged before answering, "You see, Jax was my first mate but I, being the young idiotic being I was, rejected him but now I realize how much I need him and I want him back."
"She's the first mate of Jax." He heard her inhale a sharp breath before she spoke, "Are you sure? S-she can't be his mate, can she? What does she want?" She had an idea of what she must have wanted but she didn't want to imagine it.
"She wanted Jax."
"No, she can't have him. No!" She couldn't do that to Hazel or Jax. She had left him when she had the chance and now she wasn't going to come back. She knew how much Jax was in love with Hazel and hearing this news would definitely mess up with his mind.
She didn't want that for her best friend.
"I know, angel." He whispered, his hand holding onto her warm and soft one. It had been so long since he last held her hand and if this wasn't the best feeling ever, he wasn't sure what was.
"Should we tell him about it though? He's already worried about Hazel and you, I don't want to add more to his plate." She was so worried for him. He had already been drowned with all the pack work and the stress of his mate and her. She didn't want to add more to it.
"I think he deserves to know though." She agreed with him on that. It was his right to know but she wouldn't tell him just yet. As soon as the burden of the pack was lessened from his shoulders, she would inform him.
"We'll tell him about it soon."
"We will, angel. We will."
I'm not sure what to write here but I really hope you guys are doing great. They are finally together and both of them are alive!
I wasn't sure how to end this chapter and well yea that's that.
I didn't expect to write this soon if I'm being honest but I think I'm using writing as a way to cope with the stuff going on. My grandmother passed away and the same morning so did my uncle. It feels unreal knowing that they no longer are here with us but I guess it was bound to happen.
I hope you guys enjoy this chapter and thank you so much for reading! Stay safe and take care <3