As I made my way to the infirmary, a small smile settled on my face. It all still felt so unreal. It felt like it actually had been ages since I last saw him when it had merely been an hour.
The doctors wanted to keep Xavier there for a while to keep his wounds in check. The look on Xavier's face when the doctor had asked him not to leave was one that I would never forget.
He had acted like a little kid who didn't get what they wanted at a toy shop.
The doctors greeted me with smiles and bows which I happily returned. I quietly made my way to his room, making sure to not make too much sound if he was sleeping.
"You're here!" He exclaimed cheerfully like a little kid. I grinned, closing the door behind me. "I am."
I went to sit next down to him but he grabbed my hand, pulling me next to him. "Goddess, I missed you." His words made me laugh, he was acting adorable without even knowing it.
"I have barely been gone for an hour." I stated, trailing the small cut on his hand with a sad smile. "Forty-eight minutes, thank you very much." He stated, matter of factly. I just shook my head.
"Since when did you become such a kid, alpha?" I questioned, teasingly. He nodded his head in a serious manner before answering, "Since I met my angel." The smug look on his face told me that my cheeks were most probably crimson.
"You're not so nice, you know that right?"
“So I have been told,” He gave me a wide smile and I shook my head. He had become such a child. “When do I get to leave this place though? I hate it here.” He whined yet again, a slight pout settled on his lips.
“I’m not sure but probably not anytime soon. The welts on your back and the wound on your stomach need more time to heal.” He nodded his head, grimacing. Out of a sudden, he decided to sit up straight which wasn’t such a good decision because he ended up wincing.
“Okay, calm down there, superman. You're going to hurt yourself.” I admonished, making sure that he was comfortable as he got back into his previous position.
“I’m fine. Don’t worry about me.” He bit his lip as his face contorted in pain that he so desperately tried to hide. I sighed, “How can I not worry about you? Even if I wanted to, I could never stop worrying about you,”
“Oh and I forgot to mention but my brothers will be coming to visit you. Is that okay with you? If not, I’ll tell them to come by some other day.” I questioned hesitantly. I didn’t want Xavier to feel uncomfortable or anything.
“Don’t worry your pretty little head so much. I won’t feel uncomfortable and I am the one who should be apologizing to them for the loss of their father.” Hearing about my father, I felt my mood immediately dim as the memories I had shared with him started playing in my head.
“Dad! Carson and Carlos won’t let me play with their games.” An eight year old girl ran up to her father as soon as he stepped inside their house. Quickly catching her in his arms, he chuckled lightly.
“Angel! Hey, listen to me. Fuck, I shouldn’t have said that. I’m so sorry. Please don’t cry, love.” I heard him say. Quietly staring at him, I shook my head with a half-hearted smile, assuring him that I was fine but I guess the tears streaming down my face indicated something else.
He raised his hand, wiping away the drops cascading down my face, a look filled with guilt on his face. “I wish I could’ve been there for you.” His voice seemed to be heavy with guilt and it hurt me to know that I was the reason for it.
We stayed there in silence for a while. It wasn’t awkward, it was a comfortable silence that neither of us wanted to break.
“Luna, there are some people outside to see you.” I wasn’t sure how long it had been but it probably had been an hour or so. I looked at the doctor and gave him a nod, standing up. Giving Xavier a wave, I left his room.
“Carson!” I yelled happily, catching the attention of the people passing me. I didn’t care though. I was too happy to see my brothers. He gave me a wide smile, taking me in a hug. “I missed you so much.” I mumbled into his shoulder, feeling a mixture of sadness and happiness.
“Wow, i’m surely feeling the love here, you guys. Oh my goodness, you missed me! Oh I missed you too, Ann.” The sarcasm filled voice of my other brother made its way to my ears and I rolled my eyes. He was as dramatic as ever.
“I missed you as well, Carlos.” I pulled him into a hug, missing the familiar comfort they provided. “How are you doing?” He asked, pulling away and staring at me with calculating eyes, searching for any signs of lie probably.
"I'm good. How are you?" I replied and for the first time in a long while, it didn’t feel that much of a lie. His posture visibly relaxed when he saw that I wasn't lying. Giving me a small smile, he pulled me into another hug, whispering, “I’m glad that you’re good. I’m okay too,”
He pulled back and put on that cheerful smile, hiding all the worries away from us. He had always resorted to jokes when he was sad, it hurt to know that he bottled his feelings up and no matter how hard we tried, he would just pretend that everything was alright when it clearly wasn’t.
I would make sure to ask him later about what seemed to be bothering him.
“Now let's go see the alpha, shall we?” Carlos yelled enthusiastically, his teeth on display as he grinned. Carson smacked his head with a roll of his eyes. “You’re acting as if you weren’t just pleading to me that you didn’t want to face that scary man.”
"He's not that scary." Carson and Carlos both gave me an 'Are you kidding me?' look. "He's literally such a huge man, he honestly looks like a godamn tank. If I were to live with that man, I would literally have all my pants covered in piss."
"That's just gross. I wouldn't expect anything less from you though." Carson mumbles, shaking his head. Carlos just shrugs, not saying anything in his defence for once.
"Okay, now come on already, scaredy pants." I grab both of them by their arms, dragging them with me. I hear Carlos mumble something along the lines of how terrible I was at names. I mean, he wasn't wrong.
I opened the door to Xavier's room, poking my head in first to check if there were any doctors or not. Fortunately there was only a serious looking Xavier sitting there with his lips set in a thin line but upon seeing me, his lips turned upwards into a beautiful smile.
"I thought you actually left or something for a moment." He said as I opened the door and stepped inside with my two brothers trailing behind me.
"You know I wouldn't leave you." I teased even though my words held a way deeper meaning. Xavier definitely caught on to it and gave me a sad smile.
"It's nice to meet you, Carson and Carlos." Xavier said with a polite nod. Carson and Carlos both took a seat on the couch that was sitting next to the wall, both of them giving Xavier a polite smile. I decided to take a seat on the chair that was next to Xavier's bed.
"It's good to see you back as well, alpha. We hope you're doing good now." Carson said, both his hands clasped in front of him. His words were respectful but friendly.
"I'm doing great, thank you. How is little Harmony doing?" He asked, his smile widening further. At Harmony's name, my heart ached. It had been a while since I last saw her. Her memories also brought back memories of my mother and suddenly all the happiness I felt had disappeared.
Here you are being happy with your mate and brothers while your mother is suffering because of you.
I tried to shake away the thoughts but they wouldn't go. A comforting hand wrapped around mine and I looked up to see Xavier staring at me with a concerned expression etched onto his face. I gave him a small weak smile, hoping that he would believe that I was okay but in all honesty, even I wasn't so sure anymore.
"Why don't you bring Harmony around here when Xavier gets discharged? I'm sure she'll love to meet him." I turned towards Carson and gave him a wide smile. He looked slightly skeptical but nodded nevertheless.
"I'll bring her for sure. She truly misses you, alpha."
"Please don't call me alpha. You can call me by my name like people close to me do." His words warmed my heart. The thought that he considered my brothers someone close to him really mattered a lot to me.
"Where is Harmony right now though?" I asked, slightly worried now. "She's with a friend. Don't worry. She's alright." Carson reassured and I nodded my head. The second question was on the tip of my tongue but I didn't know how to say it.
"How's.." I hesitated. There was a part of me that wanted to know how she was but the other part of me didn't want to know because her words would then repeat in my head over and over again until I was back to square one.
"She's not in the best condition right now. We might need to get her checked with a psychologist." He carefully worded his sentences and the hesitation in his voice was as clear as day. Mom had now become a topic that neither of us wanted to talk about because it would definitely only bring hurt.
I nodded my head. I didn't say all those thoughts running through my head. I didn't mention how much I wanted to see her even though she hated me. I didn't mention how much my heart ached for the mother she once used to be. I didn't mention how much I craved her motherly hugs.
I didn't mention any of it. Why? Because I couldn't. I didn't have the strength in me to do it.
"How are Jax and Hazel?" My mood dimmed slightly further at the thought of Hazel. I hadn't talked to Jax all day today. He had been really busy with pack work and had also skipped his breakfast and lunch. I would make sure that he had dinner. I didn't even get a chance to see Hazel lately. The doctors had been keeping her on a ventilator. They had said that she was getting much better and soon they would take her off of it. It was one of the best news I had heard lately.
"Hazel is getting better and Jax seems to be very busy lately. He hasn't been taking care of himself at all." I shook my head. Jax wasn't one to deny food. He was a food lover so seeing him skipping meals was rather odd.
"Did he not eat today? Please don't play with me, Ann. That boy would do literally anything for food! Trust me, I have seen it." Carlos shuddered as his face scrunched up in horror and I held the urge to laugh. Carlos could surely be an amazing actor or comedian.
"I know. I'll check up on him later."
"Wait, you're going to leave me?" Xavier said as if it were the most absurd thing ever. Shaking my head, I have him a playful smile.
"Of course I'm going to leave you. Who do you think I am?" I looked up at the clock in the room and saw that it was already past 6pm. Carson and Carlos both got up to leave.
"Well, I guess we should head home now. It's getting kinda dark. See you later Ann and Xavier." Carson slightly hesitated while saying Xavier's name and I couldn't help the laugh that escaped my lips. Xavier just looked amused.
"It was really nice meeting you both. Have a great night."
"Yes and give Harmony a kiss from me and tell her that her favorite person in the world misses her so much!" I clasped my hands together with a wide smile on my face which soon disappeared when I heard Xavier snicker.
"So you meant me, right?" He raised a brow at me with a cocky smile on my face. "Of course I don't. I'm her favorite person, not you." I said confidently even though I knew it was a terrible lie.
"Well, we're gonna go now. See you guys!" Carslo yelled happily before the both of them left. Turning towards Xavier, I narrowed my eyes at him. "You're a mean person, you know that right?"
"Oh come on. Is that how you talk to a man in the hospital?" He gave me a small pout, opening his arms for me. "Aren't you going to give this poor man a hug?" He said once again when I didn't make a move towards him.
Rolling my eyes with a smile playing on my face, I went ahead and carefully hugged him, breathing in his scent. I felt him peck my hair before resting his cheek on my head.
Even if we both were safe and sound, I knew that this all wasn't over. Damon was going to strike again and I am sure that this time, he would make sure everything went according to what he planned. There would be just one problem though.
He wasn't going to win.