“Why is he here?” I mumbled as I paced around my apartment. My mind filled up with his thoughts as I recognized I was again hyperventilating. I was in misery and I hoped the guards stopped him from getting inside.
Whatever it takes, I had to stay away from him because I couldn’t bear it any longer. The insults, the allegations, and the continuous pricking of my dignity got me to the point where I refused to even face him. My shoulder slumped down as I fell on the sofa, my appetite long gone.
But then I heard what the guards were saying while restraining him.
Why do you always come here? The woman is clearly not interested in you. Stop coming here and stay out!
Is he the same guy who stands the whole night just staring at the building?
Such a nuisance for love.
“Wait! Did he come here every day?” I mumbled as I was up on my feet and made my way towards the balcony. To say, my tongue was caught on my mouth as I grew speechless when I saw him down there. He was again leaning to his car, looking up at my way.
As soon as he saw me, he composed himself and walked some steps forwards not breaking eye contact. I was dazed and confused as to why he was still pestering around me when he was the one who clearly told me that he doesn’t want to do anything with me.
Why do you not leave me alone?
My fingers tightened around the railing of my glass balcony and all of a sudden, I heard my phone ringing. Finally, breaking the eye contact I went in and got my phone from the sofa to find the call from Caleb. I was fidgeting on whether to take the call or not but still couldn’t get in myself to pick it up in order to talk to him.
The call disconnected and I heaved a sigh. But again, it rung and kept on ringing almost five to six times when I finally decided to pick up the call wanting to hear what he has got to tell me.
“H-hello?” I said with a trembling voice. I heard him inhaling loudly and he spoke. “Thank god! I thought you are never going to pick up,” I heard his distressed voice.
“Please leave my compound. I don’t want people complaining me about the commotions you are creating,” I told him and walked towards the door of the balcony, hiding behind the doorframe and peeping down to see him.
“Sang please let me explain,” I saw him running his hand through his hair.
“I-I,” he was caught off as the guards from my apartment approached him and I could hear that they were asking him to leave. I saw his face, he was getting annoyed and agitated by the guards and I was afraid if he lashed out on them or worse do something stupid.
“You can come to my apartment,” I said mustering up the confidence I had in me. I wanted it to end. I really wished it end and for that, I had to talk to Caleb.
“R-Really?” he asked as he showed his palm to the guard signalling him to stop talking.
“Hand your phone to the guard,” I said and immediately he handed his phone over to the guard who took it and I told him to allow him into the apartment. The guard looked skeptical but as I gave him the instructions he nodded as he handed Caleb his phone back and I saw as Caleb ran into my apartment.
My heart pounded against my chest with anticipation thinking of my decisions. I had no idea what I did was right or wrong, but still, I thought of giving it a chance.
Minutes later, I heard the doorbell and taking in deep breaths, I opened the door only to be pulled into a tight hug, which literally knocked the breath out of me.
“I knew it. I can’t stay away from you,” he said as he kissed my forehead and I stood still for a moment but then when he didn’t give up, I had to push myself away from him. The sad expression on his face clearly told me that he didn’t like my action of separating myself from him, a bit. Still, he composed his posture and closed the door as he got in and stood before me while I took some steps back maintaining distance.
“What do you want to speak?” I asked as I looked anywhere but his face.
“Sang I-” he stopped mid-sentence and I waited for him to speak up.
“I am sorry,” he said and finally that made me look up as I stared into his eyes. His sincere repentance was reflecting from his facial expressions and I shifted in my position wanting to hear more.
“I was jealous. I saw you and Eden kissing and I completely lost it,”
“I wasn’t k-”
“I know. I am really sorry. Eden came to my office searching for you when you were injured. I told him about our relationship and he told me things that were hard for me to believe but I didn’t believe him. He told me that you actually loved me and wanted to be with him and you were just using me in his absence,” as he said that I narrowed my eyes in confusion.
Eden said that?
“He was the one who told me that perhaps you liked me because of my status. And then I saw you two kissing. I was jealous to the point, I couldn’t control. Even in that party women were talking about Eden and my secretary’s affair. I was also very angry that this happened only because you didn’t allow me to make our relationship public. He went around deliberately spreading rumours of your affair and Hailey, I was the not the one who kissed her. She was the one and I was just trying to push her away when you got in. Still, I didn’t clear the misunderstanding because I wanted to make you feel jealous and know if you really liked me.”
“You didn’t even come to explain nor did you fight with me which caused me more rage and I lost my control. Then I really thought you would come to me but the HR informed me your resignation and I understood you were not willing to fight for me and that made me insane. I know what I did was wrong but I couldn’t stop myself,” he came forward and held my face in his.
“Sang what do you expect me to do? Please forgive me. I can’t stay away from you no matter what. Whatever I told you back then was just because of the heat of the moment and it was my jealousy. I know Eden was the one who kissed you but that didn’t bother me than the fact that you didn’t explain anything to me and wanted to resign,”
He picked up my face and I felt his hand trembling as he trailed his finger on my neck and buried his face in the crook of my neck.
“Just tell me what should have I done? The only woman I loved was getting away from me,” he whispered and I felt his hot breath on my neck when I snapped out of it and got back from his hold as a look of hurt masked his face.
“You could have confronted me. If you loved me, then you have the right to confront me about it in place of accusing me every time and calling me names. I did try to explain you but how to expect me to explain when you were always so angry and brushed me off every time. I had no idea that you had seen Eden and me kissing, but why did you not confront us both at that particular time? How do you expect me to know what’s going on in your mind if you don’t tell me about it?” I snapped for the first time.
“And Eden, if he came to you telling you all this about me then why did you not tell me about it at that time? I would have confronted him and perhaps, things between us had been different. Instead, you took it to your heart and assaulted me the way I had never been and made me feel embarrassed and pathetic.”
“Whatever it is Caleb. You have no right to assault me and question my dignity. I never gave you the right to do that and if you are asking me then did I ever ask you what you were doing when I was already in your life?”
“Remember our first meet? I walked in while you were having an indecent moment with a woman. I have seen you making headlines with a countless woman. Just because you have got money, looks, fame and power and you were my boyfriend, did you seriously get the right to accuse me of cheating and be a gold digger?” at this moment tears streamed down my eyes as I slammed my hands on his chest and pushed him back. He got hold of my hand and pulled me to him as I buried my head on his chest.
“Y-You! Did I ever tell you that you are an arrogant brat? Did I ever tell you are a promiscuous man? I was never even been a relation and I fell for a jerk like you. You were and are the mistake of my life and I hate you!" I tried to push him but he held me tightly in his arms.
"Sang, please don't say that. I am really sorry. I was wrong and was really bad to you. But please give me a chance," he begged and it was when I pulled away wiping my eyes.
"No!" I shook my head.
"I will not give you any chance because now I am scared. Scared of what you will do if we are back and we experience a similar situation in the future."
"I can't seem to trust you again. I'm sorry Caleb but this is over between us," I said and again all of a sudden I was pulled into a hug.
"Don't say like this. Please don't! I know you are angry. You have every right to be angry. Please. Please, don't do this to me. Give me any punishment you want but not this. Don't leave me," he was literally begging. I pushed my body away from his and turned around when he hugged me from my back, locking my arms.
"You are just so delusional and dominant. I can't take it any longer. I think it will be best for us. Please, Caleb let me go!"
"No! I won't let go. Ever! You are mine. You belong to me and I love you. I will never let go," I heard him and I sighed.
"I am not an object. I do not belong to you. Understand that I have feelings and emotions and no matter what I can't get myself to forgive you for your actions. I am scared of you right now," I told him and he spun me around in a flip staring into my eyes.
"You are the worst companion, I had got. Let me go!" I said and pushed him away as he stared down at me in shock.
"I don't believe you right now, no matter what! You are just making angry statements to me and I will give you some time to cool down and then I will come again begging for forgiveness. It's fine if you are giving up on me, but I won't ever let you go or give up on you. I really love you. More than I had ever loved anyone. I will go crazy if you are not in my life. I caused this and I will make it up to you. I promise," he said and all of a sudden leaned down and pecked my lips which caught me off-guard.
"Caleb!" I yelled at him as I pushed him away. He took a few steps back and then walked out of my apartment leaving me in difficulty.