Chapter 8: Regret
I stood myself up from the bed and walked towards my tv stand grabbing my DVD binder. As I flipped through the many DVDs trying to decide on what movie we should watch I felt someone grab my shoulder.
“Luna, I’m sorry, I know that I said I would watch a movie with you, but something important came up. But I promise I’ll make it up to you though, okay.” He turned me around to face him as he placed a light kiss on my forehead.
“Huh? Where are you going?” I said to him with a pout crossing my arms.
“It’s nothing for you to worry about baby, just stay here and I’ll call you later tonight. Make sure you lock the door when I leave, alright?” He gave me a reassuring smile and held me tightly in his arms before he left me alone in my room.
I heard my front door opening and the sound of the echoing door being shut right after. I immediately felt lonely having Elijah leaving my side. Checking to see what time it was I was shocked to find out that it was already 8 pm.
How did I not realize how late it was getting!? I guess I could blame Eli for that but where did he have to go at this time at night? Also, who was he talking to on the phone with earlier? Flooding myself with questions I heard a faint ringing coming from my kitchen. It was my phone! I forgot I left it in my bag. I ran down the hallway and grabbed my backpack from the kitchen floor and started searching for my phone,
It was Alexa who was calling.
“Hello, Alexa? How are you calling me right now? I thought your parents took away your phone?” I asked questioning her.
“Hey, Luna! And yeah I know, but I was able to convince my parents to give me back my phone as long as I promise to keep my grades up this time! Haha so lucky me!! Anyways I called to ask if you wanted to go to the party tonight, I know I asked you during lunch but you should come!”
“I don’t know, Elijah said I shouldn’t go since there will be a lot of people drinking and doing stupid stuff.”
“I promise you it will be fine, it’s not like everyone just goes to get drunk, this is your chance to meet people and make new friends. Come on, please!! For me! Your best friend that you love so much!”
I hate how she always pulled the best friend card on me, it gets me every time.
“Okay fine! But I’m not drinking or dancing!” I said to her sounding strict.
“Really!!! Oh my god!!! I love you so much! My boyfriend and I are already heading towards your house! I will be there in 30 minutes. I’ll see you soon!”
She hung up already. I looked down at my phone to check the time, 30 minutes huh.
Why do I feel like she already knew I would say yes to her. As I walked into my room I began going through my closet deciding on what I should wear. I started to second guess myself if I really should go to this party, I mean Eli did tell me not to go...Though then again he didn’t tell me where he was going tonight.
Even still, I should let him know that I’ll be going to Luke’s party tonight with Alexa. I dialed his number and held the phone up next to my ear, it continued to ring until it went to voicemail.
“Hmm that’s weird, usually he answers my calls,” I said to myself curiously.
After going through countless outfits I decided to just wear something simple. Pulling my hair up into a messy bun, I touched up my makeup a little. Looking at myself in the mirror I was happy with the choice of outfit I picked out. I felt my phone vibrating in my pocket and took it out reading the text,
“I’m outside love!! So bring your butt out already lol!” It was from Alexa.
I stared out my window and saw a car parked in my driveway. I’m guessing that’s her boyfriend’s car? I made my way outside making sure to lock the front door behind me.
And began making my way towards the car, I then stopped where I was at and saw the two front car doors open. Out stepped Alexa and her college boyfriend. He wore a red flannel and some black skinny jeans, I then shifted my gaze to Alexa who was wearing a short skirt and a crop top showing her bare stomach. Wow! I can never picture myself wearing clothes like that. I’m a bit jealous though, I wish I had her type of confidence.
“Luna! I’m so happy you decide to come with us!!” She said as she came running up to me, pulling me in for a hug.
“Oh! And this is my boyfriend Chris! Chris, this is my bestie, Luna.” She introduced us as she pulled away from our quick embrace. I gave him a friendly smile and reached out my hand to shake his.
“Hi..uhh it’s nice to meet you, my name’s Luna.”
Oh my god! I’m so stupid! Why am I introducing myself again when Alexa already did it for me?’ I could feel my cheeks beginning to turn red already from embarrassment.
“Hey, it’s nice to finally meet you, are you guys ready to get going?” He said shaking my hand back with a smile. He had a faint aftershave beard growing along his jawline, and his eyes were a light brown color just like Alexa’s almost, except hers are a shade darker.
“Oh, uh yeah...sorry I’m just a bit nervous. This is my first time going to a party.” I said to both of them as we walked towards his car.
“Haha it’s alright, you don’t need to apologize, and also you don’t need to be so nervous,” Chris said to me as he opened the door for Alexa.
“Yeah! Besides you’ll be with me so don’t freak out haha!” Alexa responded bubbly as she applied some red lipstick on her lips just as I entered the car sitting behind her.
“Yeah, you guys are probably right... alright then! I’m gonna go and have a good time!” I said to them confidently as I put my seat belt on.
“Of course we’re right, let’s just have fun!” Alexa replied as she pulled the car window down letting in the fresh air.
The drive there wasn’t too long surprisingly. We pulled up along the sidewalk and stepped out of the car. It was crazy the number of cars that were parked here as I looked around surveilling the area. I could already hear the loud music vibrating in my ears as we approached the front door of the house. Are we supposed to knock or something? I asked myself confused. However, my question was soon answered when Chris opened the door.
“We just walk in?” I asked looking at Alexa?
“Yeah, it’s not like people are gonna hear us knocking anyways haha.” She said laughing pushing me inside the house.
As I entered the house, all I could see is a sea of people everywhere. Many were dancing and grinding up on each other really inappropriately, others looked like they were practically having sex but with their clothes on. How can people dance like that and not feel uncomfortable or embarrassed? Lord knows I would be!
I continued to follow Alexa and her boyfriend through the crowd of people and made our way to what seems to be the kitchen I think. All I saw was liquor upon liquor and red plastic cups everywhere, I already made it very clear to Alexa that I will not be drinking! I hope she remembers that, as I turned my gaze to look at them they were already making out with red cups in their hands. Dang! They don’t waste any time getting to it, I just hope Alexa is using protection if they really are doing it. I should probably give her the talk later when we’re alone.
Unsure of what to do I grabbed a bag of chips and began snaking away. I then started to look around trying to find a place to sit down, it was getting awkward just standing next to my best friend and her boyfriend making out. I was starting to feel like a third wheel almost, ‘maybe I shouldn’t have come?’ I said to myself, starting to regret my decisions. As time passed by I was in need of using the restroom.
“HEY ALEXA, IM’A TRY AND FIND A BATHROOM. I’LL BE BACK IN A BIT!“I yelled at her through the loud music making it hard to talk or even hear for that matter.
“DO YOU WANT ME TO COME WITH YOU!?” she yelled back in response.
“NO THANKS, I’LL BE QUICK!”
I said leaving her and Chris in the kitchen. I made my way through the crowd of people in search of a bathroom. It was kind of hard to see with some lights being dim and other lights flashing on and off constantly. All of a sudden I felt someone grab my hand tightly and began pulling me in their direction. I couldn’t quite make out their face through the horrible lighting.
I started to panic, even if I started yelling for help I don’t think anyone would even hear me through this loud music! I tried to shake my hand free from this person but it only caused him to tighten his grip even more.
“Let me go you pervert!! If you don’t listen to me this instant I swear I’ll kick you in the balls!! You jerk!!” I yelled out threatening him, but that didn’t stop him from pulling me towards the backyard. My mother once told me that if a guy ever tries anything on me then to always make sure to aim for the balls between their legs, I guess that’s their weakness?
“I...I mean it! I’m..I’m gonna do it!”
I said to him with my voice trembling. We made it outside the backyard and saw a huge pool filled with half-naked teenagers making out with one another as well as a few passed out on the concrete floor. What the hell does this guy plan on doing with me?!
“I’m sorry Luna, but you couldn’t hear me in there so I had to bring you outside. What are you doing here anyway? I thought you said you weren’t coming to the party?” He finally turned around to face me letting go of my hand.
“Ren! Oh thank goodness, I thought it was some drunk idiot being a pervert or something.” I gasped out in relief.
“So your not going to kick me in the balls then, right?”
He said chuckling as he put his hands in his pockets, I observed what Ren was wearing and saw that he wore a plain white T-shirt and a black sweater followed by some ripped gray jeans. Well, I could say this much, that Ren and I have similar tastes when it comes to wearing simple plain clothes. I averted my gaze back on him and began to explain how I ended up coming here with Alexa.
“An....yeah, that’s pretty much how I ended up at the party, and I’m also trying to find the restroom right now. Oh! And I’m sorry about threatening to kick you...down there.” I said apologizing, I can’t believe I said that to Ren! Sure I didn’t know it was him, but still out of all people.
“Haha, that’s alright, besides that’s a good way for self-defense. Anyways, here let me show you to the restroom, its upstairs but we’re gonna have to make our way through a lot of people, so I think it’s best if you hold my hand so we don’t lose each other.”
He said to me, reaching out his hand. I gave him a little nod and grabbed it, has his hand always been this warm? He looked up at me and gave me a reassuring smile. Avoiding his gaze and looked back down at his hand that was holding mine. Though I couldn’t help but feel a bit flushed about it, was his hand always this big and strong as well?
As we made our way through the crowd of people we were finally able to reach the upstairs, the music wasn’t as loud up here like it was downstairs. Ren and I started to conversate about the party and how he was thinking about leaving in a few minutes and calling it a night, we were so deep into the conversation that I didn’t even realize that we were still holding hands.
“The bathroom should be just around the corner here. So...uh...Luna, my family is planning on throwing a BBQ this upcoming weekend and I was wondering if you wanted to come.....”
At that very moment when we made that turn in the hallway. Everything stopped moving around me, I could no longer hear what Ren was saying or even the music in the background. My body stood still, motionless to the point where I feel like I could no longer breathe. It felt as if my heart stopped beating in that very instant. The person I saw in front of me became nothing but a blur as my eyes began to fill up with tears.
Ren soon realizing that I was longer paying attention to him, he looked at me with concern and confusion, his eyes soon followed my gaze to where I was looking at. It was Eli, his body was pressed back up against the hallway wall with some blonde girl leaning close to his chest. Elijah was gripping her shoulders with his hands as the girl had her arms wrapped around his neck. What I witnessed made my heart dropped as I saw both of their lips touching one another.
The reality hit me when the pain in my heart wasn’t stopping. This wasn’t a horrible nightmare that I was having, it was real. Feeling the many tears escaping down my cheeks, I immediately let go of Ren’s hand and began to run the other way.
Quickly running down the hallway I stumbled a few times trying to make my way down the stairs. I couldn’t look back, I didn’t even care who was calling my name back there. I just wanted to get away from everything and everyone!