Chapter 32: Untold Honesty
The number of people that were at this party was insane! There wasn’t one person here that was not drinking, almost everyone had a red plastic cup in their hands. The strong scent of cigarettes was making me feel dizzy a bit.
As I tried to pass through the heavy crowd, I noticed someone who looked very familiar to me. Though the dark lights at this party were making it very difficult to see who it was. So I began to approach this person, and the closer I got, I realized it was Eric.
Elijah introduces Eric to me once when I was in middle school, however, I didn’t really get to know him much since he was a few years older than me. Last time I checked though he was a lot nicer than Danny, I mean he did try to separate the both of us this morning. So I should probably thank him for that, as I continued to walk towards his direction. I saw that he was sitting down on a couch with a girl on his lap, she was practically pressing her big breast against his face. And he looked like he was enjoying every minute of it by his facial expression.
Though that smile of his soon went away when he saw me from afar. He looked very surprised that I was there, that he quickly shoved the girl off his lap and stood himself up from the couch. He then began to walk towards me with a shocking yet upsetting look.
“Luna? What are you doing here?” He said with confusion in his voice as he stood right in front of me.
“I’m here to find out what happened to Elijah, I know it’s dumb that I’m here to get some answers...but-” I was soon caught off guard when Eric grabbed my hand and began to pull me away from the crowded living room. However I felt a chill pass through my body, it was if someone was giving me the cold stare. So while Eric was pulling me towards the backyard, I started to look around to noticed that it was the girl that was on Eric’s lap from earlier who was giving me the dirty look.
What the hell did I do to her to make her look at me like that? Seriously girls can be so evil for no reason!
Eric finally let my hand go and pulled out two chairs for both of us to sit. We were outside by the pool and surprisingly there weren’t that many people outside like the last time I came here. It’s also a lot more quieter out here then it is inside. Accepting his kind gesture, I sat down next to him and we both stared at the lit-up pool in front of us.
“Sorry that I dragged you out here like that, but it was kinda hard to understand you inside that loud crowd.” He said sounding apologetic as he pulled out a cigarette.
“Oh! No, it’s fine...I prefer to talk outside also. But umm...I came here to find out what exactly happened to Eli.” I began to explain to Eric how I got here and what happened between Danny and me after school. I felt a lot more comfortable with Eric then with Danny, I still had my guard up though. You could never be too careful when it comes to these parties, especially when alcohol is mixed in with it.
“So that’s what happened....and that’s why you’re here.” He responded as he lit up his cigarette, he then began to smoke and had this expression on his face as if he was deep in his thoughts.
“You know, it’s none of my business but....you really shouldn’t smoke. Especially when your still so young.” I voiced out as I watched random people starting to get into the pool.
“I think I understand why Elijah picked you to be his first girlfriend.”
“Huh?” I responded surprised by the words he just said.
“When I first found out that he was finally dating someone, it honestly surprised me. In fact...I think it surprised everyone. Eli wasn’t someone who would just date a girl, he was strict with the whole dating thing. He was someone who would just sleep with a girl once and then never talk with them again. So to find out he had a girlfriend everyone wanted to know who it was...In the back of my head, I had a feeling it was you. But deep down I was hoping it wasn’t you...” Eric explained with all honesty in his eyes, he then put out the cigarette and leaned himself back in the chair.
“Why...we’re you hoping I wasn’t dating him?” I asked nervously, I could feel myself growing anxiously with worry. Was there something that Eli wasn’t telling me?
“Luna... Elijah wasn’t the guy you think he was.” Eric said coldly as he looked up at the night sky. My heart soon began to beat heavy with uneasiness as I felt my body beginning to shiver with anxiety.
“What....do you mean by that?” I responded trying to sound strong.
Eric soon looked at me with a sympathetic stare almost. It’s as if he was feeling sorry for me dating Eli.
“I’ll only tell you if you promise not to cry. The one thing I can’t stand is watching girls cry...so tell me right now that you won’t.” He asked of me as he leaned himself over, he then let out a deep sigh as he ran his fingers through his hair. His eyes then looked at me for a response...
Whatever he was about to tell me, is it that bad that it could make me cry? I didn’t know how I’m supposed to react to that. So all I could do was give him a faint nod.
“Do you remember that morning in school when everyone found out about those girls being killed and Priscilla missing.” He said while continuing to look at me.
“Yeah...” I responded quietly, I was a bit confused with what Eric was telling me so far. What does the girl’s death have anything to do with Elijah being missing.
“Well before that happened, they came over to my place that night. Priscilla and her friends, as well as Danny and.....Elijah. It was a small get together, along with other people I knew. I was a little confused when I saw Elijah with Priscilla that night though, neither of them was drinking. Yet they were all over each other, holding hands and touching one another as if they were a couple, so I just assumed that you both broke up. However, I didn’t see him kiss her, even though Priscilla was kissing him all over his neck and face...but it was obvious what they both wanted from each other. So I just thought that they were both f*ck buddies or something. Not too long after he decided to leave with her, he offered to take Priscilla’s friends back home as well. That was the very last time I spoke to him that night. But before he left, he told me, ‘Take care Eric, don’t f*ck around anymore and tell her how you feel before you regret it. An don’t tell Luna what you saw tonight.’ That’s when I knew that you were both still together, I didn’t want to assume anything. Especially when Eli has been my best friend since middle school. But I get this inkling feeling that he probably killed those girls that night when he left-”
“STOP! JUST SHUT UP!” I yelled out feeling distraught and hurt, I know he said that he didn’t want me crying...but what does he expect me to do, after he tells me this!?
“I knew you were gonna cry...look I’m sorry alright. I should have kept my mouth shut from the beginning, but seeing you here I knew you weren’t going to leave until you got answers right?” He said sounding strict as he passed me a rag from his jacket. Though I refused to take it as I wiped the tears with my sleeve.
“Look, I know how hard it is to hear this. But the truth is, Elijah was no different from Danny. I mean the only difference between the both of them is that Danny is a f*cken d*ck, but the reality was that they both slept around with girls they didn’t care for. But if it makes you feel better, Eli always talked about you whenever we would hanged out. He would say how much he misses you, and how he can’t wait for you to start school with him. I never heard him talk about any girl, other than you.” He said with sincerity in his voice as he stood himself up from the chair.
However, hearing him say that didn’t make me feel any better if anything I felt more broken. Was Eli no different from Danny? If so, was I just an easy girl to him also? Was I nothing to him from the beginning...
Eric soon started to walk away from me, however, I had one more question I wanted to tell him before he left. So I quickly got up and grabbed his arm.
“Waite! Please, answer me this at least...do you think...Elijah ever loved me?” I choked out my words as I felt my tears running down my cheeks. We both stood there in silence for what seemed like forever until he finally spoke.
“I think the love you had for Elijah, was different from the love he had for you...Luna.”
I stood there in silence feeling my body becoming heavy with every passing minute, I didn’t want to believe what I just heard, in fact, I didn’t want to believe anything he had to say. But I knew he was telling the truth with how truthful he was sounding.
“I’m sorry that I’ve kept you from your girlfriend earlier...”
“Are you seriously apologizing to me right now? I think it should be the other way around, and she’s not my girlfriend. She’s just some random girl that sat on my lap, I don’t really like girls who are just after sex. Besides, I already have a girl that I like. But she has a boyfriend already that’s in college and I also don’t think her best friend would like the idea of us dating.” Eric began explaining as he reached for his pocket, pulling out another cigarette.
“You should still tell her how you feel, or you really will regret it forever, and I’m sure her best friend will give you her approval because I could see you really are a nice guy deep down,” I said to him as I let his sleeve go.
“In that case, since I got your blessing, I guess I’ll tell her. Luna, your to kind and innocent to be at this party, you should go home.” He responded with a faint smile as he patted my head lightly as if I was a child.
“I’ll go home in a while...” I said quietly as I looked down at my feet, I didn’t want him to see how red my eyes probably were, my makeup is most likely all smeared as well.
“Okay, be safe when you head home then. An keep a safe distance from Danny, I never saw him hit a girl before. But I also never seen him get so angry with someone before. So try and get a taxi if you can...” He voiced out as he made his way back inside the house.
I continued to stand there feeling hopeless. I tried my best to put a brave face in front of him, yet as soon as Eric entered the house I immediately fell to my knees and began to hyperventilate uncontrollably. It felt as if I was drowning in my own sorrows. My mind was going everywhere with what Eric told me earlier, I mean I kinda had a feeling that Elijah was a player with all the rumors being said about him. But I just didn’t want to believe it!
I was nothing to him, he used me from the start. And to think I gave everything to him because I thought I was special...
It was getting harder to breathe with every passing second, I place my hands against my chest firmly as I felt my heart beating heavy with grieve. I don’t think my heart can be any more broken then it is now, my vision soon became blurry as I felt my eyes tearing up from the heartache I was going through.
If I stay at this party any longer, will I find out more painful stories about him...
“HeY!!! GIrly, wHat, WHat aRe yOU dOiNG oN THE FloOr? OH! yOuR CrYIng, DiD sOmeONE dUMped You!? HeRE GeT UP!” Some drunk girl came up to me as she tried to get me off the floor. I could smell the strong liquor leaving her breath as she held on to me.
I felt too weak to push her off, I didn’t even care where she was taking me at this point. I didn’t care at all anymore, the girl soon started to drag me to a group of girls near a table. Some of them looked drunk while others looked completely high...
“Hey, who’s this?” A random girl asked, asked, she took a hit from her joint.
“I FoUnd HEr oVer TheRe CrYinG, I ThinK HEr BoYFrieNd DuMped HeR!?” The girl next to me said loudly with her obnoxious voice.
“Aww poor thing, hey you know what will take the pain away? This drink that has your name on it, who cares about that f*cken piece of sh*t anyway’s. There’s plenty of fish in the sea to choose from, he’s not the only guy. So here, drink up and forget about today! And just live your life!” One of the girls said as she handed me a drink. I could already smell the strong aroma of vodka hitting my nose.
Part of me just wants to leave and go home, but what will I do when I get home? Just cry some more and feel sorry for myself? I’ve had enough of feeling so pathetic...
So I decided to chug down the heavy liquor that was in my cup. I felt the burning sensation run pass my throat as I finished my drink in one go. It tasted disgusting and it made my throat sting, I don’t understand why people enjoy drinking this stuff.
But I could say this, I was starting to feel a little funny. My body felt light and I was losing a sense of reality, I was becoming a little light-headed as I placed my cup back down.
“Damn bitch you could f*cken drink! Here! Have another shot!” The girl next to me yelled out with excitement as she poured me another drink.
I took shot after shot, not caring about anything. I just wanted to feel free from my emotions for a while. I didn’t even care if there was a baby inside me at this point, why does it matter when the father of this unborn child never loved me.
I then suddenly felt someone wrap their arm around my waist pulling me close to them. Raising my head to see who it was, I think I almost fainted when I saw the person’s eyes staring right back at me. Those blue eyes of his, they reminded me of someone I knew...
“Eli is that you...”