Chapter 33: Light Fantasy
My body felt very unstable as I pressed my body closer to the person holding me. I continued to look at his eyes without looking away, his intense stare made me forget where I was at. I was blocking out everything that was around me at that point.
“We may have the same eye color, but I’m a lot better looking then him, don’t you think.”
That dark voice of his soon brought me back to my senses as I focused more on who was in front of me. He then tightens his hold around my waist more firmly as he brought his face closer to mine. He smelled liked marijuana with a mixture of alcohol coming from his breath.
“Danny...” I voiced out incoherently, as I began to focus on what was going on.
“Hey! Danny! What’s up man, I haven’t seen you in a while, my dude! How you been?” A random guy yelled out towards Danny as he placed his hand on Danny’s shoulder. He was clearly drunk, along with everyone else that was surrounding us.
“What’s up Luke, I’ve been a bit busy lately,” Danny responded as he pulled me closer towards him.
Just as I was about to pull away from Danny, I stopped midway when I heard who’s name he had called.
“Luke?” I said with a questioning tone. I then looked up at the person who was next to Danny to see that he had dirty blonde hair with hazel light eyes, he had a nice tan and was slightly taller than Danny as he stood next to him.
Luke hearing his name being called, pointed his attention towards me while he took a sip of his beverage.
“Who’s this?” Luke asked as he calmly put his cup down on the table.
“Oh, I guess Eli didn’t mention who she is, did he?” Danny voiced out as he began to look at me again with those blue eyes of his. Those eyes.... those eyes that Eli used to look at me once. Were now nothing but a bitter memory, and a color I no longer liked to look at.
Avoiding his stare, I picked up my glass and started to drink it without slowing down. I had no attention of slowing down anymore, all I wanna do is to forget about everything...and about him.
“No, I always saw him with different girls. So I would just lose track of who’s whom.” Luke responded with laughter in his voice.
“Yeah, no surprise there. Well, this is- or I mean WAS his girlfriend apparently.” Danny began explaining with that smug tone of his. It was starting to piss me off with how he was wording it. He made it seem as if I was some side chick or something.
So I immediately pulled his hand away from my waist and slammed my cup on the hard surface of the table. I then faced my body towards Luke and gave him a serious stare, however it was really hard to stand still with how wobbly my legs were.
“I was never his girlfriend.....we just knew each other,” I said with a serious tone as I felt my body temperature rising. I was angry at this point, not only with everyone. But with myself mainly, how can I be so stupid to believe everything Eli was telling me. I’m just a stupid naive fourteen-year-old girl who had no idea what she was doing. I just easily opened my legs for a guy who I thought would be there for me forever, I was wrong and dumb for thinking that. Just look at the result of what happened to me, possibly pregnant from a guy who just left me feeling completely heartbroken and used!
Hearing Danny snicker only made me want to punch him in the face, giving him another black eye would match the other one that he has. However, with the state that I am, I doubt I’ll do any damage to him. Or else I wouldn’t think twice about kicking his ass if I wasn’t this drunk and emotionally unstable!
“Oh, okay. It makes sense now. Because Elijah didn’t do the girlfriend thing, he’s always been a single guy for the years that I’ve known him, so to hear he had a girlfriend. It’s kinda hard to believe, and no offense but...you don’t look like the type of girl Eli would go for.” Luke voiced out with honesty as he gave me a playful smile.
I could tell Luke meant no harm by his comment, after all...he’s one of those people that probably knew how Elijah really was when I wasn’t around.
“So I’ve heard...well, it doesn’t matter. Because I know now...that he’s probably not my type either.” After I finished what I had to say, I turned myself around and tried to walk back into the house. However, I only manage to take two steps until I felt myself beginning to fall. I guess I was really drunk that I could no longer walk or stand up properly without stumbling a bit.
“Whoa, easy there my little kitten.” Danny voiced out with a flirtatious tone as he grabbed each side of my waist firmly, he then helped myself upright and began to walk me towards the house.
“I’ll catch you later then Danny!” I heard Luke shouting from behind as we both continued to walk.
“Let me go, and don’t call me kitten. I’m not a f*cken animal!” I began to speak to him with anger in my voice as I tried to pull away from him. However that seemed to have upset him as he held on to my arm afterward, his hold on me began to tighten as we entered the house. My ears were soon filled with the sound of music once again, the vibration from the speakers was making me lose all focus of what was going on once again.
I could no longer tell the difference from one person to another, everyone looked the same. All I saw was nothing but a blur of everyone, was I that buzzed that I couldn’t see right.
Before I knew it, I was being dragged upstairs for some reason!?
“Hey! Let me go!” I yelled out towards Danny as I tried my hardest to yank my arm back, however, he had his hold on me very tightly. He didn’t even look back at me nor did he have any attention of letting me go for that matter.
“I said to let go you f*cking assh*le!” I repeated myself once again, only this time I began to hit his back with my free hand. I knew my hits weren’t doing anything to him, but it should at least give him a sign that he should let go of me!
My back was then shoved up against the hallway wall, I could tell he slammed me pretty hard with how much the picture frame next to me shook. However, I guess my body had grown numb with the alcohol I’ve drunk prior. Though I was still unaware of what was to come because the look that Danny was giving me was the scariest thing I’ve seen so far. He had the look of someone wanting to kill somebody almost!
“Listen, you little b*tch, I don’t give a f*ck what you have to say. You now know what kind of person Eli was! So what are you still doing here? Are you looking for someone to f*ck you so you can forget about Elijah’s d*ck? If so, then I can help you with that, all you need to do is be a good kitty and spread your legs.” He said in a low mischievous tone, however, he held nothing but hate and anger in his eyes.
The words that he said to me put me in a standstill, as I couldn’t believe what he was telling me. This isn’t what I want, this isn’t supposed to happen! I soon felt a hand grab my crotch tightly, letting out a painful grunt. I began to push him off me as I yelled out for him to stop. Yet all you could hear was the people around me laughing and dancing loudly to the music.
No one is going to hear me, no matter how many times I scream for help. It won’t do any good for me, at this angle, it just looks like we’re some couple making out. Yet here I am being violated by some guy who I thought was Elijah’s best friend.
“Please! Don’t do this Danny! Please!” I yelled with my eyes full of tears. The fear within me was beginning to take over as I felt my body shaking with fright and shame. I shouldn’t have come to this party, because now I’m paying the price of coming with this f*cken psycho!
I felt disgusted with how his hand was still gripping my lower core, even though I’m wearing jeans it still felt like he was touching the real thing. And it made me sick to my stomach, I instantly felt like throwing up with how squeamish I was starting to feel.
Though I felt like I finally got through to him when I felt his hand no longer touching me down there. However, I was quickly proven wrong as he pinned both my arms above my head. An with his free hand he gripped my lower chin and forced me to look at him.
“I told you, that you’ll regret f*cking with me.”
Those exact words that I’ve heard him say before, I wouldn’t have guessed that this was what he meant! Why? Why is everything happening to me?!
“What did I do! I did nothing to you, for you to be doing this to me!” I shouted at him with all my might, yet I could feel my words trembling as I forced them out of my mouth.
“Because of you! My best friend is gone! He can never shut up talking about you whenever he got drunk, it’s was as if you were controlling his thoughts all about you! You haven’t done sh*t since he’s gone missing! All you’ve been f*cking doing is crying like a f*cken brat in your house! And now you say that you were both never dating! Yet here you are piss drunk and able to move on quickly with that new boyfriend of yours!” He voiced out angrily at me as he clenched my chin a lot tighter. It was to the point where I knew I was going to get bruises around my jawline.
“What? What are you talking about? Are you referring to Ren?” I asked him with a terrifying and questionable tone.
“I don’t f*cken care who your sleeping with, but I know you had something to do with Elijah being gone you f*cking sl*t!” He continued to yell at me with hatred in his voice. He then let my chin go to pull something out of his pocket, I continued to struggle out of his hold but it was useless with how strong he had his grip on me
I then looked down the hallway to see if there was anyone I could make eye contact with to let them know I need help! Though Through the mix of all the people to get in eye contact with, it just so happens to be the same girl from earlier that gave me a dirty look. Yet this time she wasn’t with Eric, but with a different guy. She looked directly at me with the same dirty look In her eyes, however, she held this disturbing smile as she looked at me while I continued to cry non-stop. She could clearly see that I’m in an uncomfortable situation and possibly about to get raped!
How can people be so cruel and ruthless! Is this how the world is, nothing but terrible human beings that just don’t care!? If so, then I hate being a person like them.
I was then caught off guard when Danny lifted my chin up once again, yet this time....he forced a kiss on me! I began to muffle underneath my breath and was trying to struggle away from his horrible lips. Letting out an inner scream I could feel it getting harder for me to breathe when suddenly I felt something wet and unpleasant enter my mouth!
His tongue tasted horrendous, the taste of tobacco and heavy liquor mixed with his nasty breath made me want to vomit on cue! Yet despite all of that, I felt something else touch my tongue. It felt hard and solid almost, however, I didn’t get enough time to know exactly what it was since Danny forced it down my throat.
Fully panicked of what I just swallowed, I quickly kneed him right between his legs and heard him let out a painful groan as he released me. I watched as he grabbed hold of his junk and began to take a few steps back.
“You bitch! I’ll fucking kill you!” He shouted out loud while clenching his teeth.
Hearing his threatening words I immediately rushed down the hallway, my body, however, was still feeling a bit unstable as I staggered down the stairs. Hearing heavy footsteps coming from behind, I knew it was Danny that was chasing me! So I swiftly made my way through the heavy crowd of people on the dance floor to lose him. I kept hearing my name being called out as I tried to find the exit of the house!
Again I heard my name being called, though I chose to ignore it. I needed to leave this party as quickly as I can before Danny grabs hold of me! Pushing my way through the crowded people, I suddenly felt my heart beginning to beat faster! At first, I thought maybe it was because I was being chased by a psychotic pervert. That would make sense with how the situation is, however, I wasn’t feeling scared anymore. My anxiety was slowly going away, as well as my sadness.
What was going on with me!? My body felt like it was getting hotter by the minute and I was starting to feel a bit dazed. My heavy breathing was becoming heavier as well!
I then felt someone grab hold of my hand and began pulling me towards their direction. Thinking it was Danny I began to scream for someone to help me, my body felt too weak to fight back this time. So all I could do was yell for someone to notice me, but to no surprise, not one single person realized what was happening to me.
He then finally opened a door, and I saw the night sky looking down on me. The fresh crisp breeze felt so good on my skin, which is crazy with how cold it is outside tonight. I was then being pushed towards a car that looked a bit familiar to me. Yet I couldn’t remember who’s it was, my brain just doesn’t want to function properly right now for some strange reason?
“Luna! Look at me!” The person finally let’s go as we stop next to their car and grabs each side of my face, forcing me to look up at him. The image of it being Danny fades away, as I look at those brown eyes that held the look of worriedness and anger.
“Ren...” I responded heavily as I tried to take off my shirt, I couldn’t handle the heat my body was in as I started to unbutton my shirt.
“Luna, stop! You’re not wearing anything under! What did you drink? Did you take anything weird at the party?! ” Ren shouted out questions at me as he tried to stop me from taking off my shirt, I didn’t even care if anyone saw me in my bra. All I cared about was calming down my body, it felt like it was on fire and I couldn’t do anything to distinguish it. My whole body, and especially my lower parts felt tingly and all the alcohol I drank tonight made my body feel light as a feather. Was I out of my mind? Have I just gone crazy with loneliness?
“Ren...I’m...I’m sorry...” I said quietly for him to hear. I then wrapped my arms around the back of his neck and inched myself closer towards his face. I could feel my face going flushed just like Ren was. I’m sure he was confused just as I was, of what I was doing. And to be honest, I had no more control of my body anymore. All I wanted was to feel good...
“It’s okay, but Luna...what are you..” Cutting him off, I place my lips against his and felt something ignite within me. His lips felt completely different from Danny, Ren’s lips felt strong, soft but most importantly warm. That was all I could remember feeling until everything faded to black.