I hate expressing my feelings to others, it’s like I’m bothering them with my problems. And now my dad wants me to go see a therapist. And yes, I know that it’s their job to listen to other people talk about their issues but it’s not easy to start talking about what you feel or think especially if you don’t even know how you feel or think! It’s stupid I know I haven’t expressed myself that much ever since my mom passed away last year and that’s why my dad wants me to go to see a therapist, but seriously if I can’t talk about my feelings to him how on earth does he want me to start expressing my feelings to someone I don’t even know. It hasn’t been easy this past year, with mom passing away dad started to work more, he says it’s to get more income, but it’s just to keep him busy and not think about mom. He has been travelling a lot for work, leaving me with my Uncle Joey for 2 weeks or more. And when he would be home, he would be in his office doing paperwork. We do spend some time together like at dinner and we still do father-daughter night once a month, so I guess I shouldn’t complain about him not paying attention to me. And also for me, it has been a difficult year, my mom was my best friend. I could tell her everything and she would always know what to say or do. Like that time when I had my first heartbreak, she was there to comfort me and telling me everything will be okay and that I’ll find someone else and she was right. Now that she is not here I just feel empty, I feel nothing. It’s just a space in my heart and I know people say that it will get better, but it’s been a year and I feel the same way....empty. Maybe that could be a reason why dad wants me to go to therapy. School has been normal. My friends have been supportive and I couldn’t ask for better friends. Bryan has been so caring and helpful and has just been there for me. Just 2 months ago, he told me that he liked me and we have started dating ever since. He was the best thing that ever happened since my mom has passed away. He’s coming over tonight to help me study and then after watching a movie or something. I hope he spends the night because I don’t want to sleep alone. My dads gonna be working late again and normally he just stays in a motel close by his work. It’s Saturday afternoon and as usual, I’m home alone. It is a pretty hot day so I decided to wear the new bikini I bought last week and go sit by the pool in the backyard. The bikini is black with dark blue polka dots. I don’t know what it is but I just love polka dots. I suited me well and even if I did not look good I was in my backyard so no one would see me anyways. I took my phone and went to sit at one of the beach chairs. When I unlocked my phone I got 2 messages. 1 from Bryan and the other messages from Mindy. Mindy is my best friend since kindergarten.
I checked Bryan’s message first:*Hey babe, I’m sorry, but I can’t come tonight...something has come up. I’m sorry love, I’ll make it up to you ;) let me take you out to dinner tomorrow night around 7.*I wanted to spend time with him tonight but I guess dinner tomorrow sounds good.
*It’s okay, yeah dinner tomorrow sounds good :)* I replied.
I opened Mindy’s message: *hey Chica >_< I just saw the hottest guy ever!!! he was sitting all alone and decided to go sit next to him on the bus and he is such a gentleman* I laughed when I got her message. Isn’t this typical Mindy Hofstagger, she falls for the first guy she sees. Last week it was the blond guy she saw at the mall. But Mindy is a beautiful girl so guys would fall for her in one second with her beautiful figure, green eyes and brunette hair with light coloured skin. Come on, who wouldn’t fall for her when they saw her.
I replied: * hahaha ooww Mindy you say that about every guy you see and then when you sleep with them, they aren’t very gentle anymore hahaha: P* Waiting for her reply I decided to take a swim.
The water is pretty cold when I get in but I like it. It’s refreshing.
“Eyo Rose you home!?” I hear a familiar voice saying.
“Yeah, I’m in the pool!” I shout out. When I see him in a white shirt with his sleeves rolled up till his elbow, his muscular arms showing and black sunglasses on his head, I know exactly who he is.
“Hey hot stuff, how are you?” He asks me with a smirk on his face clearly looking down at my boobs.
“I’m good, I guess... My boyfriend just cancelled our plans for tonight and dad’s working late tonight, so he isn’t coming home till tomorrow morning.”
” Well lucky for you I’m off tonight, so we can spend the day together, “he said with a devilish smile.
“Oh, so no fucking some random girl tonight, huh?”
“No love, my boys have to get some rest to you know” he chuckled still with that smirk on his face.
“Okay, well I guess we could spend the day, what are we going to do?“.
“Awesome, well first I’m gonna take off my clothes and get in the water with you”Tyler is the type of guy that you can be yourself with.
He never judges me for what I do and he makes me laugh when I’m feeling down and he just always lightens up my day, he is also the only person I can truly talk to when I want to talk. I know I have Mindy, but sometimes it’s nice to know a guy’s point of view and see what he thinks. With Mindy we pretty much think alike, so talking to Mindy would be talking to myself and that would not help. I had a crush on Tyler when we first moved into this neighbourhood 4 years ago and I know he liked me back because he told me 2 years after we became friends, but he is the type of guy that moves on from one girl to the other and what if it did not work out between us, our whole friendship would break so I decided to just stay friends. And he kept being the same old Tyler that flirts and sleeps around with every hot girl he meets.
“So what happened with that boyfriend of yours? Why couldn’t he come?” He asked when he entered the water, coming towards me.
“I don’t know, he just said something had come up and couldn’t make it tonight, but he promised he’d take me out for dinner tomorrow, so no worries.”
“Ow well that sucks but look at the bright side, we’ll be spending the day together and you don’t have to sleep alone tonight.”
“What do you mean? Are you gonna stay the night? Don’t you have better things to do?”
“Nah love, I know how much you hate sleeping alone at night, I know it gives you nightmares and I wouldn’t want you to get those so I’m gonna spend the night here.″ He remembered that I hate sleeping alone, I told him that a long time ago. See that’s one more thing I love about him, he is so caring and attentive. I’m so lucky to have him as my friend.
“Thank you Tyler,” I said, feeling my cheeks getting red and kissed him on the cheek. Then splattered him with water.
“Did you just give me a kiss and then splatter me with water Rose Hart?” He said with a challenging smile on his face.
“Maybe I did, maybe I didn’t, and what are you going to do about it?”
” Oww, you are gonna see what I’m going to do about it, Rose Hart.“He swam up to me, grabbed me and lifted me in the air and throwing me back in the water They started to splatter me with water.
I started to do the same and we ended up just splattering each other with water for at least 5 minutes. After that, he picked me up out of the water and put me down after I screamed and kicked my feet in the air until he put me on the ground. I went to get my towel on the beach chair and checked my phone to see if Mindy has replied, but she hasn’t I only see a message from Bryan:
* I love you, baby, I wish I could’ve been with you tonight.*I got a stupid smile on my face and felt my cheeks turning red.
“You got a text from your Bae didn’t you?” Tyler said, bringing me out of my thoughts.
“Yeah, how’d you know?”
“Well you got this smile on your face when you opened your phone and it was either him or...no it had to be him because you only get that smile when it’s him. You like him, don’t you?“I get a stupid smile on my face again, my God what is happening to me.
“Yeah, I do like him a lot,” I say blushing.
“That’s good love, I like seeing you happy,” he said with a small smile.
“So what do we do now?” I asked, trying to change the subject.
“Well, I’m gonna take a shower, care to join me?”
“Nah I’m good, I’ll take a shower after you’re done.” I stuck my tongue out like a small child.
“The many things you can do with that tong besides sticking it out at me.” He said with a smirk on his face.
“Gross Tyler! Go take your shower!!” He can be such a pervert. while he was taking a shower, I took 2 frozen pizzas from the freezer and put them in the oven. And poured me a glass of water. After 15 minutes Tyler walks into the kitchen with only a towel around his waist. I won’t lie, the view was amazing, his body was just perfect, and no wonder girls would want to have sex with him even if it’s just a one night stand. When I realized I was almost drooling over his ABS I looked up and saw a smirk on his face.
“Enjoying what you see babe?”
“Yea...Ehh no ehm... How was your shower?” I stuttered.
“It was good only to miss you in it with me.” I chuckled,
“yeah, never gonna happen.”
“That’s a shame though,” he said with a disappointed face. “It would be amazing to see you naked and wet...”
“Okay,” I said covering my ears.
“What do you wanna drink? Water? Juice? Sprite? Wine? Beer?”
“What are we having?”
“Then I’ll have a beer.”
“Alright” opening the fridge I see the beer and take a can of sprite for myself.
“Why are you gonna drink sprite? Why not just has a beer?”
” I don’t drink remember? You know what alcohol does to me and besides, I don’t like it.”
” I like it when you have alcohol in your system, you’re so carefree like nothing is going on.”
“Yeah exactly, the fact that I don’t care at all almost made me go home with a guy from the bar we went last time.”
“Oh yeah, who could forget,” he said laughing at the memory.
“Alright, well I guess I’ll just be drinking this beer alone.”
“Yep” I nodded. The pizzas were done to take them out of the oven. I took them out and put them on the counter and started to cut the pizza. While Tyler made himself comfortable in the living room checking what movie we should watch. I came out with 2 plates with 2 slices of pizza on them and put them on the small table in front of the couch. I then went back to the kitchen to get my sprite.
“How about the wedding ring? You wanna watch that?” Tyler asked while I came into the living room with my sprite.”
Yeah sure, but I’m gonna take a shower because I feel a little sticky from the water from the pool.”
“Okay, I can always join you.”
” Sorry, the answer is still no. After taking a 20-minute shower of shampooing and conditioning my hair I got out of the shower and dried myself off. I went into my room to wear my clothes. I decided to wear a big loose white cotton shirt which is very comfy. Switching the lights off, I headed to the living room where I see Tyler on his phone.
“Okay, I’m done let’s watch the wedding ring,” I said when I came and sat next to him and taking my plate with my pizza.
“By the way, did I tell you that my dad wants me to go to therapy because I don’t express myself that often and I have shut myself out ever since my mom died. ” I said with a disgusted face.
“Waw, well you haven’t been that open, though, ever since your mom has passed, but yeah I get that you wouldn’t want to go to therapy, I know it’s hard for you to open up to people but maybe the therapist could help you. I say you should go one time and if it doesn’t go well you don’t have to go anymore, but give it a try first, okay?”
“Yeah, okay that sounds reasonable I’ll do that, thanks to Tyler”
“Sure thing babe” and kissed me on my temples and wrapped his arms around my shoulder making me put my head onto his shoulder. We stayed like that till the movie ended and then after we just spoke about stupid things it didn’t make sense, but it was just fun to have him around. We both fell asleep on the couch, me lying on the side of him with my head onto his chest and his arms around my waist. For some reason, I would always feel safe when I slept like this with him. He was my safe place. The next morning I woke up with a little pain in my neck. I check the time on my phone, 9:30 am. It was still a little early, but we did not go to sleep that late last night, I think it was around 11:30. Tyler wasn’t on the couch anymore, I’m guessing he woke up early and let me sleep in. I called out his name to see if he was still here. And yes he was, I spotted him in the kitchen with his hair a little wet and he was in his running clothes. He probably went to his house, took his clothes and went running.
“Hey good morning,” I said with a small smile.
“Good morning″ Sleeping Beauty,” he said teasingly.
“Where did you go to? And what are you making? It smells good.“He chuckled,
“I went out running in the park and I’m making bacon and eggs.”
“Why’d you go running?”
“I don’t know, I just had to clear my head.”
“Yeah, it’s just that I’m going to go to college this year and I haven’t been accepted to the college I wanted to, which was closest here, but now that I haven’t been accepted there, I’ll have to move.”
“Aww, that means that we wouldn’t be able to see each other that often but you’ll still come when you have a break right?”
“Yeah, of course, maybe once every month or on the weekends. I’ll still have the house so we’ll still be neighbours in a way,” he said while putting the eggs and bacon onto 3 plates. Sometimes I forget that Tyler and I have an age difference of 4 years. He is 20 and I’m 16.
“Awesome, why are there 3 plates?”
“Well, your dad called and he’s going to be here in about 10 minutes and he’ll be hungry, so I decided to make breakfast for the 3 of us.” He said feeling proud of himself.
“Alright, well I’m going to brush my teeth and take a shower and wear something decent before my dad comes home.”
“Kay Kay, you do that.” At the breakfast table, my dad and Tyler are talking about some work-related stuff that I don’t even bother paying attention to understand.
“By the way sweetie, I’ll have to go on another business trip over a month or two and I’m gonna stay longer than usual.” My dad says a little fast for me not to hear the ‘longer than usual’ part.
“Are you serious!?” This can’t be happening, I’m not staying for more than 2 weeks with my uncle Joey.”
“I’m a sorry sweetie, but I have to go, it will be for 2 months maybe even less.”
“2 months! I’m not staying with Uncle Joey a month!!”
“Well, then I have good news.”
“What do you mean?” I look at him confused.
“Well, you won’t be staying with your uncle because your uncle is going on vacation and has it busy with his new wife so you are going to be staying with Ian.”
I felt my mouth hit the ground, are you kidding me! This can’t be happening! I hate Ian he is a jerk, player, fool the list can go on. He doesn’t care about anyone’s emotions and only thinks about himself. He sleeps with every girl he meets, I bet all the women at his job have slept with him. He is a professor at a university here and all of his students are all over him. It’s gross and the worst part is that he likes the attention! Like what the hell dude. He got divorced 2 years ago because he got tired of her after not even 1 year of marriage. And maybe she just married him for his money. He came from a rich family so basically he doesn’t have to work, but I don’t think he has anything better to do with his time so he went to teach at the university. I can’t believe this! I can’t be staying with him for a month, I can’t even stand him when he is over here for only a few hours. He and my dad are the best of friends, even though he’s 24 and my dad 38. Now I have stayed with him for more than a month! Hell to the no.
“What! No! I’m not staying with him! You know how much I can’t stand him, can’t I stay with Tyler? Please, dad.” I begged him to try to change his mind.
“Sorry Rose, you can’t stay with me, I’m leaving to go visit my mom this summer.” Tyler said with an I’m-really-sorry face. Ugh, this can’t be happening! What am I going to do now?