I shouldn't have done it. I don't know what I was thinking. I should have just let her be, but no. I had to give in to temptation and it only made me crave her more because she tastes so damn good. I can still hear the lust in her voice when she said my name. Just thinking about it made me so hard that it hurts. I deserve worse than blue balls. I pushed to get her only to lose her altogether. She fucking hates me. I ruined her relationship because I was fucking selfish. I wish I would have made my move before Lewis did or at least tried harder to get her to open up to me instead. I didn't want to hurt her.
Lewis, fucking coward ass, ran back home to mommy and daddy after he became completely sober and realized what he had done. When I walked in the house after Emery pulled off and saw Lewis pulling up his pants, leaving Ali's room, I knew why she had left. I hauled ass and tackled him through her door breaking it off the hinges. Blow for blow, we beat the shit out of each other. All the anger from each of our perspectives poured out in a violent rage. Blood was everywhere. Ali was just lucky I don't believe in hitting women. I'm glad Eli didn't share my beliefs. The slap was heard from around the world after she learned the whole story after Lewis and I were pulled apart. I'm pretty intuitive. I know Ali knew something was going on between them. The way her nose scrunched up when she saw him get angry when I touched Emery, the way her lip curled when he would stare at Emery when she wasn't looking, and the eyes rolls at the fact that he was taking care of her when she got out of the hospital gave her away. She was such a bitch and the fact that she's trying to hide behind that innocent girl persona only shows that something is off with her.
I have been racking my brain and resources trying to find her. She not at her mom's house and the only other person she mentioned was her friend Ryan who I can't find information anywhere. Without a last name, I was fucked. I would have to check everyone named Ryan in the state, assuming he still stays here. I don't know what to do. Agent No Help doesn't know who he is or he's just not telling me. I searched every social media site for her, but she's nowhere to be found, no accounts. I growled in frustration and tossed my laptop across the room.
There was a knock on my door then Damion peeked his head in. "Did you find her?"
"No!" I huffed my breath and laid back on my bed. "I've run out of places to look." I heard a clicking sound and looked up to find Damion sitting in my computer chair. His elbows were resting on his knees and his fingers were interlaced while he stared at me.
Here we go again.
I caught hell from Eli. She stated how she didn't expect anything more from an asshole. She told me she was disappointed because she thought I'd changed. I wished she believed that I didn't do it with the intention of breaking them up. I just saw an opportunity. Lewis got it much worse. She tore him a new one to the point Damion had to hold her back. Angry Eli wasn't anything close to happy Eli. She was a demon child.
"I get it, man. She told me what was going on with you guys earlier in the year. I even found you guys cuddled up on the couch one morning," he stated. "I'm not justifying what you did by any means. I just know how it feels to be on the outside looking in."
I groaned loudly, rubbing my face with my hands. "Don't tell me that you're in love with her, too."
He chuckled. "No. She's just a friend."
"Good, because I don't know if I can handle competing with someone else for her. Lewis is enough and he was way ahead of me."
"No, he wasn't," he chuckled again. "She loved you, dude. Just as much as him. Now, I think she hates you guys almost equally the same. Maybe him a lot more. I can't believe he slept with Ali though."
"He's lucky he left or I'd kick his ass again."
"You went down on his girlfriend. I understand why he was pissed."
"I really fucked up, didn't I?"
"Yeah. Yeah, you did man. I haven't ever seen Eli so down. She wants to kill you, but she wants to kill Lewis even more. The house is divided and two of our roommates are M.I.A," he sat back in the chair and blew out his breath, looking up at the ceiling.
"So, why are you talking to me?"
"No use to holding your mistakes against you. We are all human and we are all selfish at some point. It's not up to me to forgive you." he shrugged his shoulders.
Good. One less enemy to live with.
"Hey. Whatever happened to Quinn?" he continued.
I laughed bitterly as I sat up to look him square in the face. "Well, Quinn was in one of my classes and saw me staring at Emery at the party. She said she could help me get her attention. Next thing I knew, she was kissing me. After that, we pretended to be dating to make Emery jealous. We never had sex. Not even close. I slept on the floor when she slept over. She was just trying to help. It worked for a while, but Emery still wanted Lewis. You want to know the kicker?" He looked confused. "Quinn's not even into guys. She's gay. Now on top of everything that happened, Emery thinks I'm fucking Quinn. Fuck me!"
"Wow," was all he could say.
I really am an asshole.