Okay so I just had a baby. It’s whatever, this year I’m trying to get back my popularity. All summer I have been working out getting ready for Cheerios and losing that disgusting leftover baby fat. My mom has been real supportive of me which is strange but also nice.
I haven't talked to anyone over the summer. Well Santana and Brittany sometimes but other than that nobody not Finn or even Puck.
I mean okay Puck did say he loved me when we were standing in the hospital looking at our baby. Should I have responded to that? No he could have just been hyped up in the moment and he just said it to make me feel good. Or was he waiting all summer just for me to call or something? Noo probably not, right?
Anyway its a new year and I am glad to be back as the new me. I feel as if this whole giving birth to a baby has really made me take a new perspective on life. I mean sure I do miss her but that's besides the point.
When I walked into school I saw Santana and Brittany right away and I ran over to them and gave them a huge hug. It was nice to hug someone without my huge belly in the way. Im really trying hard to avoid seeing anyone else because I don’t want to talk about how I am feeling or how I got rid of all the breast milk.
I know Puck will say something once he see’s me. I mean we were friends and the baby made us closer than ever. I know Puck and he knows me but still I have some uncertainties about him. I just don't know what they are yet.
During lunch Brittany showed me a video on that weird afro haired kids blog called “Glee’s Big Gay Summer.” It was of Puck. The kid asked Puck if he was suffering from a crippling depression because he wasn't over me and Puck just took the camera and broke it.
Great he isn’t over me. Well am I over him? I never liked him like that. Well I never thought of him like that.. it's so bizarre to even think it.