Left alone in my thoughts

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My fault

Okay so I haven't talked or even seen Puck in the halls. We don't even look at each other in glee. Sam always wants to kiss me in public but I never want to just incase Puck is around. I don't want to rub it in his face.

I’ve heard Puck was wheeling around Artie and helping him out as community service. But I saw it take full effect right in front of my eyes. All the girls were in the choir room making our costumes for our competition against the boys. Puck came in wheeling Artie. He said he wasn't here to spy but to talk to Santana and Brittany. Which mad me pretty mad. Brittany said,

“Do you guys wanna go out to dinner tonight?”

Puck said, “Not really” Which made Santana and Brittany sad. But then Puck said

“Tell you what, you two show up at breadsticks tomorrow around seven and if we don't find hotter chicks to date tonight, we might show up.”

And they agreed! I was so confused. How did they fall for that? But then again I used to fall for that when Puck used it on me, thats even how he got me to have sex with him. I guess I have just outgrown him.

During glee club the next day Principle Figgins came in and said he needed Mr. Shu and Noah Puckerman in his office. It was weird hearing Puck’s first name. Like Noah was a totally different person. I looked back behind me to looked at Puck’s reaction to this. He looked confused.

I later heard that he blew up in the principal’s office because they didn't count him hanging with Artie community service. I felt sorry for him. His life was tumbling down. First I break his heart and now he might go back to juvie. Granted him going back may help my relationship with Sam but I can't let Puck go. As much as he said he was the king in juvie I don't believe it. I know him.

So I decided to take things into my own hands. Like I always seem to have to do. But this time I was nervous. I had to talk to Puck. The thing is, is that he might not listen to what I have to say and he might leave for a year this time...

I saw him at his locker. He looked really angry, I've never seen him this mad before. I walked over to him. I was determined and I didn't want him to leave before I got to say what I wanted to. I got to his locker. I leaned up against the one next to his. He didn't look at me or say anything but I knew he knew I was there. So I started,

“I heard about the whole community service thing.” He still didn't answer or move. He kept putting things from his locker into his bag.

“Listen Puck I know things are kind of hard right now for you, but you going back to juvie won't be good for you. I know you didn't like it there.”

He then slammed his locker shut and turned to look at me, he was pissed.

“Don't tell me what to do Quinn! I told you I liked it there! And honestly there is nothing here for me… not anymore.” I knew what he meant by that and it made my stomach hurt, like I couldn't digest all that pain I had caused him. But I continued like it didn't phase me,

“You don't have to lie to me Puck! I know you hated it there so just do the stupid community service!”

“How do you know I hated it there?! You don't know anything about me Quinn!”

“I may not know a lot of things, but I do know about you.” He was silent for bit and he just looked at his feet.

“I did hate it there.” He looked sad and I tried to comfort him by getting closer to him but he backed away from me, like I was some kind of disease. He said,

“That doesn't change things between us Quinn. You ruined it. And maybe I don't want to go back to juvie but I’m definitely not picking up trash off the side of the road. Thats ghetto! So I’m just going to skip town.”

“They will find you Puck and you'll be in more trouble than ever!”

“So what it doesn't matter if I stay here.”

“It matters to me! I don't want you to leave!”

“Well I’m so sorry Quinn,” He said this with sarcasm,

“I guess you can't get everything you want.” And he walked away.

He thought I ruined everything!? He never even asked me out! And what was he talking about I never get what I want! I didn't wanna lose Finn. And I especially didn't want to want to lose my virginity to him and have a child together!

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