I woke up Saturday morning and looked over and Marcus was already gone. It didn't alarm me. Most mornings he got up before I did and took off. I made my way out of the bed and jumped into the shower. I was thinking about the kiss with Marcus. He never even said anything about it last night. I guess it was just for the game and it didn't mean anything. I did my best to just brush it off. I didn't have any plans today, other than getting all this darn homework taken care of. I pulled on some shorts and a tank top. I wrapped my hair up into a messy bun and headed down in search of food.
I knew my mother was cooking. I could smell it all the way up to my bedroom. I could hear my mother talking to someone in the kitchen and thought. Maybe Marcus didn't take off after all. I rounded the corner and Mason was sitting at the bar talking with my mother. "Hey, you," I said as I took a seat next to him. He turned and looked at me.
"You can't go hiking in that." He said.
"Since when was I going hiking?" I asked him. He had on his huge beautiful smile. All I could do was smile back at him.
"Come on Cans, I need to get out of the house and Marcus is busy today. It's beautiful out today." I just looked at him and my mother was just smiling drinking her coffee. Ugh, I said to myself.
"Between the two of you. I'll never get any work done this year." Mason just smiled. I finished my breakfast and went upstairs to change. Next thing I knew I was getting out of his car and grabbing my water bottle out of my bag. There's a lot of different hiking spots in our area. Mason picked the one that hiked around the water. There more walking here then there was climbing. Which I didn't mind. I only went hiking with the guys every once in a while. They were always more athletic than I ever was. Trust me you could see it. We walked for about an hour and then we reached the water's edge.
"Come on let's have a seat," Mason said. I nodded at him and took a seat by the water. I pulled out my water and had a drink.
"So, how was last night?" He asked me.
"You mean the beach party. It was fun."
"No, I mean you kissing Marcus." I almost choked on my water.
"What do you mean?" Mason looked at me for a moment. Then he moved closer to me.
"What was it like to kiss him?"
"Mason, are you trying to tell me that you're gay?" Mason burst out laughing.
"Really Cans, do you not know me at all?" I mean he was right. Marcus and Mason are two of the biggest playboys I know. "I just meant how did it make you feel?"
"Awkward, I guess."
"Well, I think It was just the game and nothing more. Why did he say something to you?" Mason just looked over at me. He shook his head.
"So it meant nothing to you?"
"Why all the questions Mason?" I asked him. "We have been friends for so long. Of course, it didn't mean anything."
"Wow Cans, that's harsh." I looked at him like he was nuts.
"What am I supposed to say. It was the best kiss I have ever had. He is my best friend."
"You're only supposed to say the truth." He said. The truth, I mean. What's my truth? I haven't stopped thinking about it since it happened. "How about I give you more to think about?" Mason said. I turned and started to talk, but instead, Mason's lips touched mine. At first, I was going to pull away but his hand went into my hair and pulled me even closer to him. His kiss was so much different than Marcus's. Mason kissed me softly and I felt him bite my lip. He then pulled away. He looked at me and I had no idea what to say or what to think.
"Why?" Was all I could get out.
"Because I could tell you were conflicted with your kiss with Marcus. I know you babe and I know it's been bugging you." I looked at him and then all of a sudden I was angry. I stood up and crossed my arms at him.
"So you're both just playing games with me? That's bullshit, Mason." Mason got up.
"No, Cans wait. That's not what this is at all. Shit," I started to walk off. "Cans wait!" I heard him holler from behind me. I stopped and turned and looked at him.
"I'm not one of the little girls you and Marcus like to play with!" I hollered out at him and turned to keep walking.
"No your not!" He hollered back.
"Take me home now!"
"Cans wait, you have it all wrong." I stopped walking and he caught up to me.
"Really, then why did you just kiss me?" I said crossing my arms. He looked at me for a few seconds.
"Because I was jealous that Marcus got to and I didn't." If it could, my mouth fell to the ground.
"Wait, what does this even mean? You're scaring me, Mason."
"Scared? You think I would hurt you?"
"That's not what I meant. You're my best friend. Do you have feelings for me?" Mason started to rub his face and he went and took a seat on a large rock. I cocked my head at him.
"This wasn't supposed to go this way. Marcus is going to kill me."
"Mason?" I hollered out. "You had better start talking now."
"Fuck it," Mason said and got up and came over to me. He reached out and pushed me against a tree. His lips found mine again. After a few seconds or minutes. I mean I really didn't know as I was lost in his kiss. He pulled away from me and his forehead rested on mine. "Does that answer your question?" I shook my head.
"No," I said. "I dont know whats going on Mason."
"I have feelings for you."
"What why?" I looked down at myself. "Because of this?" I said pointing at myself. "This is all because I came home different looking? Dose Marcus feel the same way?" Mason took a deep breath. "Mason?" He nodded at me. "Oh my god. Please, Mason, take me home." Mason just sighed and I started heading back to the car. The drive was quiet.
"Candace, please dont be angry with us." He said finally breaking the silence in the car.
"I dont know what I am. I mean I have never looked at the two of you in that way. You're my best friends, Mason. This could break us all and that's the last thing I want to ever happen." I looked back out the window.
"You mean to tell me you feel nothing after kissing us?" I looked back at him.
"I dont know what I feel right now. All I know is this can't be good for us." I crossed my arms and just kept my eyes on the road. "Besides Marcus only kissed me because of a dumb childish game. You went crazy and kissed me." Mason laughed some.
"You think I went crazy?"
"Why else would you kiss your best friend since elementary school?" I snapped.
"Because I have feelings for you."
"And where were these's feelings before I left for the summer?" He just looked back at the road and didn't say anything. "That's what I thought."
"You have it all wrong." He said.
"Okay Cans maybe your right and we didn't really notice it until you came back home looking the way you do, but we know you. We know who you are and what kind of person you are. That makes a big difference." I just looked at him. He pulled up in front of my house and I jumped out of the car and ignored his calls to me. I walked inside and closed the door behind me. I just stood there for a moment.
"Is everything okay?" I heard my mother ask me. I looked up at her and then I felt my tear fall down my cheek. She walked over to me and pulled me into her arms. "What happened?" I took a deep breath.
"I wish I had never gone away for the summer."
"Why baby?" She softly said to me.
"Because Mason and Marcus have lost their minds."
"I dont understand." She said and lead me over to the couch and we sat down. "Tell me what happened?" I explained everything to her that had happened.
"And then Mason went crazy and kissed me too." My mother sat there with a smile on her face. Mom, this is not funny." I said with tears in my eyes.
"Baby, you're a beautiful girl. Not only on the outside but on the inside as well. Did you really think they weren't going to notice that?"
"But mom they are the only people that matter to me."
"Thanks." She said.
"You know what I mean. Mason said they have feelings for me."
"And you dont feel anything like that for them?" I looked around the room for a moment thinking about what she just said.
"I dont know what the hell I feel right now. I just dont want to lose them. I dont want this to tear them apart. I'm scared, mom."
"Then I think you need to talk to them both. Tell them how you feel."