The next evening I hadn't heard a word from Mason or Marcus. I finally got the never and sent them a text. Asking them to come over this evening so we could talk. I waited for them out in the back yard. I knew my mother would show them where I was. That's when I heard the slider open. I turned and there came my two best friends. The two people that meant the whole world to me. God, they were hot. Damn it. Stop it, I told myself. They both pulled up a chair and set in front of me. They weren't saying anything. Finally, I stood up. "Have you both lost your minds?" They shot their faces up to me. I sighed. "I'm sorry, but what's going on with you two. It's just me. Remember, I'm the girl your best friends with."
"Is it really that bad?" Marcus said. Mason sat back.
"Seriously?" Mason said. I took a seat and looked at them.
"Just please tell me what this is," I said and sat back. They looked at each other.
"We both have feelings for you, but you dont have to worry about anything Cans. We have promised each other that nothing will hurt our friendship." I just shook my head.
"But it will," I said. Marcus reached his hand out and touched my leg.
"Why Cans, why do you think it will?"
"Because if I let my walls down and I fall in love with one of you the other will be hurt."
"Won't you even think about this, Cans?" Mason said. I sat there and looked at them both. These two guys have been my whole world for as long as I can remember. I have watched them grow up into the men they are. I know everything there is to know about them. I have loved them both in the same measure. Have I ever been attracted to them? Yes, yes I have. I mean they both turned out to be gods, but I'm still worried about the bond that I have with them. Could the friendship withstand something like this? What if I do choose one of them and then it dont work out? Would we still be friends? Or would I lose them? This is the thing that scares me the most.
They both sat there waiting for me to respond to them. "I need time to think about this. You guys need to understand that I'm scared. Out of everyone in this world. You two mean the most to me. If I lost you, I'd be lost." They looked at each other.
"I understand but think about this. We both have spoken about this and we have promised that if you choose one of us. We will do our best to not let it take our friendship away. We have also known you all our lives. The last thing we want to do is lose you in any way. Yes, it's true when you came home you showed us a different side to you that made our eyes open, but we know you and we know your heart. It wasn't just your looks that we fell for." Mason said.
"Yeah Cans, it's not just about your booty," Marcus said. We all started to laugh. Leave it to Marcus to make light of a hard situation. "And it's a good booty." All I could do was shake my head. Mason stood up and looked at me.
"You take what time you need. Even if you choose to stay friends. We will always be by your side." I smiled at him. Mason was always the sweet one out of us. He had a bit of a temper, but you never really saw it much. Marcus can be sweet but only when he is truly in a good mood, and his family life made that hard for him. He has always been the one to hide his feelings. I think In all the time I have known him. He only actually opens up to me. I'm sure he opens up to Mason as well, but they do that on their own time. Mason is the soft one and Marcus is more your bad boy type, but none of that matters to me. I love them both. They can't do wrong in my eyes.
I have never been fond of the way they are with girls. In our freshmen year. We thought this girl Mason started dating would last a while. He really liked her and then she had moved away. Mason was pretty broken up about it. Ever since then, they both treat girls like objects. Marcus has never shown true feelings towards anyone but Mason and myself. The girls come and go. Not that I would think I would be treated that way.
"I just need some time to think about all of this. I hope you guys can understand." They both nodded their heads at me. Then the back door opened and my mother hollered out.
"Fried Chicken is done, come and get it." The guys took off like bats out of hell. I had to laugh at them because at the end of the night. They were still the two little boys that I loved. I followed them inside the house and we all had dinner together. After dinner, the guys went out back with my father and played ball. They always let my father win and it made him feel good. I sat on the couch with my mother watching some TV. "Do you feel any better?" She asked me.
"No, but they both have feelings for me and want me to think about it."
"Do you feel any different about it?" I just sighed and looked out the back door. "They're both good boys Candace. You know them well. Do you see yourself being in love with one of them?" My mother always knew how to give me food for thought.
"I just dont know mom. I have never looked at them as anything more then friends. This is really rough on me."
"Well, the way I see it is if you knew for sure that you only looked at them as friends. Then we wouldn't be having this conversation, now would we?" I turned and looked at her.
"How did you get to be so damn wise?" She giggled some and smiled.
"Age, it's all in the age." I looked back out at them. Did I have feelings for one of them? Is that why I'm so confused? I guess this is something I need to figure out. I sat there on the couch just watching them run the court and I realized I was watching their muscles and not them. Damn it, I knew they are hot. That's never been anything new. I watched Mason and thought about what it would be like to be with him. He is a great and very smart guy. With a huge future ahead of himself. His family life sucks, but only because of that stepmother of his. Who is bleeding his father's money. Mason has a heart of gold. Then there's Marcus, who has that bad boy vibe. He is tough and has a very hard heart. He is not easily open and most of the time he is in a bad mood. He says rude things and gets into fights a lot. That Mason always seems to have to break up, but he is very smart and very loyal to the people he cares about. He has always been brutally honest. One thing I have always liked about him. He has no tolerance for bullshit and never sugar coats anything. Both of them are good guys in their own ways.
Well if I do have feelings for one of them. I dont know what one and I'm going to have to wait and see what comes of this. Now that I know how they feel. My eyes will be open now. I never thought I'd be in this passion ever when it came to them. They all came walking back inside. All three of them were covered in sweat. My father has always been a good looking man and he has always taken good care of himself. I loved it when the boys hung out with my father. It was good for him. I looked over at Marcus, "Are you staying?" I asked him.
"No, I think I need to go home tonight. Not that I think they care, but my mother will have a fit if I dont at least check-in." I nodded at him. Mason came over and kissed the top of my head. Something he has always done. Mason has always been the cuddle bug. I said goodbye to them both and headed upstairs. I had school in the morning and I needed to try and focuses on that for a while before my brain exploded.