“I am sure you are pretty excited that Mr. Douglas is coming back home today,” Catalina asked while drying some of the dishes from our lunch I rubbed my sweaty palms together, it had been a little less than three hours since Gwen dropped me at home and I had been waiting patiently for Tyler.
“Yes I am, Thanks for staying here with me to receive him and thanks for helping me cook dinner”
“I should be thanking you I learned a new way to cook chicken in a whole new different way”
“It is just thyme chicken sautéed apples and mushrooms not really a difficult recipe my grandmother taught me this one if a blind person can still do it then so can you” she smiled, I heard the sound of the gates opening.
“That’s his car pulling up into the driveway,” Catalina said, I smiled to myself.
“I’m so excited I can’t wait” I grinned widely and ran out of the house to meet with Tyler
“Tyler” I jumped into his arms, his arms reflexively wrapped around my waist. I kissed him squarely on the lips, The thing that scared me was that the excitement and kiss were real at that moment and not just an act to put up for the help, and I liked it and I didn’t expect to do it. Tyler pulled away from me and raised his eyebrow “I missed you”
“I said I missed you”
“Oh God, I think I am dreaming” his eyebrows were scrunched up, I let go of him and moved back shoving him back a little
“Uh... I will take your bag inside” Catalina said and took Tyler’s suitcase, she clearly felt the tension. Suddenly we were alone.
“Let’s go inside” I said
“Well you have to tell me what the hell that was”
“Tyler, I don’t want to argue with you”
“You kissed me, Siobhan, clearly I have every right to be confused”
“It was just for show” I turned around but he grabbed my hand and before I could react he held the second one.
“Look me in the eye and tell me it was just for show” I rolled my eyes.
“I don’t have to do that you already know it was just for show, Tyler”
“Come on, even if it was just for show you wouldn’t KISS me, and when you said you missed me, I could see the sincerity in your eyes”
“Then you are incredibly blind”
“Well I missed you, and feel free to slap me after I do this” he let go of my hand and pressed his lips on mine after putting his hands on my waist. I must slap him, but I didn’t, I put my hand on his cheek, and ran my hand over the sharp stubble. Moving away from him I bit my lip slightly. I suddenly remembered that I was still mad at him, I pushed away and turned around.
“Let’s just go inside” I took a glance at him and almost missed the look of hurt in his eyes “how was your trip” I put my hand around his torso and he relaxed after at least three seconds of stiffness.
“Stressful, very stressful and when you gave me that call, you relaxed my tension and anxiety about my meeting the following morning but you scared me"
“Someone can call to know how you are doing Tyler”
“I understand that now” we walked into the house.
“It smells amazing in here, did you cook?”
“Yes come on the food is getting cold”
“Do you like it?”
“Yes it’s delicious,” he replied
“I’m glad you like it”
“How was your day with Gwendolyn?”
“It was alright,”
“Where’d you go, what did you talk about?”
“Someone’s interested... we talked about normal girl stuff, did a little shopping and she dropped me home”
“It’s good that you have friends like Gwendolyn she is a good girl” he put a spoon of mashed potatoes in his mouth “so have you forgiven me for what I did”
“I guess so I don’t have to be angry if you still love her. I don’t have to say anything, I don’t like it though you being exactly like Brendan, I mean he stole your wife from you, and now you want to steal his back. You are better than that,” he looked hurt for a second.
“I don’t love her, I hope I don’t love her. But I cannot love someone else the way I loved her, bound to be alone for life” hurt passed my heart.
“Tyler, I want a stable family for my baby”
“Tyler you don’t expect that I will let you have my baby after I give birth do you?”
“Well” I laughed
“Well, what? Tyler. That would destroy the child’s life do you understand me. So since this is a...”
“Marriage of convenience”
“Yes, why don’t we just stay together, I am not saying you have to fall in love with me, but at least we should stay together for the baby’s sake. And as for your tendency to...”
“Sleep around, I don’t have a tendency to sleep around. I can keep it in my pants if I want to okay”
“So, do you agree,” I asked raising my eyebrow.
“Sure” this is going to end up in tears, I could already see it in the future. I am falling, hard. And I was determined to keep him “When did you talk to your parents last?” Tyler asked
“I haven’t really talked to them in a while”
“And Brian” he added, looking at me with this knowing look in his eyes.
“You know that I am not allowed to see Brian because of the contract”
“But if I say I would let you see him would you say you do... wanna see him that is”
“Would you do that for me?”
“Of course I would do that for you, you are one of my best friends,” I smiled
“Really” I exclaimed “oh my God I am so happy thank you thank you I absolutely owe you one”
“Yes you absolutely do” I drew my head backward at the deviousness in his tone “I am joking, you don’t owe me anything, yet”
“o... k you continue with your dinner I am going to bed now”
“Uh I was hoping you will stay with me, in my bed tonight”
“Why?” I asked
“I’m in the mood for your body against mine is that too much to ask?”
“Yes, it’s a lot to ask... you are acting weird”
“In what sense?”
“Weird; weird, Tyler I don’t think that is a good idea”
“I won’t try anything to you, you just go up to my bedroom and I will do the dishes”
“You are scaring me”
“I just told you I just want you in my arms, I won’t rape you or anything, trust me” part of me just wanted to say fuck it, that part wanted me to dress up in the sexiest of all the lingerie I owned and let Tyler take my non-existent virginity. But the other, the greater part didn’t want this at all, I wanted to trust Tyler. But I wasn’t willing to take the chance. Not even Brian had asked to sleep with me, it always just happened.
“Okay... fine” I stood up and went to my room to get ready for bed. I dressed in my normal night shorts and a tank top then put on a silk gown, before I tucked that into some plaid pajama bottoms and on top of that I wore a robe, I wanted to wake up in time and knee him in the crotch before anything happened.
He was behaving awkward, first telling me that I owed him, then telling me that he wanted to be in bed with me. I should know Tyler likes invading people’s personal space, I am overreacting. I walked to his bedroom and lied down. It was Tyler, just Tyler. Tyler can’t do that. Right.
What if he tried to kill me or worse sleep with me by force. My heart started beating fast when I heard the door to the room open I froze then closed my eyes to pretend like I was asleep.
“Siobhan” Tyler whispered lowly making her tense. It was official he was going to try to rape me “Siobhan” he called again then sat beside me and started caressing my arm with his index finger.
I felt a tear slip from my eyes is the type of favor he wanted him to repay him with. If he wanted to sleep with Eliza I suddenly had no problem with it. “Siobhan? It’s okay Tyler she is asleep, just do it and get it over with” I bolted out of the bed but he caught my hand pulled me to his lap.
“I knew you were awake, you were pretending”
“Please don’t hurt me” my lips quivered
“What, why will you think I want to hurt you” Tyler’s head tilted to the side “Oh my God, I made you cry” He hugged me “I was only kidding”
“You know how I feel about the rape jokes”
“I wasn’t thinking, I am sorry. I want you to know I could never hurt you like that” so you would hurt me in another way
“Pinky promise” I held out my pinky and he wrapped his pinky around it.
“I promise, sweetheart”
I couldn’t believe it, Siobhan was raped, why else would she be that terrified, why else would she admonish me for kissing her, she won’t be so against sleeping with the lights off. And the scars, I didn’t even want to think about what caused that. I wanted her to confirm for me, I needed to be wrong.
“Do you have anything you wanna tell me?” I asked
“Nope” she tried getting off my lap
“Very sure Tyler” Siobhan replied
“Maybe you will be comfortable in your room”
“No it’s okay I can sleep here”
“Are you sure? I am not forcing you”
“Tyler, I know what I want, I am sure okay”
“Okay then let me take a shower”
“Can I join?” she teased, Oh God
“I want to say yes”
“Then say it” there was this look on her face, she was anxious and she was waiting for my reply, I even noticed her fiddling with her nails, she did that often. And I hoped that it was only when she was around me, I am falling, hard. And I would do anything to keep her.
“Yes, I want you to shower with me”
Siobhan stood up and removed her robe, then she pulled down her pajama trousers, her silk gown went loose around her. That was weird, but it was Siobhan. She pulled up her gown and no surprise she was wearing another pair of nightwear under it.
“Why so much clothing”
“Nothing” I watched how she removed her shirt, I am being a pervert, watching her undress. And I was getting hard too. The scar under her belly button did nothing to hide how beautiful her body was, milky white flesh, that I could foresee being soft and smooth. She slowly pulled off her shirt.
Tyler was watching me closely, now I wish I had turned off the lights, this would have been less embarrassing. I wrapped my arms around my chest.
“Don’t hide from me, you are very beautiful”
“Don’t flatter yourself Tyler, I’m cold”
“Either way, still very beautiful”
“Well, thank you”
“You are trying to make this weird but I won’t let you” he started unbuttoning his shirt.
“You know me, awkward antisocial sociopath”
“Remind me to put that in my dictionary of stupid sentences when the ladies are not flocking on my doorstep,” he pulled me towards his bare chest “undress me”
“You heard me” I placed my hands at his shoulders and slowly pushed the dress-shirt off, looking in his eyes as I did so.
“You have the most beautiful eyes”
“And you too” when I was done with his shirt. I unbuckled his belt.
“Could you try and calm your racing heart, it’s just Tyler, it’s me”
“Yes, it’s you”
It felt like forever before he was completely naked. I held his hand and led him to his bathroom, I heard him snickering over my shoulder.
“We’re naked” I mean, I don’t expect him not to be humored by this. I laughed too.
“I guess so” I pushed him into the bathroom, we ended up having hot steamy shower sex, AS IF. I ended up crying about how inexperienced I was, as we do and he was confused where the confession came from.
You are a real inconvenience, you know that” he entered the bed next to me, his bare chest met my chest and we were looking at each other like we were lovers.
“I guess this is about you wanting to sleep with the lights off, I should just go”
“No, a good type of inconvenience” he whispered and pecked my lips “do I have the blessing to kiss you now, or is it just strictly hugging” I pecked his lips.
“Is that your answer?”
“Brian” I jumped into his arms and wrapped my legs around his waist.
“Well, I didn’t think you could ever be this excited to see me” he replied “I have missed you so much” he kissed my cheek and I nudged his chin with my nose.
“Okay, come on, that’s being WAY too friendly,” Tyler said and crossed his hands across his chest, when he said I could see Brian, I thought he was joking, but he went out of his way to bring Brian here and managed not to strangle him on the way. Kudos to Tyler.
“Tyler,” I said
“It’s cool, I want to stay in with you”
“Are you okay with that, Tyler”
“Sure I’m going out anyways so you guys have fun, keep your hands to yourself” Tyler walked out
“So he is nice, not the douche I thought he was, he actually talked to me on the way here”
“Ooh, are you starstruck?”
“Is he Jason Statham?”
“No” I replied
“Then no, I couldn’t help but notice the look he had for you on his face”
“Little Siobhan has feelings for Tyler Douglas, why am I not surprised.”
“Why are you not surprised?”
“He is hot,” Brian said
“Like you would know if a guy is hot”
“I mean he looks like me so, no wonder you are in love”
“Oh my God stop it, you wish”
“I like what he has done with you”
“What do you mean?”
“He is making you happy, and I like that. I only want you to be happy do you understand me, and if he hurts you I will join the military again to end his bloodline”
“Yah yah, what have you been up to?”
“I work at a coffee shop, I want to give my photography dream a try”
“Do you need...”
“No your encouragement is enough” this is one of the reasons why he is my best friend, you don’t ever get better than Brian in terms of friendship, he knows when to quit, he is honest and loyal, and wants happiness for all others before himself.
“So I need to check your phone now”
“My phone? check it, I am an open book” I reached for his phone “what the hell is wrong with you,” I laughed “I was kidding, I have secrets, nudes on my phone”
“You are not serious” I took his phone and turned it on. Typed my name in as the password, everyone is using me as their password, my husband, my best friend, my sister, and my father. Because it is, quote ′something no one can ever guess’.
“Who is she?” I pointed to the girl on his screen saver.
“Is that her name?” I teased
“Cute, that’s my baby sister.”
“She isn’t a baby anymore, she looks different from her picture on your wall, I want to meet her”
“Maybe someday, she went back to La already”
“God I missed you”
“I missed you too”