"You need to stop being concerned about what people think Ava. I love you. I chose to be with you and I don't care about what anyone says or does. I just want you. So stop crying, hold your head up high and know that you will always have me." Lwazi said as he took me into his arms. I hope that was true because I really needed him now.
I was crying my eyes out. I was honestly devastated and terrified. The fact that he was from a rich family had never been an issue between the two of us. I love him and he loves me. That's all that had mattered to the both of us until now.
"You don't understand Lwazi, they think I'm not good enough for you. That I should leave you alone, that I'm dragging you down to the gutter with me." I tried to explain to this naive and oblivious yet so kind boy that meant the world to me.
Then again,what did I know about love? I was fifteen and the only reason I even knew Lwazi was because I was really intelligent,so intelligent that I had skipped grades and I was given a scholarship to go to a private school because of it. If it wasn't for that, I wouldn't have met him or known him. I was raised in an orphanage, I had nothing to offer.
"I love you Ava. You're my world and the thought of you not being mine scares me to death. I want to marry you want day. That's how much I know that I have found my soulmate. Ignore my friends and family, they don't know us the way we do. We belong together. We will stand together against them."
He then kissed me, to me though,it felt like goodbye. He was naive and gullible,that would be our downfall. His twin had told me straight that he wouldn't let me be with his brother. That I would be a stain to their family and he would do anything and everything to ruin what we had. I believed his promise more.
"Lunga said-" I stopped snitching when I saw Lunga,my boyfriend's twin coming my way. I knew by the victorious and vindictive look on his face,he had found a way to finally break Lwazi and I.
"Said what Ava?" Lwazi asked. He was curious but when I brought his family up he became defensive.
It didn't matter though. Not anymore.
"Your girlfriend here sleeps around to pay for her tuition. Did you know that brother?" Lunga asked Lwazi in a civil and conversational tone.
The only person I have ever slept with was Lwazi and I knew we were young to be taking our relationship to that level but we were close to graduating and a celebratory kiss led to more,that was five weeks ago.
"She was a virgin until me Lunga,stop your nonsense and leave her alone. I love her." Lwazi growled in irritation. Yet I saw the linger of doubt in his eyes. Lunga was his weakness. That weakness was going to drive us apart. I just knew it.
"Apparently her mouth is not so virginal. Ask all our friends,they have been taken to heaven and back. She is an expect." Lunga said, looking calm and very convincing.
He knew what he had done. He had planted that seed of doubt. He might try and believe me but it was my word against his rich friends and brother he had known longer than me.
"Is that true Ava."Lwazi asked softly.
The fact that he asked me that showed me where this relationship was going. I was right to cry in his arms one last time. He never believed me when I told him he was surrounded by friends who were cruel and unbending. If you were not one of them,you were not welcome.
"Do you think I would do that to you Lwazi?" I asked softly looking at his handsome face, loved his brown eyes, his plump lips that did delicious things to my body when he kissed me. I was the luckiest girl for a while,this boy loved me,wanted to marry me. Well...not sure that would be possible after Lunga was done being vindictive.
"I don't know. Why would my brother lie?" He asked.
"He doesn't think I deserve you."I whispered. I was tired.
Lunga instead whipped his phone out and showed his brother who still had his arms around me. It was a picture. From the back it looked like me but I knew it wasn't because the person was naked kneeling in front of another boy. I was horrified.
Before I could defend myself, Lwazi pushed me so hard I fell on the ground bruising my hands I had used to break my fall.
"So this is what you have been doing? You asked me to stop when it came to taking our relationship to another level because you were busy sleeping around?" He roared. In all my life, I have never seen anyone so angry.
"You know I would never betray you like that Lwazi. I have only ever been naked in front of you. Only you." I pleaded coming to my knees.
"Look at that Lwazi, she is on her knees. She is after all, an expect at being on her knees." Lunga the clown contributed.
I felt myself grow cold. I didn't even defend myself when Lwazi backhanded me.
"I guess that's what you're good for. Opening your legs to every guy who shows you interest. Isn't it? I was a fool to think you could be more when you are nothing and you come from nothing. I made you. You were nothing. A loser and I made you somebody and this is how you thank me? A thankless wench, who is only good for one thing,lying on her back for anyone who wants it. I'm done. If I see your face I will make you regret it." Lwazi fumed as he turned his back on me and left.
I was still on the floor after the slap. I didn't even feel the pain from the slap because the pain of his words shattered me. I didn't think there was coming back from all that had been done and said today.
Lunga's laugh brought me back to reality.
"You should have slept with me, I would have ignored you if you had. Your refusal made you an enemy. Now look at you, lying and bleeding at my feet. You poor thing,maybe being on the floor you will finally know your place in life. It's down there." He smiled in triumph and left me there.
I didn't even get to tell Lwazi that the reason I was crying is that I just found out that I was pregnant. I was fifteen,alone and pregnant.