It was about 7pm when I finally woke up to Jasper laying next to me lightly snoring, I moved his hair from his face and smile I was really lucky to have this not just in my life but as my boyfriend.
He started to stir and opened his eyes then started to rub the sleep from his eye and smiled widely at me. “Hi beautiful, what time is it”.
“7:30pm, what time did you get home at”
“About 5ish I came in and seen you sleeping so peacefully so I decided to join you since I was tired too.”
“ I do feel better though I think I really needed that sleep, I just feel so drained and now Christian stone will be back at school next week and there’s nothing I can do about it because I dropped the charges against him. I just wish this would have never happened.. me and my big mouth.”
“ baby you were only sticking up for your friend and he had no right to put a hand on you, I mean knowing what he done to you make me want to kill him” he said pulling me into a hug and kissing the top of my head.
I just melted into him while we lay down on the bed cuddling for a while, I could lay like this forever, I had silent tears fall down my cheeks because truth be told I no longer felt safe that I had felt the last 3 months.
We went down stairs a while later to find my mom and Sarah sitting on the sofa with wine in hand watching some reality show laughing away. I love their friendship my mom and Sarah had since high school.
I hoped me, Lilly and Emma would always have that friendship when school and college is over like in our 40’s. I went into the kitchen to get some water I was feeling dry, Jasper followed behind me, I think he is just worried about me.
“Are you okay honey” my mom shouted while getting up and coming into the kitchen with Sarah.
“Yeah mom” I replied
“Okay honey, are you staying here or coming come so I can let your dad know before I go home which won’t be for a while.”
“ probably here if that’s okay with you Sarah I just don’t want to be alone tonight”.
“ of course honey anything you need just ask me or get yourself, you know you don’t need to ask.” She smiled.
I walked over to the sofa and sat in between my mom and Sarah hugging them with silent tears falling down my cheeks. My mom and Sarah pulled back. “Amelia what’s wrong” my mom asked with a worried expression on her face.
“ mom I just appreciate how much you and dad and Sarah are always there for me no matter what but there is something I have to say and please listen until I’m done okay”
“I can’t go back to school with Christian coming back next week and I know you and dad know about him coming back because the principal had told me you both had put a restraining order in place but I thought if I dropped the charges I could move on from this but I can’t do that at school mom I can’t face him and that’s the reason I didn’t want to testify so do you and dad would or could allow me to do the rest of school at home expect exams and graduation. Mom now with him being at school of next week I don’t feel safe anymore” I cried.
“ Amelia I’m so sorry I didn’t tell you as we got the call on Friday and got our attorney to file the restraining order but when I spoke to the principal earlier he ensured me that our attorney has spoken to him and told him if Christian comes 10 feet near you he will go to jail.”
“ but that doesn’t mean he won’t get others to get to me.. there’s a few people who he speaks to that doesn’t like including Selena berry who was all cuddled up to him before all this happened and seems they’re still together and will have a field day with me.”
“ Amelia I will speak to your dad and then we will all speak more about it tomorrow but I think will agree with you, we don’t ever want you to feel unsafe baby.”
“Okay mom” I got up and put my water water bottle into the bin and headed up to jaspers bedroom with him saying goodnight to mom and Sarah.
I sat on the side of the bed with my my head in my hand and finally broke thinking why my life became so complicated and fucked up, I mean I’m not a bad person I do good in school never disobey against my parents but now my life is a mess.
“Baby girl what’s wrong” he asked sitting next to me pulling me to him.
“Jasper am I a bad person”
“No why would you think that”
“Well why did he do this to me .. I mean I have always been nice to people unless they’re nasty to me .. I always get good grades and always listen to my parents so why did I deserve this whyyyy” I cried.
My mom ran into the room and pulled me from jaspers arms and pulled me into her arms while asking Jasper to call my dad.. couple of minutes later my dad walked into the room and sat on the floor and cuddled me and my mom. I think we stayed like that for about half an hour I looked up at my parents.
“I’m sorry, I’ve been holding that in so long