Still Hung Up
She could not believe her eyes when she made it back home. He was standing by the door with concern written all over his face. His attention was focused on the phone call he was on, so he did not notice her right away, but the moment he heard the clanking of her heels, he directed his gaze towards her instantly. Good God she was not in the right mindset to deal with him so soon, especially after what happened. Her heart almost skipped a beat when his blue eyes met hers.
Intent on not acknowledging him, she started digging through her purse for her keys as she walked towards the apartment. She could hear him as he continued talking to the person he was on the phone with.
“I’m gonna have to call you back,” he hastily said before he hung up and took a few steps towards her.
Lesly turned her gaze away from his and directed her attention to her purse. “What are you doing here?”
“Michael told me what happened. I had to check on you. Are you okay?”
“Are you sure?”
“Yes, so you can go back home.”
She could see that he was still standing there, looking at her as she struggled to locate her keys. When she finally fished them out, she tried to get them into the lock, but her hand was still shaking so much that she could not get the task done. She did not know she was whispering a string of curses in frustration until his hand covered hers. That was all it took for her to give in. She pulled her hand away and allowed him to take over the task of getting the door unlocked. When he opened the door, he placed his arm behind her back and guided her into the apartment. She followed without uttering a single word.
Alec locked the door behind him and watched her as she walked towards the kitchen. She took her trench coat off and threw it on the couch on her way. Then she grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge and took a few sips. He could see that she was still distressed over what happened, so he followed her. She did not resist him at all when he took the bottle of water from her hands and placed it on the counter before he held her to his chest. She gave in instantly and allowed him to hold her. Her hands gripped the front of his shirt as she rested her head against his chest.
Alec could feel her relaxing in his hold as he rubbed her back to calm her down. Neither said a word to the other. When he noticed that her shaking had somewhat subsided, he pulled back and looked at her. “You okay now?”
“A bit,” she whispered.
His voice was gentle as he spoke to her, “You should go in and get some rest. I’ll stay here until Michaela comes back.”
She did not argue with him, but simply nodded and went to Michaela’s room. Once there, she took her work attire off and stepped into the bathroom for a warm shower. Then she slipped into a navy satin nightdress and tried to get some sleep. However, although she was exhausted physically, mentally and emotionally, she could not surrender to slumber. Everything around her felt suffocating. It was not unusual. Michaela tended to get cold quite easily, and this led her to turn the radiator on even if the weather outside was bearable. It was for this sole reason that Lesly chose something light to sleep in, yet it did not help one bit. Something else weighed heavily on her mind. It added to her burden and made her incapable of getting the rest she so desperately reason. For a while, she did not know what made her more agitated, but then realized what was adding to her mental taxation and denied her the peace of mind she needed to surrender to slumber. It was not solely the events that happened in the parking lot earlier, no. It was also the person staying outside of the bedroom at the moment.
She tried to ignore the fact that he was there. She tried to suppress the feelings of anger, disappointment and frustration that the mere sight of him evoked, but it was no use. It did not help that he was so gentle and kind towards her earlier. It did not help that the simple gesture of holding her to calm her down made her remember how much of an idiot she was for believing everything he told her. It did not help that she could hear his low deep voice mumbling something on the phone right outside the bedroom.
He had to leave. If she wanted to hold on to whatever bit of sanity that remained, he had to go. There was no other way. Otherwise, she would not be able to make it through the night without a vein popping out. Fully determined to tell him that he no longer had to stay, she got out of the bed and slipped her short satin robe on. At first, she did not think it was appropriate to talk to him while she was dressed like that, but then she realized that he had seen her naked enough times for her not to worry about how thin and revealing her clothes were.
When Lesly finally left the bedroom, she saw him standing by the window with the phone pressed to his ear. His back was to her, but she could tell from the words he was mumbling that he was talking to Michael about what happened earlier. As she waited for him to finish, she leaned a shoulder against the door frame and made a mental note to not let him see the extent of the turmoil his unannounced visit brought with him. As if sensing her presence, Alec turned around and saw her standing behind him. He quickly ended the call and asked her with concern.
“Did I wake you?”
“I wasn’t asleep,” Lesly spoke softly. “Was that Michael?”
“Did he tell you anything about what happened earlier?”
“The guy’s not gonna bother you again. You can be sure of that.”
Lesly sighed in frustration, “You’re not gonna get rid of him like you did to others before him now, are you?”
“I’m not gonna lie. I’m tempted,” he answered coldly.
“He was drunk,” she explained. “I don’t think he would’ve risked attacking me if he was sober.”
He shrugged, “In that case, someone has to make sure this doesn’t happen again.”
“I’m serious,” she responded firmly.
“As am I.”
Lesly examined his face for a minute. The cold emotionless expression he had on infuriated her. She took a deep breath to keep her anger in check and carried on, “What was Michael doing there anyway?”
“If he wasn’t there, you would’ve gotten seriously hurt.”
“Answer my question, Lang,” she demanded.
It took him a minute to comply. His expression remained calm and emotionless, “He was keeping an eye on you.”
“For what purpose?”
“I told you already. Until I’m absolutely certain that the threat is taken care of, I can’t let my guard down.”
“And I thought I told you that you’re not to contact me, or even concern yourself with me anymore. I want nothing to do with you,” she responded firmly.
“You’re proving my point for me. This is one major reason why I couldn’t tell you who I am.”
Lesly began rubbing her temples in frustration, “You’re an idiot for thinking that that’s all there is to it.”
“Yes, but don’t worry. Between the two of us, I’m the bigger idiot.”
Alec noticed the hurt look on her face. He took a step forward and tried explaining himself, but she spoke before he did. “I think you should leave. I’m fine now. Thank you for checking on me.”
There was a look on his face that she did not know what to make of. He was hurt, too. That much was clear, but there was also something else there. Alec gently placed his phone on a small table and took slow steps towards her. When he finally reached her, he rested his hand on the wall behind her and trapped her there. Her heart started hammering in her chest instantly at their close proximity. His eyes were focused on hers, searching them for a sign she refused to give away. Lesly fought the urge to shut her eyes or avert her gaze. If she did, he would know that she was still not over him yet, even after all the lies he told her.
“Do you really want me to leave, Lesly?”
His deep voice as he delivered his question made her breathing grow heavier. She told herself to get a grip, to mask the way her body was reacting to his against her will, but it was no use. He could see it. He lifted his other hand and began stroking her cheek lightly.
“How long are you gonna keep pushing me away?”
Her only response was a miserable attempt at keeping her breathing even. Still, the way her chest almost touched his every time it rose and fell made the task impossible to accomplish. She eventually shut her eyes and leaned into his touch. This was all the license he needed to bend down and claim her lips. His kisses were gentle at first since he was afraid that giving in to his insatiable desire would lead her to push him away. Little did he know that she was craving his touch in a way she had never known before.
Alec continued to tease her lips before he began kissing her neck. Almost instinctively, she tilted her head to the side to give him a better access. When he reached her ear, he began whispering fondly.
“I’ve missed you. I’ve missed you so much.”
His hands were now caressing her body over the thin material of her nightgown. When he did manage to get her robe untied, she did not know, but she knew that every inch of her that he caressed was burning for more. Alec released her neck from his scorching mouth and pulled back a little so he could slip the robe down her arms. Once he was done with the task, he pulled the left strap of her night gown down so he could finally see her rosy nipple. As expected, she had no bra on, not that she ever wore one to bed. The sight of her nipple hardening under the teasing of his thumb and forefinger made him want to just abandon this slow display of passion that was clearly torturing the two of them and give in to his carnal desire to bury himself inside her. All that time he spent away from her felt like an eternity, and he could not bear the thought of denying himself any longer.
Without warning, Alec lifted her up, pinned her against the wall and sucked savagely on the hardened nipple. The transition was so sudden that she gasped loudly before she buried her fingers into his hair. Alec continued to pull the nipple between his teeth as his other hand sought her other mound. Once he had her other nub freed and hardened, he took it into his mouth and showed it the same savage treatment he gave the first one. She did not know how long his animalistic assault on her breasts lasted, but she enjoyed every second of it. Every flick of his tongue, every bite of his teeth made her core tighten painfully with anticipation. It was not long before she felt his hand between her thighs, searching for proof of her need for him. When his fingers finally reached her, they found her slick and moist to a point that demanded his immediate attention. His digits invaded her wet insides and stroked her incessantly until she came close. No sound was heard in the dead of the night except their heavy panting and the occasional grunts and moans.
When Alec drew his finger out of her so close to release, she began whimpering instantly. He stared at her affectionately before he brough the fingers that were just inside her and smeared them over her lips. She was so intoxicated with desire to think straight. All she could do as he rubbed his fingers against her lips was open her mouth and taste herself on his digits. The moment she did, Alec joined her in licking her essence out of his fingers. His tongue danced with hers a number of times before he sucked every last bit of her off her lips.
Unable to deny himself any longer, he brought her down, forced the nightgown over hips and pulled her lace panties down. Then he fiddled with the zipper on his pants.
“Please tell me you’re still on the pill,” he whispered pleadingly.
“I am,” she responded breathlessly.
She barely got the words out before he drove himself so deep inside of her that she cried out his name. Her hands wrapped around his shoulders as he continued to ram into her with an animalistic urgency that made her bite down on his neck to keep from screaming. Her climax was so violent, so jarring, so fierce that she could not stop from shaking as he continued to pound into her mercilessly until he found his bless as well.
Alec remained inside her as he tried to regain his composure. Their arms were still wrapped around one another as they struggled to bring their breathing back to normal. When he finally pulled out of her and allowed his heat to drip down her thighs, she whimpered at the loss of his warmth. Alec stared at her tenderly. Her eyes were shut. Her skin was glistening, and her face looked radiant. She looked so beautiful that he could not keep his gaze away from. When she finally opened her eyes to stare at him, he brushed a kiss over her head before he pressed his forehead to hers. No words were exchanged as he grabbed her hand and led her towards the couch. He sat down and pulled her on top of him. Her back was resting against his chest and his arms were wrapped tightly around her waist.
His head nuzzled the side of her neck, allowing his mouth to mark her like it always did. Something about the gesture filled him with a sense of comfort. It was as if the act itself gave him the assurance that she was his again. He continued to allow his teeth to draw her sensitive skin in, to playfully tease her with bites before his tongue soothed the sting caused. It did not take him long before he could feel himself growing hard again, and judging by the way she was grinding herself on him, she must have felt it too. Without wasting a minute, Alec grabbed her legs and rested her feet on the couch before he spread them wide open. The feel of the cool air against her soaked core made her whimper as she rubbed her behind against his arousal. Her whimpers soon turned into moans when his fingers found her again. This time, they were coarser in their quest than before, so coarse that there was a little bit of pain mixed in with the pleasure. She did not mind his rough handling of her. If anything, she welcomed it. Her hands went over his and she told him without words that she needed him to give her more.
Alec gave in. His digits savagely fondled her, earning loud cries of pleasure out of her. His other hand began rubbing her nipples aggressively, causing her to writhe restlessly on top of him. Alec momentarily drew his fingers out of her before he spoke gruffly to her.
“Look at me.”
She responded to his demand. Her eyes barely remained open since his other hand was still busy kneading her breast. He put his soaked fingers to her lips, and she took the hint. Her mouth took one finger in and began to taste both his essence and hers. The way her mouth sucked on his fingers one by one roused him to a point that made him knead her breasts harder. She cried in both pain and pleasure and he ceased the opportunity to let his tongue dive into her open mouth to get a taste of their mixed essence. Alec allowed his fingers to resume fondling her core. His other hand had a death grip on her chin since he wanted to see the expression on her face as he pleasured her. Every time she opened her mouth to gasp or cry, his tongue quickly plunged in to taste her. Soon, his tongue began to mimic the movement of his digits inside her. Just when she was about to climax, he stopped causing her to writhe in frustration. He smiled when he noticed the look of disappointment on her face. This made her impatient. She tried to move, but his hold on her chin made it impossible.
“Please…,” she moaned.
“Please what?” He asked tenderly. “Tell me what you want. I’ll do anything.”
“I need you to…,” she said pleadingly.
“You need me to what? Say it, baby.”
She did not speak, but simply tried to weaken his hold on her chin and waist. When he complied, she turned around, straddled him and took him all the way inside her. They both groaned instantly at the contact. Lesly held his shoulders and began rocking over him slowly. Her movement soon gained momentum. Alec tried to slow her down by holding her hips, but she begged him not to. Eventually, he let her set the pace.
“Damn it, baby, you’re so tight,” he groaned in agony.
“Touch me,” she whispered, panting.
He complied and began rubbing her bundle of nerves incessantly. This made her cries of ecstasy louder. When she could longer contain her screams, she covered his mouth with hers and began moving urgently against him.
Alec tore his mouth away from her and began pleading, “Sweetheart, you have to slow down. I don’t think I’ll last long if you keep going like that.”
“I’m almost there, too,” she spoke breathlessly.
She climaxed a few seconds before he did. Violent orgasmic waves washed over them one after another and left them shaking in their wake. When the intoxicating effects finally subsided, they opened their eyes and stared at each other with so much love and affection. Alec swept the wet locks away from her face before he brushed light kisses to her cheek and forehead. They remained like that for a while. No words were exchanged, just feathered kisses and caresses. When Lesly tried to get up, he pulled her back, laid her down on the couch and began kissing her. That night, neither of them got much sleep as they struggled to make up for all the nights they spent away from each other’s embrace.