I haven't spoken to Amethyst all day and I feel guilty. She tries to get me to talk, but every time I open my mouth to speak, I hear Alpha Carter's voice mocking me, telling me how disgusting I am. Every time she touches me I'm reminded of what happened and how dirty I am. My mate shouldn't touch dirty things. I hear the door to the room open and I quickly cover my head.
"I need to check your wounds," Amethyst says. I stay still. I don't want her to see me. "Mate, don't fight me on this. I can smell that you're bleeding somewhere."
She's angry. I can tell by the sudden drop in temperature. Suddenly, her dominance pressing down on me, causing my body to go lax. She takes that opportunity to pull the cover off of me and straddles me. Her eyes are white as she stares into mine.
"I've let you have your way, but you will obey me when it comes to your wellbeing," she growls at me. I close my eyes and nod, feeling afraid. She pulls her dominance back as she rolls off of me. "Let me see your back." I roll onto my stomach. "You popped a stitch." She gets off the bed. I hear her move around the room before coming back on the bed.
"Do you think you need more pain meds," she asks softly. I shake my head. I feel a tiny poke as she stitches me back up. "Don't make sudden movements or you'll pop them again." I nod my head. She climbs out of bed, and I see her sit in the chair next to me. "Go to sleep."
I close my eyes and quickly fall asleep. I wake up holding Amethyst's hand. I start to pull my hand away.
"You think she'll want you now?"
I pause as I ignore the voice and continue to hold her hand. Amethyst doesn't hate me. She took care of me and still does. She still calls me Mate, keeping her promise to me. She's done everything to show that she isn't disgusted by me, but it doesn't change how scared I am.
My grip on her hand tightens. I can't let my fear control me or push Amethyst away. I sit up and stare at her sleeping form. She's kneeling on the ground and resting her head on the bed. That can't be comfortable. I frown. It's my fault she's like this. When I first woke up, she was sleeping next to me. My actions pushed her to sleep off her own bed. Her eyes open as she sits up.
"Good morning, Mate," she says. I nod and look away but I don't let go of her hand. She kisses my hand before standing up and letting it go. I hold her tighter. She stops and looks down at me. She's silent for several moments. "Think you can stand?" I nod my head. "I'm going to grab you some clothes." I let go of her hand.
"You think she'll want your dirty hands to touch her?"
I watch she walks to her closet and pick out clothes. I wonder who those clothes belong to. She always has a change of clothes for me every time I come here. She comes back to me and helps me change into them. I feel embarrassed but I'm too weak to do it by myself. After putting the clothes on, I feel exhausted.
I sit back down. She turns to leave, but I stop her. Our eyes meet. I'm being clingy. I know it but I can't stop myself.
"I'll be right back," she tells me before kissing my forehead and walking out the room.
I stay on the bed, waiting for her to come back. Just like she said, she enters the room with not much time passing. She's has a bucket of water and a bag of stuff. She pulls out a pair of toothbrushes, and we brush our teeth in silence. After I use a rag to wash my face, I take medicine for pain.
"Do you want to sit in the dining room while I make breakfast," she asks. I nod. I hold her arm as she helps me up.
"You're filthy, dirty, and used. Nobody wants that in a mate, especially, an alpha."
I fight the urge to pull away from her in shame. I sit at the dining room table and rest my head on it. I shouldn't have insisted that I come out here because I want to go back to sleep. I must've fallen asleep because I wake up to the sound of a chair being moved. I raise my head from the table.
"Morning, Zeke," I think Topaz says. "It's good to see you awake." I nod.
Amethyst sits next to me and hands me a cup of broth. I slowly sip it. It tastes good, but I don't really have much of an appetite. I don't usually eat in this stage of my recovery but I think I'm healing faster than normal. It can only be because of Amethyst. That's the only thing that changed. I've never had anyone take care of me.
I hold Amethyst's hand as I drink. I know I'm still being clingy, but she doesn't seem to mind. She gently squeezes my hand before running her thumb on the back of it. After we finish eating, Amethyst helps me back to bed where I promptly fall asleep.
A couple of days later, I wake up feeling refreshed. My injuries have healed, leaving only scars behind. Amethyst is currently removing all of the stitches from my body. After the last stitch is taken out, I stare at my hands.
"I-I-I'm s-s-sorry," I tell her. She stares at me for a moment before tears start falling down her face. I look at her in shock. She pulls me into a hug.
"I thought I was never going to hear your voice again," she cries. I hug her back. My strong, beautiful mate is crying, and it's my fault.
"I-I-I'm s-sorry." She holds me tighter.
"You have nothing you need to apologize for." I shake my head. That isn't true. I made her cry. I shouldn't have let Alpha Carter mess with my head. My vision blurs as I cry. We continue to hold each other. After a while, she pulls away and climbs off the bed. She grabs a box of tissues.
"What a way to start the new year," she says as she hands the box of tissues to me. I freeze.
"Jan 2nd." I wipe my nose as I realize that are only 8 days left until her birthday.
I step through the front door of my house. Amethyst dropped me off just before dinner. I hear my family in the dining room and join them at the table.
"Look whose back from his vacation," Kate says. She gasps when she sees my face. "Oh my goddess, what happened to your face? Who did this? Did something happen?"
You're not fine, Zeke. Someone hurt you. You smell like Amethyst. Did she do it?
NO! Just leave it alone, Kate.
She goes silent and crosses her arms in anger. My parents and Ellie don't say anything. They know what happened to me but they act ignorant about it in front of Kate. They're the ones that decided to lie to Kate about what happens to on my 'vacation'. I don't plan going out of my way to lie to Kate, but if she figures it out, I'll tell her everything.
After dinner, Kate follows me to my room. I sit on my bed and look at her expectantly. I know she wants to say something. She closes the door behind her.
"I've been looking up information about Omegas," she says. My eyes widen. "Did you know that an omega's mate is always an alpha?" I shake my head. "Anyways, I discovered that you can use your healing powers in an offensive way."
Where did you find this out?
"In a book."
Where is it?
"In my room. Why aren't you excited?"
Because I already know this.
"If you knew, why aren't you doing anything?
Because Alpha Carter would use me. If our Alpha ever discovers what I can do... I shudder. I don't want to think about it. After I discovered what I could do as an omega, I took it upon myself to destroy any information about Omegas from our pack. The last thing I need is to kill people against my will. We need to destroy that book.
"Wait, couldn't you just keep it, and I can say that I lost it." I shake my head. "There are things in that book that you could learn."
"You know, stuff," her face goes red. "I think you should read it before you destroy it."
She leaves my room and returns with the book in her hand. It's smaller than what I thought it would be. She hands it to me and looks at my face for a moment.
"I hate that I can't do anything for you," she says with a frown.
The fact that you care is enough.
"It's not enough for me, but thanks anyway. Good night."
She leaves leave my room. I look down at the book in my hand. What could she have read that caused that reaction in her? I open the book and start reading. The first couple pages feel like a brief summary, telling me stuff that I figured out on my own. Kate failed to mention that an Omega'a mate would be either an alpha or a creature of greater power.
It makes sense to leave that part out. Amethyst is the first and only phoenix shifter I know. It's crazy to think there could be other types. I should ask her if dragon shifters are a thing. I keep reading. The subject switches to an in-depth look at the mating habits of Omegas. My face turns red as I finish reading the book.
I learned some things that I didn't know about myself. Another thing I can on the list of things that make me different from other wolves. I started reading this expecting one thing, but this quickly turned into a Sex Ed book. I groan as I close the book. As long as I rip out the first couple pages, the book will be mostly harmless I think.
A/N: anyone curious about the book said that made our precious Zeke all red?