1 April , 2008
Today my doctor adviced me to write my thoughts in a diary . He asked me to write everything that I had in my mind in a diary . The funny thing is that he said , he would publish it .
In my life I had done nothing , nothing except making my parents worry about me . I made a lot of mistakes in my life and therefore I hesitate to remember my past . The past in which I was in Hell .
When I think clearly it seems that he wants me not to be afraid of my past and remember it to find the reason I choosed to go in hell .
But I think it wasn't my choice .....