Chapter 28 - So mine
I had six days.
One hundred and forty-four hours didn't seem like nearly enough time.
Because it wasn't.
I was sitting on the edge of the couch, waiting for Jackson to wake up so he could more than likely grill my ass again.
I couldn't say that I blamed him. I would've been the same way if the roles were reversed, actually, I would've probably been far worse.
I heard River in her bathroom and I'd hoped she would go back to sleep. I didn't think Jackson wanted us under the same roof much less in the same room together and I was going to respect his wishes.
Jackson walked down the hall and breezed past me as he whistled.
He was freaking whistling.
What the hell was going on?
He said as he sat down in the recliner, lacing up his boots.
I raised my brows.
"Sure. Why wouldn't it be?"
He had me second-guessing if last night even happened until he spoke again.
"I realized something last night as I laid awake debating if I should kill you or not."
He joked before continuing, at least I hoped he was joking.
"You're leaving in a week, Beau. And River is going to college, so the likelihood of your. . . Situation going anywhere is slim to none."
I sank back into the couch, stunned. Had he not heard me last night when I told him that I loved her? Did he not believe me?
Then I realized that it really didn't matter. I'd rather him just live in this world he was in now. Because that meant the next six days would go by way smoother. I had prepared myself for him to fight me on every aspect where River was concerned. But he was just choosing to not take it seriously. And although it bothered me, the reality of him having that opinion wasn't all that bad.
So I chose to keep my mouth shut.
I sipped my coffee while he made himself a cup to go and within five minutes, he was gone for the day.
That left me alone with River.
I couldn't help but wonder if my best friend had lost his mind. It was either that, or he honestly thought River and I would never have anything real. I tried to not let that notion offend me.
I could still hear River in her bathroom, opening and closing her drawers.
What was she doing in there?
I made her a cup of coffee just the way she liked it, with way too much sugar, and walked toward her room.
I tapped my knuckles on her door before pushing it open with my foot.
She poked her head out of her bathroom and grinned.
"You have to come out here to get it."
I sat on her bed with the two mugs in my hands.
"I'll be right out."
Twenty minutes later she emerged and her coffee wasn't exactly hot anymore.
She took the mug from me and sat down.
I turned and set my cup down on her dresser. I let her take three sips before I grabbed hers from her hand, placing it next to mine.
"Beau, I need that."
She tried to reach over me but I caught her at her waist. I wrapped my hands around her, just below her ribcage then I opened my legs and pulled her between them as she rested her forearms on my shoulders.
"So, what should we do with the days that we have left?"
I loved that she was thinking about the same things that I was, but I also hated it.
"Whatever you want to do."
I didn't realize where her thoughts were headed until she leaned into my body, pressing her lips to my collar bone. I wrapped my arms around her tighter and marveled at how warm her body always seemed to be. I slid my hand under her t-shirt and ran my fingers over the impossibly soft skin there. I inched them higher and higher and her body stilled. She was no longer planting little kisses on my skin, her breathing had increased and I knew I should've stopped but she was making it nearly impossible.
I bent my head down and latched onto her neck. The smell of strawberries invaded my senses and turned me on like nothing ever had before.
And so mine.
It was a dangerous mixture.
I tugged her small body on top of me and she straddled my lap, the only thing touching were our legs and it wasn't nearly enough. I grabbed her hips and pushed lightly, she lowered her body down a little further but still not where I wanted her. I could feel her shaking, she was nervous and it ate me up inside.
She nodded and took a few deep breaths.
"We don't have to do anything."
I tilted her face up so I could look into her eyes.
She whispered before easing her body down to meet mine. I was rock hard and I knew the second she felt it. Her eyes fluttered closed and she moved so that our centers were aligned and it was as if something shifted, clicking together.
I could feel her warmth through her underwear, I wrapped one arm around her, pulling her toward me then pushing her back, rubbing her against my length. I moved my hips to meet hers and resisted the urge to do anything else.
River squeezed my shoulders and I remembered just how new she was to this. I pushed her hair out of her face and kissed every inch of her porcelain skin. From the little freckle on her jawline to the part in her hair.
She was perfect and she was giving something to me that she had suspected she’d never offered anyone else.
River rocked back and forth once more and then inhaled sharply, she arched against me and I took over. I pushed and pulled her body against my own but I never took my eyes off of her. I was entranced with every single way that her body moved. Her muscles tensed and her orgasm ripped through her while I had a front-row seat.
My body responded immediately and I came while she was still in the midst of her high.
She panted after a few seconds had passed.
"Is it always like that?"
I wanted to tell her yes, that it was always that good but that wasn't the truth. I'd never came so hard or so fast in my life, no one had ever felt so right under my fingertips or on my lips.
I wanted her to know that no one else would ever feel that way to her either.
I breathed against her lips.
"I didn't think so."
I fell back onto River's bed and took her with me. She sighed and fell to my side.
She propped herself up on her elbow and looked down at me, her hair was wild but I didn't reach up I fix it. I wanted to remember her exactly how she was right then.
She smiled and I made a slight adjustment to my mental picture. I'd file it away, and keep it safe because there would be a time when I'd need it.
And it was coming too soon.