Chapter 21 Part 2
Aaron was out—all night. Did he spend a night at the strip club or hired an...?
We weren’t anything, but still, a sharp stab of jealousy made me paranoid just a bit. Okay, a lot. Sue me.
I was struggling to break free, the feeling of jealousy bubbling inside me. I felt sick thinking of the possibility, and I couldn’t hold it any longer, I’d like to ask. I need to know. But was I ready to hear it? What if he says yes? What should I do then? Ignore it for being meaningless? Or overlooked as a mistake?′ ‘Did he spent a night with a woman? Hired an—’
“Are you okay, Jess?” He asked worriedly, breaking my thought, and I looked up at him.
“Can I ask you something?” I mumble quietly and put my fork down.
“Of course. Anything.”
“Umm... D-did you...” I stammered. His eyebrows were married together.
“Did you... spend the night with a girl?” I blurted out, desperate to hear his answer.
Aaron’s eyes went wide as I accused him. “No. Never.” His gaze was clear and steady when he said that. “I would never even think of breaking your trust.” He paused and sighed. “I would never do such a heinous thing that would break your heart, Jess. Because I...”
“...I love you.” He said.
The shock of his words. I froze at that moment. I only stared at his face. He said he loves me. And now, how was I supposed to respond to that?
“Aaron... I’ve another man’s baby in my belly. H-how could you say that so easily to me?” My voice cracked with tears brimming my eyes.
He caresses the side of my face. “I’ve always been in love with you...Jessica. Ever since I first met you. Ever since that night, when I left you. I felt I lost my soul, my heart. I’ve been carrying this hollow body ever since until I found you again. And the craziest thing is, even though we physically were separated, internally, I never got separated from you, Jess. I knew I was in love with you, then and as well as now.” He said and wiped the tears under my lashes.
“Seeing you in this condition breaks my heart, and I’ll do anything for you to see you happy again. I want you to know that you’re not alone.” He touched my belly. “I want to be part of this wonderful life.” His words seeped into my heart, the fear beginning to fade and renewing it with compassion.
‘I always had that feeling like I’m bound to him somehow.’
After this, what else can you say? As a man admitting his feelings to me, now I needed the skill and courage to say what I was above to tell him. It took me quite a while to speak, and I refused to even look at him before letting my thoughts do the talking, but I need to say this. He needs to know.
I tried to keep the tears back, and I felt my throat sting. “I-I loved Sam, and I still do. His essences of love still do reside in my heart, and I’m afraid it would never go away.” It got harder for me to maintain my composure, and I covered my face—crying helplessly.
It hurt me to tell Aaron about my longing for another man, while I too liked no loved him. I was afraid of losing Aaron or having him hate me or not wanting me anymore. It pained me.
“I know.” He said softly. My head snapped up to look at him. His eyes watered seconds before he blinks the tears away. “And this child you’re carrying, he or she would always be a reminder of Sam to you, to us.”
“A-Aaron. How could you love me after knowing there’s someone in my heart?” I asked strongly. And Aaron smirked.
I gasped in surprise as he scooped me into his lap. “O, Jess, long before Sam got in there, I was the first, and I’ve always been in your heart.”
I felt my heart melt at that. I stared at Aaron with a more intense look.
“Every time we meet, we fell in love with each other... again and again.” He said. “First time in my life, I’ve lived with a person-- is you. You made this place ‘Home.’ I get excited to come home--to you, eating dinner with you. Every morning I see your face, and that smile is the highlight of my day.”
I looked at him with watery eyes.
“I’ll fill your insane heart with so much love, Jessica, that you’ll get tired of it.” His words took me much further than I expected. I could see the desire growing in his eyes, pulling me closer to him. He connected our lips. It was like he was breaking down every barrier between us. I had never felt so close to him before.
Sam was my life, and he’ll always be a big part of my life. But, Aaron was the first man I fell in love with. It took me only three days to fall in love with this arrogant man.
Aaron pulled away from the kiss, catching his breath, “I want to take you on a date.” He asked.
I know that we had many matters to work on and had to put substantial mental effort into achieving a happy life, but I’m confident with Aaron it seems natural to do, and it would all be worth it in the end. I no longer wanted to hide my feelings anymore like I’ve done a couple of times before.
“Yes,” I said. It was not a decision, nor even the spur of the moment. But a realization of unaware love hidden within me for Aaron—for my Beloved.
It was easy. 'To fall in love... again, with him.'
Aaron rose from his seat while carrying me and began to walk towards his bedroom.
“Aaron... W-what are you doing?” My heart thumped harder; when we’re this close, it was hard for me to concentrate on anything else when his fingers slide in my underwear, holding my butt tightly.
“Oh, this... This is happening, Jessica. You and me.” He said boldly.
He puts me down gently. We stared at each other.
“Aaron, are you sure about this, about us? I ask worriedly, scanning his eyes. “A lot of feelings and emotions are involved. This relationship, it’s based on trust, respect, and faith. You can never go on the far side. On the other side. Beyond the bounds.” I hope he understands what I was referring to--?
“Thousands of promises. I promise to love you now and forever. You’re a miracle that happened to me, and your love is divine and Sex. Oh, baby, it’s like magic.” He answered and kissed me.
Holding my face in his hands as he stared at me with wild eyes, “Never will I forget that meeting with a beautiful stranger. That night the feelings of love, and the night of colorful romance and at the first meeting, I fell in love with you, Jessica Skyy.”
My eyes darted, looking deep in Aaron’s sea-blue eyes. I don’t want any more distances between us anymore. I was still a little unnerved despite the whole ordeal, but I wanted Aaron to know how he makes me feel; my words silently slipped out of my self-induced trance.
“You make me happy, Aaron.” My stomach tightened at the sight of seeing him flustered.
There was passion in us. His gaze was on my lips, wanting my permission. This undeniable attraction between us— the burning lust, this unfulfilled yearning only wished to be released.
I craved his comfort and wanted to feel the warm touch of his lips against mine.
The feelings came so fast I couldn’t deny any longer. My heart was thumping fast in my chest.
Aaron's sudden rise of feelings started to grow stronger, and I had an almost irresistible impulse to say something back to him.
'What’s the use of hiding this love away in the heart?'
I need to get the words from my heart to his. It was at this moment. “I love you, Aaron.” My god, did my heart just skip a beat.
“I love you.” I brought his face down and kissed his lips, “I've always in love with you.” I kissed his forehead.
“Oh!” His satisfied moan, those sensually dazed eyes. He dropped his head on my chest—on my heart.
‘Now, I know how incomplete my life was without you. Your love is the strength, and your love is the sole wealth of my heart.’
“This is the best birthday gift I could have ever asked for.” He mumbled.
“WHAT?” I gasped with horror. And Aaron shuts me off by crashing his lips on me.
And yes, we celebrated his birthday...
We did it twice.
The first time we did... was a quick one since we both were horny as fuck. But the second time around was slow sensual, and beautiful.