One month later
Leornard never showed up after we returned from our so called vacation that didnt end well. It hit me like a blow in the chest because i thought we were getting close but then i wasn't even surprised at his actions because it wasn't the first time he did it. I didn't even get to know what happened to him that night, after a few days of thinking, I let it go. It wasnt my burden to bear.
I had amended things with Clara and everything was back to normal between us. She always brought my breakfast in bed, we ate lunch and dinner together, did exercises, went baby shopping, and every other thing.
I knew my days were numbered so I had to enjoy everything to the fullest.
It was 12 o'clock in the afternoon, Clara and I were watching 'To all the boys I love' and eating popcorn simultaneously when we heard the door bell. Clara got up to check who it was, but I already had a feeling it was Leornard. He was the only visitor we ever had.
I was right, it was him. He walked into the house with his hand shoved in his pockets. He looked so different from the last time I saw him, maybe because he wasn't dressed in a suit as usual. He wore a simple trouser and a shirt, which made him look even nicer. I was sure everything looked good on him.
"Good day Miss Eva" he greeted like nothing happened and everything was fine.
"I'm not even going to ask you where you have been the last one month" I said ignoring his greeting.
"I was busy" he simply said
"Ofcourse" I rolled my eyes "you disappear for a long time and then show up wanting to be a good father, but let me break it to you, you are a very shitty father"
He stared at me without saying a word then he took three steps forward and stood in front of me.
"Would you go to lunch with me?"
My mouth opened in shock but no words came out at first. Was he serious? He totally disregarded my complain. How could he be so annoying without even trying.
"I want to make it up to you"
"I'm pretty sure that's not in the contract" I reminded him. I tried to stand up but my body felt so heavy.
"No I'm fine" I stopped him before he could touch me. Where was Clara? She seemed to disappear each time Leornard was present. I stood up and walked away from the couch, away from him. When I turned around, I caught him staring at me, his eyes trailing down my body, then I realised I was wearing just sports bra and shorts,which had my big belly exposed. I immediately felt my body go hot in embarrassment. Was it?
His eyes met mine and they were so intense I had to look away. What was he doing? What was I doing? Then suddenly, he started walking towards me. I held my breath the minute he stood just a few inches in front of me, his warmth surrounded me and his smell invaded my nostrils.
"Hows my baby doing?" He asked staring directly into my soul. Before I could reply his question, I felt his palm on my stomach making my body go rigid. My heart beat sped up and I watched his eyes display some sort of emotions I had never seen before.
"The baby is great" I quickly walked around him but he held my hand stopping me, his touch spreading goose bumps all over my skin. I withdrew my hand so fast and was shocked by his actions. What the hell was wrong with him?
"Sorry" he said averting his eyes for a minute before he continued to staring at me.
"So lunch?" He asked again.
"No thank you, I'm not hungry" I declined. There was no way I was going anywere with him whilst he was behaving weirdly towards me. I walked to the couch and sat, I was pretty tired of standing.
"Aren't pregnant women always hungry?" He followed me till he was by my side.
"I don't want to go anywere with you Mr Leornard" I fired but that only made him smile. Oh God! Where the hell was Clara.
"Okay, I'll just order some pizza while we watch your movie together then" he said
What? Was he serious? I needed him to leave. At that point, I wanted to just pull my hair out.
His phone then rang and he picked it up while I just sat there, sort of pissed but at the same time not pissed.
"Hello doctor" I stared at him. Why would the doctor be calling him, i thought. Was it about the baby and I? Or was it about what happened that night?
"I can't come right now" I frowned, or did he have anything to do with the doctor.
He then walked away from me into the kitchen to continue his call. Ofcourse he needs privacy. Grabbing my bowl from the table, I filled my hand with popcorn and shoved it into my mouth. Now I wanted pizza. I pouted to myself.
Suddenly I jerked on my seat due to a loud shattering sound coming from the kitchen. I stood up to go check on him but he already came out, his face was void of emotions.
"Leornard are you okay" he ignored me, walking past me towards the door.
"Leornard" I called out, my voice loud. He stopped and turned around
"Stay out of my business" he barked, then turned around towards the door.
"You are going to leave, again?" My chest hurt to have said it, "once you leave, don't come back"
"Is that a threat" he turned around again and started walking towards me, slowly and dangerously, like a predator going after his prey. I almost faltered but I had to put on a strong act.
"You are carrying my baby" he said, his voice low but threatening.
"Yes and I'm not just a mannequin, I'm a full fleshed human being, I need support not stress, not pain, not anger" my voice was up the roof "why tell me you would be here and be a good father and then leave, you shouldn't have just said it at all. You should have stuck to your damn contract" I breathed.
He ran his hands through his hand in a frustrated manner, walked away from me then said "I don't have much time"
"For what?" I was confused "what's more important than your own child, the one you so much wanted that you hired a surrogate for"
"I'm dying" my body froze and my blood ran cold as the words left his mouth. I stared at him eyes wide and mouth open.
Oh my God!
"I don't have much time" he said, his eyes red and filled with tears. My chest tightened. I didn't expect any of this. I was speechless, shocked, scared, worried, all at the same time.
He left me frozen on my feet and sat on the couch. When I manged to seat close to him on the couch, the man I looked at was not the man I knew, who was tough, scary, void of emotions. The man seating next to me was broken. When I saw a tear roll down his cheek, I probably lost it. Damn my hormones for that.
Tears started rolling down my cheeks like I was the one dying.
"Leornard please talk to me" I pleaded, I hated seeing him like this.
"I have leukemia" cold shiver ran down my spine. I just stared at him wide eye unable to utter a word.
"I had been dealing with it since childhood, I thought I would have overcome it but then it became worse. When I knew I was going to die, I had to do something, I couldnt let my name and family line die like that. Thats why I wanted a baby, he would continue the line, he would continue my work which I started, he would not let my name die" more tears rolled down my cheeks as he answered the question I had always pondered about.
"I didn't want you to see me sick and weak and broken, that's why I stayed away" he added. I couldn't begin to imagine what it must have taken for him to open up to me like this. So without another word, I wrapped my hands around him surprising both him and myself. I didn't have words to comfort him, I couldn't even tell him it will be alright because it won't be alright, he was going to die. Hugging was the only way i knew how to comfort a person.
"I'm so sorry" was the only thing I could say. My heart was heavy. It was rare to see a grown man breakdown but here I was comforting one.
"But that wasn't the only reason I stayed away" he said, making me pull away. I frowned at him while he just stared at me, in a way that I couldn't understand. Or did I?
"I was falling in love with you" my breath cut in my throat and my heart started beating faster. No. He couldn't. It didn't come tp me as much of a surprise but hearing him confirm my suspicions was too much for me to handle. His eyes didn't leave mine for once. I was both out of words and out of breath, so I closed my eyes for a minute and tried to inhale. When I opened my eyes, he was still staring intensely at me and then he stared at my lips. God no.
I was supposed to get up and get away from him at that point but I couldn't move. My heart was pounding against my chest. His face moved so close to mine and I didn't as much flinch, after one last look at my lips, his eyes met mine and the next second, my eyes closed shut as I felt his lips on mine. They stayed still for exactly 3 seconds before he gently and slowly sucked my bottom lip into his mouth. My stomach twisted, this felt so wrong but yet I couldn't stop myself. I found myself giving in to the kiss, not until I heard Clara's loud voice. I jerked away from Leornard and looked uo at her behind the couch. She was looking horrified as she stared at the door. My eyes followed hers towards the transparent doors to the person who just watched us kiss.