The journey back home was silent. I couldn't stop thinking about what he said to me. I would stare at him from the corner of my eyes from time to time, waiting for him to say something. I couldn't even understand how I felt and I freaking blamed the pregnancy for it.
When I was done being paranoid, I noticed that we were heading the wrong way. My brows immediately furrowed together.
"This isnt the way home, where are we going Leonard" I voiced.
"I'm not letting you go back home just for you to start brooding all day" I stared blankly at him, my lips pressed together.
I didn't say anything further, just patiently waited for us to arrive at his desired destination.
We finally arrived at a place I least expected. A park. Not just any park, a children's park.
I looked at Leonard with a look that said 'what the hell was I doing here'. He came down from the car and walked around stopping at my door. He opened it and stretched his hand out. I stared at him for a long moment before stepping down from the car myself, ignoring his stretched hand which he found rather amusing because I didn't miss the small smile that appeared on his face.
"Leornard?" I called expecting an explanation as to why we were at a children's park.
"Come with me" he said and held my hand pulling me along with him. We walked slowly around the play park, watching children run around and play. It was beautiful, magical even. For a moment, my whole attention was captured by the site until he called my name. The way he said my name made me feel safe.
"Eva" I turned around and faced him.
"I know you are wondering why I brought you here"
"I am" I answered
"I would love to do this with my kid some day, but... " he paused and my chest tightened and I knew what he was about to say.
"Eva, I want you to take care of my child when he's born" he caught me off guard by saying. My face puzzled.
"As a nanny?" I asked confused.
He stepped forward and held my hand in his, staring straight into my soul.
"As the mother of my child" as the word left his mouth, a cold chill passed through my body. It felt as if the air was knocked out of my lungs. I I withdrew my hand and too a step backwards shocked.
"I can't do that, I have a boyfriend"
"Where is he now?" His yelled slightly "He doesn't love you as much as I do" my jaw dropped in utter disbelief
I didn't know whether to be angry or flattered. I couldn't even begin to understand what I was feeling.
I tried to move away from him but he held me in place, holding unto my both arms.
"I love you Eva" I shook my head furiously, tears already pooling in my eyes.
"Please take me home" I begged, "please" he let go of me, then I walked away fast to his car and he took me home.
I got to my room and let all the tears out, all the pain, all the guilt, all the insecurities, all the fear. I let everything out.
I walked up to my bedside drawer and grabbed the contract I signed with Leornard, and with tears I read.
The following rules should be obeyed and followed strictly during the period of the pregnancy.
1. Developing feelings is highly prohibited, forbidden even.
2. No personal relationship
3. No personal or irrelevant questions
4. No invading into my personal space
5. I would only visit on doctors appointment and anytime of my choosing, which is only when necessary.
6. No partying, no drinking, no smoking.
7. No eating of junks, only healthy meals.
8. No over stressing, a maid would be assigned to you once the insemination is done.
9. You would live in the house of my choosing throughout the period of the pregnancy.
10. No sexual relationships during the period of the pregnancy.
11. Any rule defiled in any way would attract consequences.
Just as I finished reading his written rules, Clara walked into my room. Worry shinning through her eyes.
"He broke his first rule" my voice broke at the end. She sat on the bed and held my hand.
"How do you feel?" She asked
"I don't know" I say honestly
"I have worked with Mr Leonard for a long time and I have never seen him with a woman but the way he looks at you Eva, I have definitely not seen him look at any woman like that" she told me and I just stared speechless
"I see the way you look at him too" my mouth opened but nothing came out.
"Eva you have feelings for him but you're just trying to push him away because you think you have a boyfriend"
"I have a boyfriend" I tried to defend.
"Is he?" She shocked me by saying. The same Clara who once judged me because I was being too close to Leonard is now supporting him?"
"Eva, I know I was once against this but now, I see how Leonard has changed, I see how he smiles, he became friendly and less intense, its all because of you. I'm not entirely supporting Leonard, I do understand why kelvin acted that way and left you but... "
"What makes you think he'd come back to you. What makes you think you would be together again after all this, do you think you will be happy?"
Again I opened my mouth but nothing came out.
"I just want you to be happy and if Leonard makes you happy, stop fighting him. Instead let go of anything that brings you pain and accept something that brings you happiness" she squeezed my hand and smiled at me. Then just like that, she left me with all my thoughts swirling around.