After the bus arrived to our school, a lot of students got picked up by their parents and I on the other hand, was waiting inside of Cyrus's car and waiting for him to be done with his duties for the day.
An hour or so passed and I finally saw him walking towards the parking lot, smiling at me as he got into the driver's seat.
"So did you enjoy the camping trip?"
"Yeah, in general it was pretty fun.", I said truthfully, but I didn't mention anything that happened with Jay or Livie.
The car ride remained peacefully quiet with no disturbances, but my mind was anything but peaceful.
The guilt was eating away at me, but I still wasn't sure if I should tell Cyrus about what happened between me and Jay, just yet. Yes it's true that Cyrus and I aren't even an official couple or something like that, but it still wouldn't be right for me to hide that from him. Afterall, Cyrus wouldn't hide something like that from me either...right?
The question was, exactly how would I tell him? And would doing so ruin what we have between us?
Ugghhhh, fuck I can't think straight or stick with a decision.
"Hey Xia, you okay there? You look off today."
"Huh? Oh yeah, I'm fine don't worry. Just a little tired because I didn't get enough sleep last night.", I lied, well it wasn't fully a lie though.
"Couldn't get enough sleep? Wait by any chance...was that because of me?", he lightly smirked.
"Don't flatter yourself too much mister.", I retorted playfully.
"That wasn't why."
"Well you seemed to enjoy it so you're the one who's flattering me over here, no? And if that wasn't why, what was the reason?", he asked, turning serious.
"I've had insomnia issues since early last year.", I confessed. "It started probably because of how bad I was doing mentally at that time, but it still hasn't fully gone away. There are still nights here and there where I can't get sleep."
"And you're just telling me this now? Why didn't you tell me earlier?"
"You never asked.", I chuckled. "Also, I just never found the right moment or reason to tell you about it. It's not that important anyways."
"What the hell do you mean? It is important, especially because you're still a high school student and you have a job too. I care about your health, so don't hide things like that from me from now on, okay?"
"On what basis?"
"What do you mean?"
"On what basis would I tell you? What are we, Cyrus? You're not my boyfriend, and I wouldn't say we're normal friends either. So what are we exactly?"
Cyrus stayed quiet for a minute, not knowing how to answer without sounding pathetic or week.
"I'm just scared of commitment.", he admitted after a long pause.
"I don't know if I can fully trust someone again enough to be vulnerable in front of them."
"What are you so afraid of?", I asked him
"I'm afraid of getting my heart bro-", he began, but stopped talking when his phone rang from the cup holder between us.
I took a glance down and saw the name Nadia on the screen once again.
Just who was she?
I was expecting him to pick up, but he remained indifferent and ignored the call.
"Aren't you gonna pick up?"
"Why not? Who are they that you look so tense? Is everything okay?"
"She's just an old friend that I don't like talking to all the time. I'll call her back later when I'm not busy."
"But you're not busy right now?", I questioned, genuine confusion written across my face.
"Stop asking so many questions, babygirl.", he said in a slightly irritated tone.
Gosh Xia, why the fuck are you so nosy all the time? Get your insecurities in check.
The weekend had passed and it was currently Thursday, yet I haven't spoken a word to Livie or Jay yet, nor have they spoken to me.
Well, Jay has tried twice, but I was still a bit upset at him for what he did, so I was waiting until I could be civil enough to hold a conversation with him.
As for Livie, I've tried going up to her in hopes of explaining everything to her, but every time I did, she looked at me with sad eyes and forced herself to run away so that she didn't have to confront me.
It was lunch break and like she's been doing for the past couple of days, Livie got her food and then sat alone at the end of an empty lunch table. The sight made me sigh and think about how I could get her to listen to me, but my thoughts got interrupted when I heard a little yelp come from her table.
Hannah, one of the popular, basic white bitches of our school, had just poured milk all over Livie's head and it was trickling down her body, ruining her clothes. I could tell Livie was crying in shame and frustration of not being able to speak up towards the girls, who were too busy laughing among themselves and mocking her even further.
"That's it, I've had enough of this bullshit.", I whispered to myself, getting up and storming over there, not missing the way a lot of people stopped laughing and recording when they saw me walking towards the scene.
I reached the lunch table and grabbed Hannah by her neck, proceeding to slam her against the nearest glass door. Gasps filled the cafeteria and people were about to start recording again, making me click my tongue in irritation.
"You wanna record this too? Go ahead and do it, I dare you. But whoever does, just know that you'll be in this bitch's place next."
I turned my head around again and locked eyes with Hannah, who looked really offended as her face turned red.
"What the fuck do you think you're doing you slut, huh?", she shrieked, flailing her arms around in an attempt to hurt me.
In response, I just tightened my hand around her neck and pressed her against the wall even harder, making her yelp and put her arms down.
"That's what I should be asking you, right?", I glared. "Just who do you think you are that you're bullying her right now? You think I'll just sit around and watch because me and her haven't been talking recently? Not everyone has such loose morals like you and your little minions over there, who obediently follow you around because it's the only fucking thing that makes them feel validated."
"I-I can't breathe.", she stuttered out through shallow gasps.
"Please l-let me go."
"Let you go? Did you do anything that deserves such kindness? First, you and your girls apologize to Livie, and make sure you remember to know your limits next time. I won't hesitate to break your damn neck, bitch."
Livie wiped her tears away and got up from her seat before coming to us and tugging at my arm.
"Let her go, Xia. You'll get in serious trouble if something bad happens to her. Please...?"
I looked at Livie and felt a faint smile trace my lips, for it was the first time since the trip that she has spoken to me.
I let go of Hannah and watched her pant as she tried getting air into her system. Once she did, she was about to run away from us, but I grabbed her by her hair and yanked her back.
"I said to fucking apologize didn't I?", I sneered.
"I...I-I'm sorry.", she muttered shamefully, signalling her friends to do the same.
After they left, I grabbed Livie by her arm and dragged her with me to the nearest girl's bathroom.
I took out a napkin and started dabbing at the stains from the milk, trying to get rid of as much moisture as I could. When I was done drying her clothes and hair, I took out an extra outfit from my backpack and handed it to her, telling her to go change in one of the stalls.
"Thank you for saving me from that situation.", she muttered after she got out of the stall, looking down and fiddling with her fingers.
"Liv look at me.", I cooed, wiping away an unshed tear once her eyes met might. "You're like my little sister, of course I'd help you. No one is gonna hurt you as long as I'm here."
She didn't say anything, but just looked at me with puppy dog eyes before hugging me tightly and crying. I was taken aback at first, but immediately hugged her back after, rubbing her back in hopes to comfort her.
"I-I'm so sorry for ignoring you, Xia. It was immature of me no matter what the situation was. Please don't stay mad at me."
"I'm not mad at you Liv, I never was. I understand where you were coming from, and it makes sense for you to react that way."
"But still, I have no right to get mad and ignore the both of you just because you two started dating."
"Dating? Who told you we were both dating?"
"But you are, aren't you? That's why he kissed you. It all makes sense, the way he'd always look at you whenever you weren't looking, the way he'd always look for reasons to touch you. The only reasonable explanation is that it's because you guys like each other."
"Just how much of our conversation did you hear that day?", I asked gently.
"Well, I ran away after I saw him kiss you. So up until that point, right?"
"If you were going to watch us both, might as well stay and listen to the things we said until the very end."
"What do you mean?"
"Jay and I aren't dating, I don't even like him like that."
"Really?", she asked, her eyes cutely widening.
"Yes, really. It's true that he likes me, but even I didn't know that until that exact moment. I actually like Mr. Moreau, and I told Jay that I'd have to decline him, and he said he was okay with it. But next thing I know, he kissed me out of nowhere and before I could push him away, I realized you were there watching us. That idiot was oblivious about your feelings towards him until I broke it to him."
"Wait...how do you know that I like him?"
"Girl, are you serious? It was always so obvious, and the fact that you reacted the way you did on Friday, just confirmed it for me on the spot."
"Oh...", she said in realization, her cheeks turning flushed. "Oh my god I nearly over looked what you just said. You're dating Mr. Moreau? As in your science teacher? That's risky."
"We aren't dating yet, but we probably will. I didn't tell you because I was looking for the right time, but this situation left me with no choice.", I admitted, lightly laughing afterwards. "Anyways, cheer up okay? What you saw was a misunderstanding, and I'd never lie or hide something like that from you."
"I know, but it still doesn't change the fact that Jay doesn't like me like that.", she said quietly, her face turning into a frown. "He only likes you Xia, and he'll never look at someone like me. I just broke my own heart, huh?"
"What do you mean by someone like you? Have you seen yourself? You're literally so fucking cute and pretty and have a pure heart. Any guy would be so lucky to have you. I'm sure you can win Jay's heart, but don't go running and clinging to him if he shows that he's not interested, and give it some time. But in the end, if he doesn't reciprocate your feelings, that's his loss and you can find someone worthy of you."
"Awww Xia, I love you.", she whimpered, trying not to cry again.
"Girl I swear, I just got you to stop crying so I better not see those tears again.", I said in a stern but playful matter.
I hugged her one last time and then sent her off to her next class before proceeding with my day.
Eventually, it was the end of chemistry class and I was the last person walking out, but of course I got pulled back by Cyrus, who locked the door and then hovered over me against the wall.
"I need you babygirl.", he said in a husky voice.
"Cyrus, really? We fucked at your apartment like three times just yesterday alone, forget the other days. I'm still soreee.", I whined.
"It's not my fault that you always look so delicious and tempting.", he groaned.
"Well you'll have to deal with it yourself this time baby.", I told him, teasingly running my finger down from the side of his face to his chest.
When I saw that he was distracted, I ducked underneath his arm and unlocked the door before making a run for it, giggling the whole time.
But my giggles died down when I saw that at the end of the hallway, Jay was standing, leaned up against a locker with his hands in his pockets and his head facing the ground.
I almost finished walking passed him, but his voice stopped me.
"Xia, we need to talk."
Guys, if you're reading this, please leave a nice review. It's hard to get recognition on a book unless there's a star rating, and not as many people add your book to their reading list. I've been working hard on this book even though I'm going through a difficult time right now, and it sometimes makes me feel a bit dejected because this isn't doing as well as Beautiful Mess and I don't know what I'm doing wrong? Either way, thank you for reading, and I love you. - Venus <3