Ch. 19 - Another Chance
There he stood in the back, looking even better than from when I last saw him, if that was even possible.
He was wearing black skinny jeans with a black tee and a leather jacket, both of his hands in his pockets. He looked like he was just as sad as me, but what if it was just my own eyes trying to deceive me?
I walked off of the stage and went to go say bye to Logan, knowing that I wouldn’t be able to control myself if I stayed in the same vicinity as Cyrus.
It’s been five years, yet why does my heart still beat the same way when I look at you?
While looking for Logan, I heard footsteps behind me before someone put their hand on my shoulder.
“Xia...“, Cyrus called out in a voice just above a whisper.
Hearing his voice after so long triggered something in me, making me look down and clench my eyes shut as I tried not to show how vulnerable he made me.
“I know you probably don’t want to see me right now, but I missed you, okay? I missed you so fucking much, and I can’t be at peace until I tell you the truth.”
“What truth?“, I asked in a murmur.
“Let’s sit first?”
I didn’t say anything back, just pulling out a stool and taking a seat.
“Get me a bourbon whiskey.“, I told the same bartender from before, any signs of flirting, gone from my voice.
The bartender looked confused at the sudden change in my demeanor, but did his job regardless, returning with the drink.
“Talk.“, I told Cyrus, downing the entire glass and ordering another one right after.
“First and foremost, how are you?”
“I’m doing pretty great and have a job I really like.“, I answered truthfully. “Now tell me whatever truth you’re talking about.”
“I’m glad you’re living well.“, he smiled. “You remember Nadia?”
“Yup, the ex you were hooking up with that day.”
“It’s true that she’s my ex, but I was not hooking up with her, I swear.”
I gave a displeased look, not quite sure if I should believe his words or not.
“She’s my ex for a reason, Xia. We dated for nearly our entire college life, but half way through our relationship, it started feeling like I was the only one trying anymore. At one point, I noticed that she would go around flirting with other guys, even the one that had a crush on her. I asked her to maintain her distance from him because it made me feel uncomfortable as her boyfriend, but she didn’t give a shit. Later, I ended up finding out that she was cheating on me with him for three months already. I was heartbroken and left her right away.”
“That explains why you were so scared of commitment back then, but it doesn’t fucking explain what she was doing at your apartment that night, or why she kept calling you.”
“She just suddenly showed up that day, saying she had something serious to talk to me about, but I wasn’t picking up her calls. She told me about how the same guy she cheated on me with, got another woman pregnant and then left her.”
“Serves her right to be honest, but what did that have to do with you?”
“I asked her the same thing, and she said that she came to apologize, because him cheating on her made her realize that I must’ve felt the same way when I found out that she was fucking him behind my back.“, he explained. “But what I didn’t know was that it was just an excuse for her to show up at my doorstep to try and get back with me. Before I knew what was happening, she climbed on top of me when I had my guard down and then at that exact moment, you walked in and assumed the worst.”
“So you weren’t actually with her on purpose?“, I asked, feeling my heart drop to my stomach.
Was it guilt I felt? Or something else?
“No, Xia. She’s the last person I would go back to, and I’m sorry you had to witness that. But you don’t even care that I’m telling you this, right? You never liked me to begin with.”
“About that...I also lied to you that day.”
“About?“, he asked curiously.
“I really didn’t kiss Jay. He just suddenly confessed his feelings to me on the last day of the field trip, and kissed me without my permission. I rejected him right then and there, because I didn’t feel the same way. What you heard that day in school was just both of us clearing things up and setting things straight.”
“But then why’d you say that you kissed him on purpose?”
“Because I was fucking angry and hurt, Cyrus. It broke something inside of me when I saw Nadia on top of you, and I said those things to you because I felt like you didn’t deserve any explanation, or my confession. I didn’t want to be vulnerable about my feelings to someone who clearly didn’t even love me back and was with another woman after just one misunderstanding. It angered me even more when you were pleading for me to hear you out, yet when I was in your spot hours earlier, you brushed me off like I was nothing and called me a cheating slut.”
“And I’m to blame for that, I know. I let my past experience and insecurities get to me, making me jump to conclusions even though deep down I knew you weren’t like that. But I didn’t think that things were going to be over between us forever, and that so soon. But wait hold on, did you just say that you used to love me?”
“Yeah, and sadly...I still do. We both really should’ve given the other person a chance to explain, huh?“, I asked, chuckling sadly as I swirled my drink in its glass. “But it’s too late now I guess.”
“It doesn’t have to be.“, he muttered.
“What are you trying to get at?”
“Would you be willing to give us another chance? Without any lies or secrets this time, and without any jumping to conclusions either. As much as I tried forgetting you these past couple of years, you’d always come back to my mind, Xia, and I don’t think I can ever forget you. Even if it was for a short time, meeting you made me want to believe in love again, and I hated the fact that we both ran away from the truth that day.”
“Do you really mean it?“, I asked hopefully, feeling a tear slide down my face.
“I’ve never been more honest about something in my life.“, he cooed, wiping away the tear. “So what do you say?”
“How can I say no to that?“, I whimpered. “Especially when it’s coming from you?”
Cyrus didn’t say anything, but just smiled widely before pressing his lips onto my soft ones, not caring who saw. The feeling brought back memories of all the other times we’ve kissed, but it felt different this time.
It was like he was trying to convey all of his feelings and passion through the kiss, and I couldn’t help but let a moan slip from my mouth.
“God, I’ve missed you so much, Xia. You have no idea how crazy you make me. I’m so glad that out of all days, I chose to come here today.”
“Then show me, Cyrus.“, I whispered seductively against his lips. “Show me how much you’ve missed me.”
“Gladly, babygirl.“, he smirked against my lips, taking me by my hand and dragging me out of the pub with him.
I don’t know what awaits mine and Cyrus’s future, but I do know that neither of us are running away from the truth this time.
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