Chapter 33 [Part 1]
I don’t know how long I was crying my eyes out for. I knew it was a terrible idea to tell Jack the truth. He’s left me. I’ve lost the best thing that has ever happened to me. He was right, I should have told him sooner and he would have forgiven me but I didn’t. I deserve him leaving me. I do. I’m such a cruel person. I hurt Jack without thinking about his feelings, all he did was love me. In return I broke his heart and now mine.
What will I do now? I love him and can’t see a future without him. He means everything to me but I was too late to realise it and now I’ve lost him forever. What am I going to do without him?
I was too lost in my heart break that I didn’t hear knocking on the door at first. When I did, I wiped my tears and ran to the door thinking it was Jack. I thought he’d come back telling me he made a mistake and would forgive me but I was so wrong. It wasn’t Jack, it was the last person I wanted to see.
“What are you doing here?” I glared at my Dad.
“I came to apologise,” Dad surprised me.
“I’m really sorry for everything. I don’t know what I was thinking. I been a rubbish father, what would your mother think if she were alive?” Dad began. “If you’re happy with Jack then who am I to stand in your way. I promise I’ll never do anything like this again. I will be a better father, a father you deserve. I promise,”
“Really?” I asked as my eyes became teary at the mention of my lover’s name.
“Really,” Dad confirmed. “Will you forgive me child?”
“I don’t know,”
“I understand, what I did was unforgiveable,”
“So...... When are you and Jack leaving to go home? Maybe we could go together,”
Dad’s question made me burst into tears. It was never going to happen. Jack and I would never go home. He’d left me, he would never forgive me.
“Oh Sienna,” Dad cooed as he pulled me into his arms. “What’s wrong?”
“I told him the truth Dad about everything,” I sobbed. “He left me,”
“Oh dear,” Dad cooed. “It’s ok, everything will be ok,”
“How will it be ok? He’s gone,”
“Oh Sienna. What can you do? He’s gone. He’s made his decision. Maybe you should let him go. Let’s go home eh? He’s not worth it,”
But he is worth it, I love him. He’s the best husband I could ever have asked for, I just couldn’t see it. I was too blind and now it’s too late. I’ve lost him forever. Dad is right. It’s time to go home.