Chapter 36 [Part 1]
It’s been a few weeks since Dad and I returned home from Majorca. I haven’t heard anything from Jack which means he really has left me. He can’t ever forgive me for what I have done. I hoped he would, he loves me doesn’t he? What I did is bad but it’s not unforgiveable is it? I mean I lied, everyone lies. I regret it but would it really have made a difference had I told Jack? We would have grown further apart and would never have gotten close. It would have led to a divorce. I guess I should expect Jack to file for divorce now. It’s clear he can’t forgive me and no longer wants me.
What did I expect? I lied to Jack from day 1. How can he forgive me? I deserve this. I did this. How can he love me after this? I don’t deserve him, I always knew he was too good for me. Someone like me doesn’t deserve to be happy. I deserve this hurt. I really do. I should have thought about my actions before carrying them out. Now, I have lost everything I ever dreamed of.
“Sienna?” Dad pulled me out of my miserable thoughts. “Get your coat,”
“Why?” I asked in confusion.
“I can’t stand this any longer,”
“You being like this. You’re unhappy because of me. If I hadn’t have forced you to be married, this wouldn’t be happening right now. You’d be none the wiser and happy like before all this mess happened. I’m really sorry, I know it is all my fault and I can’t apologise enough. I want to make things better. I’m taking you to Jack,”
“What?” I couldn’t believe my ears. Dad is taking me back to Jack.
“Come on let’s go,” Dad had grabbed my coat and held it out to me to put on. I did as I was told.
“What if he doesn’t want me back Dad? He said he couldn’t be with me anymore. What’s the point if he is only going to tell me to leave?”
“He won’t Sienna. He loves you. Any fool can see that he does. He was angry when you told him the truth, that’s normal. He has had time to think and will have realised by now that walking away was the wrong thing to do,”
“You really think so?” I asked with a hopeful look.
“I’m hoping so but if not then we will make him see sense,”
“Ok,” I agreed before we headed out. The whole journey there I was worried. What if Jack takes one look at me and tells me to leave? What if he really doesn’t want me anymore like he said? What if we are really over? What will I do then? I don’t want to be single. I want to be with Jack. I love him. Whatever happens, at least I will get to see him one last time.