A/N: so I was looking through some comments on book AURORA on Wattpad and you guys are so sweet, thank you for all the lovely comments, I’m so glad that you guys enjoyed the book, I love you guys💖. On the last chapter, I saw a comment asking for a side story for Brooke and Lena so, here it is!!!! I am also still working on BLAKE, which is the sequel to AURORA bc I know some of you guys were interested in that as well but yeah, I’ll be working on both of those on here bc sadly I can’t write on Wattpad anymore, anyways I’ll try to have some chapters published as soon as I can. I just want to say how grateful I am that you guys are interested in this series and I know I’ve been taking years to continue writing and I just want to thank you guys for being patient with me, I promise there is much more to come, I have so many ideas, I’m just trying to motivate myself and find the time and energy to write it all down. So thank you all and I hope you guys enjoy this.
It’s been a couple weeks since Lena and I... started... what are we? I mean we’re not dating, but we’re not exactly friends anymore either, not just friends anyways.
I guess we’re friends with benefits now. But we never really talked about it though so I can’t be sure. I don’t know how to bring it up, all I know is that I can’t stop thinking about that kiss we shared on the Ferris wheel. But then.. nothing, we talked about our feelings, we kissed and then... nothing. We pretty much just went back to hanging out like normal. I don’t get it, did she change her mind, does she just want to be friends now?
I thought she liked me, that’s what she told me anyway, but ever since we had that talk about our feelings, there’s just been this.. tension between us, like when we hang out, there’s this huge elephant in the room that we still have yet to address and I want to but I can’t because she’s just been pretending like everything is normal and I don’t wanna ruin that because then I’d risk ruining our friendship as well. But I need to know where we stand.
It’s nerve wrecking, when you realize you’re in love with your best friend, but then, I had hope because she made me think that she felt the same way about me, that was the happiest I had been in my life. And now, I’m more confused than ever.
I have to find a way to talk to her about this because now, I can’t sleep, eat, or think about anything else besides Lena.
I want to be with her and I want her to want to be with me and she’s the only person that I’ve ever loved in my life. Before I realized I was in love with Lena, I’m not gonna lie, I used to be... well some people used to refer to me as the school hoe but honestly I don’t care what they think, I only care about what Lena thinks, I always have. And I know that I used to sleep around a lot, but I’ve changed, I just hope Lena can see that or at least give me a chance to prove to her how much I love her and that I just want her. Maybe if she knew that she would finally take me seriously and talk to me about us and what we have (more so what I want us to have). Or maybe she still wouldn’t want to be with me, maybe all we had between us was a moment that we got caught up in that day, that magical day... I just wish I knew what she was thinking, even more so, I wish that she’s thinking what I’m thinking and that she wants to be with me.
Why did I have to fall in love with my best friend?