I walk into the house and set my things down by the door closing the door. I made my way into the kitchen. I grabbed a cup from the cupboards filling it with water. After drinking some water I walked out of the kitchen to the dining room. I saw dad and Erik sitting at the table talking. My dad is a 5’8” man with caramel skin with short black hair and blue eyes. He has a square jaw and a scar above his eyebrow and across the bridge of his nose. We look nothing alike. No one would be able to tell that he’s my father just by looking at us, I got most of my genetics from my mom. I have long dark hair that I dye in a purple ombre and I have purple eyes. Sometimes they are light purple, other times they are dark purple, people have told me that they change based on my mood but i think it’s off the lights. I’m a short girl standing at 5’3” and I weigh roughly 110 pounds. My skin is sunkissed just like my moms. Erik also has carameled skin and stands at 6’0” he has a chiseled jaw and maroon eyes and hair that’s always in messy spikes. He has a scar bisecting his left eye. I clear my throat letting them know that I’m here, they stop talking about whatever they were discussing.
“Hey baby girl” Erik said, walking up to me. I kissed his scar before hugging him.
“Hey,” I said with a smile. My dad chuckled, shaking his head before walking over to me to give me a hug. My dad so wants us to get together.
“What were you two discussing?” I asked. They looked at each other before saying “nothing” at the same time. I just shake my head.
“How was your first day at school sweety?” my dad asked
“It was alright. I actually made some friends although i’m gonna try to make them hate me” i said truefully. Both Erik and my dad looked at each other than at me with wide eyes.
“Why would you do that? Don’t you think you should give them a chance? You can’t be a loner the whole year especially since it’s your last year of highschool they year you’re supposed to make great memories.” my dad said and Erik agreed with him.
“Violet” was all i side before they understood. I looked down at my shoes. I never like talking about her. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I looked up to see concern swimming in their eyes.
“Baby girl don’t you think it’s time to move past that? She wouldn’t want this for you and she doesn’t blame you. She loves you” Erik said slowly knowing this was a touchy subject. I shook my head violently
“No, I can’t go through that again, I made a promise that I would make sure that never happens again” I said before walking away towards my room. Angry at myself for what happened, angry at myself for being so stupid. I collapsed on my bed and cried. It still hurts to think about.
I heard my door open and my bed dip. I knew it was Erik the minute he laid on top of me just hugging me trying to comfort me. We just laid there for a while enjoying the silence.
“You can’t just keep pushing people away, you’ll have to face your fears at some point. Plus your stronger, faster, and smarter know nothing like that will happen again. It’s okay to have friends” Erik said gently. I just shook my head
“I can’t Erik. i loved her, i can’t let myself get like that again” i whispered so softly i barely heard myself, but i knew he heard every word i said. He sighed
“I know your minds made up but you’ll see that i’m right” he said with a smug look on his face. I groaned. We laid there for a while before Erik sighed and got up. He kissed my forehead and left the room silently. He didn’t have to say anything I knew he was giving me space to think about what he said, but they’re better off without me and I’ll be better off without them. Little did I know I was gonna fall in love with one of them.
After sulking I finally decided to get out of bed. I walked out of my room and to the kitchen to find something to eat. As I was looking through the fridge my dad walked into the kitchen. I closed the fridge with a sigh. I looked at dad who was leaning against the entrance way. We stared at each other.
He sighed “look honey i know this is hard for you but this is one of the reasons why i sent you to a public school so you can get over this” he said gently coming over to me.
“It’s not that easy to get over” I whispered trying so hard not to cry again.
“It happened a year ago and i know for a fact she wouldn’t want you to stop living your life” he replied pulling me into a hug
“I don’t think i can live without her here though” i said silently crying on my dad’s shoulder. We stayed like that for a while. I pulled back a little and wiped away the tears.
“You can though you were able to go on with your life without your mom” he said caressing my cheek.
“That was because I had Violet,” I told him. He just nodded his head
“Well you just need to find someone to help you through this.” he said. I just shrugged my shoulders and he sighed, kissed my forehead, and left. I lost my appetite and went to my room. I decided to call it an early night.
I wiped off my makeup, brushed my teeth, took out my hair, and changed into my pajamas which consisted of shorts and a tank top. Tonight I dreamt of her, her smile, her eyes, her lips, her hair, her laugh, everything about her I dreamt of.