I hadn’t heard her come in. I had laid down on the couch to wait a bit before heading up after fake-working. It was stupid. I should have just gone up. I must have dozed off because I didn’t hear the knock or the opening of the door. “Alpha…”
I heard that but I wasn’t quite sure if I did.
My eyes shot open and focused on her standing above me. She jumped back a little and was a bit flustered. Crap, I thought, she caught me. As I sat up I ran my hand through my hair and mumbled to myself.
“Addison, what are you doing down here?” I asked.
“I’m sorry, I forgot to give back your keys.” She held them out, the keys dangling off her fingertips. I knew if I touched her I would lose control.
“Oh, uhh just throw them on the desk.” I put my head in my hands, "Thanks.”
“Okay. Goodnight, I guess.” She turned and reached for the door, opening it. As she turned I caught that Lavender scent and it surrounded me. I rushed up and closed the door, standing behind her and breathing her in. She gasped quietly which only made it worse. She turned around, “Alpha, I…”
“Why do you smell so good?” I had both hands on the door, I was standing so close it pinned her to the door.
“I- I don’t? I mean I don’t know?” Addison was flustered as she turned around to face me, ”What do I smell like?”
“Lavender,” I closed my eyes and set my forehead on hers, her eyes shut as well. “It’s intoxicating. I can’t have you near me.”
“I don’t understand," she whispered.
“This. I can’t do this, not yet.” But I gave in a little as I brushed my lips along her neck and shoulder. A shudder ran up Addison’s spine and she inhaled sharply.
“So you want me to leave you alone?” I could hear the hurt trying to hide in her voice.
“Yes, and no. I need space to get my mind right.” My voice was breathy, ”I wasn’t expecting you to happen.” She didn’t respond to that. I sighed, standing up straight, “I’m heading out tomorrow on business. I won’t be back until the next morning. I’ll see you when I get back." And with that, she turned and rushed out the door.
My heart was beating heavily in my chest. That was a horrible idea, I thought to myself. My wolf growled. Being that close to her had riled him up. He wasn’t coming down from that high for a while. I walked upstairs after I figured she was safely hidden in her room.
Sleep came easily tonight, my wolf content from the contact with his mate.
In the morning I woke up, getting ready for my trip. I was heading down to check on the herd at the other end of the property. We had quite a bit to do to make sure they were ready for sale in a few months. The price of meat had gone up a bit which meant good things for us. As I grabbed my bag and headed downstairs I caught a glimpse of her as I made my way down. Last night came rushing back. The closeness, her breath, her smell, her nervousness at being so close to me. I enjoyed it a little too much. She was talking to Sam, who I needed. So I made my way over to them. I saw her tense when I appeared next to her. “Good morning, Addison, Sam.”
“Alpha,” Sam replied.
I looked down at her and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Her bright eyes looking up at me, a shy smile on her lips. “Good morning, Alpha.”
Look away man, before you lose it again, I thought to myself. I turned to Sam, "I have some things to discuss with you before I head out. Walk with me.” As we turned I subconsciously placed a hand on the small of her back. Once again, shockwaves rode through my body at the touch. She inhaled and I knew she felt the same thing I had.
After talking over a few things with Sam I opted to take the truck this time and set out for the herd. Driving over uneven dirt roads was what I had the truck for. It would take about an hour to get to where I needed to be.
I could feel myself tensing up and relaxing at the same time. Both of those feelings came from having distance between myself and Addison. Turning up the radio, I drove on.
Spending the day on the ranch was great. The pack members who lived and worked there were great and I loved getting out and working with my hands, always had. But being Alpha is more of a desk job. Amazingly we ended up getting all of our work done by six, which meant I could head home instead of staying the night on some cramped cot in a cabin full of men. So I decided it would be fun to have a run home. I shifted and let my wolf free. My wolf had the same coloring I did. Because I was Alpha he was larger and stronger than other wolves. He had a shiny golden coat and dark, almost black eyes. I bounded off toward home, enjoying the openness of our land. I loved the freedom and this day was exactly what I needed to get my mind off Addison.