This is my first book!! There will be sexual scenes, references and scenes of child abuse, and foul language!!
I am slowly editing to fix errors...
Nick (Alpha) pov
Sitting here in my office waiting with my Beta Roan pissed off about yet another meeting... I'm a 265 lb 6 foot 7 inch muscle machine of one of the largest packs around. I'm a beast and take no prisoners. I don't care for excuses, just get the job done. I have built a reputation of not caring, not wanting weaknesses.
Growing up as an only child my parents were the biggest pieces of crap there were. My dad abused me to make me "stronger" and my mom just watched not caring. Hell sometimes she would participatr. If it happens behind closed doors, no one knows right! If clothes can cover it then no one can see. My body is littered with scars, and tattoos can only cover so much. The mental scars are there as well. I don't want a mate because I don't want kids. I don't want to repeat the cycle, or take the chance of ending up with a shitty mate. Moon Goddess or not, It's not happening.
My Beta Roan has been my best friend and confidint since I was a kid. As the years went by I knew I could always talk to him to get me through. As my 18th birthday rolled around, my father thought I should get a proper birthday celebration with a major beating in store. Little did he fucking know.... I was waiting for ths day. In one quick motion I shifted and grabbed him around the neck and snapped it. Then looked towards my mother. That Bitch had the audacity to yell at me about what a disappointment I was. My wolf just smirked and slowly stalked towards her. When she knew what was going to happen she begged for her life. I thought why now after all this time, now you care.
I grabbed her and snapped her neck also. And I don't have any regrets. What they did and put me through no kid should ever have to suffer.
Who would want me anyways... I'm broken, scarred, and can't trust anyone. Well except Roan. That fucker I trust with my life! My warriors know about the scars, but dont know my story and I plan on keeping it that way. But now I'm 23 and the council is urging me to find a mate. I don't want one but if I don't find her, they will find one for me. The pack needs a luna, you need support... like hell i do.
Wanna know how much I hate these council meetings... there are no words. Sitting at my desk with my Beta at my side, I'm trying my hardest to act like I'm paying attention. But every meeting its the same topic...a MATE.
FRANK (council member) "You do know you need to find a mate, the pack needs it's Luna"
"Yes I know, (slamming my fists down) don't think I haven't forgotten. You remind me of it at every meeting we have!"
FRANK "And yet you still have a ball every year and still haven't found anyone, you know by your 25th birthday, you.."
"Yeah I know, you will pick one for me. I know, she has to be here somewhere right?"
JEFF (council member) "We are just trying to help"
"I know, I know. The ball is tomorrow and hopefully I will find her." Rubbing my hand down my face.
As the councilmembers start whispering I excuse everyone telling them to get out. The discussion is over.
At least I hope right....
As the council members walk out I look at my best friend and Beta.
ROAN "You know at some point you will have to make a decision right?"
"I know. She's gotta be out there right." as I look out my window contemplating my life.
ROAN "But what if she's not man, then what?"
"I hope to Goddess I can find her! These other unmated females are driving me insane!"
ROAN "Did any new people say they were coming that don't usually come?"
"A few people and the council even invited outside packs, guess they are getting desperate." running my hand down my face
ROAN " well let's hope she shows up!"
Getting ready to head to bed I look out the window at the moon and silently pray to the Moon Goddess.... "Please, please send me a decent mate. I don't care where from, what shape, anything, just send me someone! I gotta get this figured out..."
I toss and turn all night that it seems to drag on forever, and finally just sit up and look out my window by the bed, and catch something out of the corner of my eye. Something like a white mist. But theres a figure in it like it's floating...
"What the..." as I'm rubbing my eyes making sure I'm seeing right.
All I hear inside my head is "she's coming, you will find her just have faith!"
And as fast as it was there it was gone.
I rubbed the back of my neck thinking about what I just heard. I hung my head for what seemed like hours as i saw the first sun rays coming up. I decided to go for a run, my wolf needs to blow off some stress. Fuck this.
I went charging out the front door, quickly stripped and shifted mid air. And I was off. Running at full speed dodging trees and fallen branches as I ran, and ran. I ran till I came to my favorite spot at the edge of the pond. I sat and took a drink of water and just looked around thinking about what yo do with the council, the pack, the upcoming ball. Did I have enough warriors at the perimeter lines, did I get enough food.
But as I'm sitting there in my thoughts, out of the corner of my eye i see it. There it was again that fucking mist woman shit.
In my mind I hear "she will be broken, only you can help save and heal her."
What the fuck is that supposed to mean? I walked towards the mist and it was gone again.
Stop with the cryptic shit already...
As I slowly walk back to the pack house, I keep thinking of what's been said. I will find her but shes going to be broken, and only I can help her... man oh man I hope I'm going to be able to handle this. If shes broken am I just going to reject her? I don't need drama with the pack. As I walk towards the tree line at the edge of the pack house I quickly shifted back and threw on some clothes. As I entered into the pack house everyone is running everywhere getting our guest rooms set up, decorations are being run down the hall to the ballrom.
As you can imagine with our large pack status we have an extremely large pack house. I demolished the old one with the deaths of my parents to start with a clean slate. The pack didn't undestand but the outcome has only benefited us.
I walk through the entry down the hallway past the stairs leading to the upper floors. At the end of the hallway it leads to a large ballroom that can easily hold a couple hundred people. Half of the room was left for dancing while the other half has round tables with white tablecloths and red floral centerpieces being assembled. A dj is getting set up over in the corner while a bar is being set up on each side of the room.
I walk through the ballroom to the adjoining kitchen and see my planner April making sure all the food is starting on time. I hired her locally as she's human, but she's the best at what she does. As I stand there watching she keeps yelling so loud you would think she had some Alpha blood in her. Almost makes me feel like I need to start doing something. I just smirk to myself and head back out towards my room to start getting ready as in a few short hours the guests will start arriving.
Getting up into my room It's a grand room indeed. I have a large custom bed with a 4 poster frame that is a deep color wood that sits in the middle of the room. Light gray walls with white trim are on the walls with a large window and window seat on one wall and my bathroom and walk in closet on the opposite side.
I walk into the bathroom quickly stripping and walking into the shower. I stand under the water thinking about how the day will go and wondering what my mate will look like if I find her. Praying today will be the day so the council will get off my back. I'll have a mate, mark her and then she can take a room.
Walkng out of the shower, I grab a towel drying off and walk to my closet to get ready. Walking by the mirror I stopped and looked at myself thinking who is going to want me, she would take one look at me and run.
To be continued....