The first time my eyes landed on him, I was fifteen and he was twenty-two. My mom had finally recovered from my father’s death and she was moving on. She was happy again. She was talking about how sweet and wonderful Christopher Wolf was and how he made her happy in ways she never thought possible. They were soon getting married and she brought him to the house.
And he had a son.
Kellan was nothing like his father, he was blonde, tall, and muscular and his eyes were blue and very intense. Kellan was on his junior year in college and he came specifically for the wedding. I couldn’t tell if he was happy or not about his father getting married again but there wasn’t much he could do of course. My mother was so excited about introducing me to my new stepbrother, I didn’t know what was the big deal, the guy was going to be away for college for a long time, and I wouldn’t see him, it wasn’t like we were going to meet and start acting like family. He wasn’t my family. So I walked through the main door with my mom holding my arm so tight she could possibly break it.
Then I saw him over there.
I didn’t know what to say when he walked over to me, his blue eyes connected with mine. He shook my hand and smiled like he knew exactly what was going through my mind. For a moment it was like we were the only two people in the room, he wouldn’t let go of my hand and I was so thankful our parents were too busy with each other to notice us. His smile was wild and sexy; I felt stuff I never thought I would feel ever. Then he spoke.
“I think we’ll be great friends” His voice was raspy and low, the sound went straight to my most feminine parts.
Could we be more than friends?
“I’m Tera” I said. He was still holding my hand and he took a step closer to me. Kellan was wearing a black t-shirt with a leather jacket, ripped jeans and some old Jordan’s. I was about to ask him about his motorcycle because he had to have one, it was impossible for him not to have one.
“I know” He said.
It was weird the way we just seemed to click, we talked on the phone every single day when he was away to college and he visited often thing somehow his father found weird. We also chatted a lot by email and he used to tell me everything that happened in college, he always told me he was trying to prepare me for what I had to go through in a few years.
Everything was amazing for the following two years, he graduated from college, started his own company in NYC and even when I didn’t see him as much as I used to we still had a sort of special bond, I liked to think he also felt the same way about me, that it was a matter of time until he said he did like me back. Then everything just went downhill.
My mother died.
There was no way any of us could’ve seen it coming, she was happy and healthy one day and the next she had cancer.
And not any type of cancer.
Terminal cancer, I had a hard time trying to process the fact my mom wouldn’t be with me anymore, that she was gone forever and there was nothing I could do. Of course Chris was also devastated, he spent the following two weeks locked inside his studio, and every time he came out he smelled like cigars and alcohol, so yeah he wasn’t having a very productive time in there. Kellan couldn’t make it to the funeral but he did promise me he would visit us sometime soon. I did my best to keep the house in a good shape because that helped me keep my mind off of things.
Every time my mind went back in time, thinking my mom would appear on the kitchen or doing laundry or to wake me up every morning to go to school, I almost had a breakdown but she wasn’t going to do any of those things because she was gone now forever.
It wasn’t until one of those Sunday’s afternoons that everything became worse but also it got better for me. I knew that the moment Chris started to finally recover from his misery he would kick me out. It was just a matter of time, he had no attachment to me other than my mom and I couldn’t see why he would care about what happened to me. So I was looking for a backup plan, I didn’t know my father’s family so even if I ever found them they would be complete strangers and I had no one on my mom’s side, I didn’t know what to do.
I made some dinner for him and knocked on his studio door. He didn’t say a word so I just opened the door, he was there of course, empty bottles were spread all over the room like a decoration, the smell of cigars was all over and he was sitting on his desk with his head resting on it, I didn’t know if he was asleep or awake so I just walked over to leave his food beside him, he could eat it when he felt hungry. Soon a hand was wrapped around my wrist and I looked down to see him looking up at me. His eyes were red and it looked like he hasn’t sleep in days.
“Is everything ok Chris?” I asked him, he just kept staring at me.
“You look just like her” He whispered. I didn’t know why my heart skipped a beat just to start beating so fast I thought it would get out my chest.
“I know” Were the only words that left my mouth, I didn’t know what else to say or even what to do.
I didn’t even know in what moment he stood up, but I soon found myself pressed against the desk and he was all over me, his hands were touching me everywhere and I could smell the whiskey on his breath. I shut my eyes close and tried to think of a quick way to escape this really awful situation. His hand slowly made its way to my waist and gripped my ass. I wanted to cry so badly.
“Why did she have to leave me?” He asked. “We were supposed to be happy”
“And you’re suppose to let her go right now before I break your nose”
That voice made a shiver run down my spine, and as soon as Chris was on me he was off me and on the ground. There he was, just like I remembered him, just he replaced all those leather jackets with really expensive suits. He still looked very dangerous. Kellan grabbed my hand and pulled me behind him.
“It’s interesting how I come home to see my drunken father all over my stepsister” He said and I could feel the tension coming out of his body.
“It’s nice to finally see you” Chris said in a very bitter tone.
“I wish I could say the same” Kellan looked at me over his shoulder “Pack your stuff we’re leaving”
“What?” I asked and I could see Chris was as surprised as I was.
“You can’t take her with you” Chris said “I’m her legal tutor now”
“I’m not going to leave her here with you so you can abuse her” Kellan’s words were deadly cold. “I’ll take care of her”
I grabbed his sleeve with tears filling my eyes.
“Really?” He gave me a weak smile and nodded.
“Really” He replied “Now go pack everything” He then looked over at his dad “We’re leaving”
And just like that…my whole future changed.