"So are you ready to tell me why you are here? You know you wouldn't be here if she didn't think it was in your best interests. Your silence will not help you deal with what has happened to you any faster. I assure you it is a safe place here. What you share with me will stay between us. Nothing will come out of what you say in this office."
Is he for real right now? I don't like his approach. He doesn't stop yapping like if he keeps asking and talking I will start to share with him. I can't believe my sister wants me to talk to him about it. I don't want to talk about what happened six months ago, it's my business and only mine.
Great, now just the mere thought of it. My mind goes to the land of memory of that day. Like I needed that!
Six months ago:
"Mr. and Ms. Parker, thank you for coming on brief notice." Mrs. Miles, the principal of my school, tells both of my parents.
"What did she do this time?" My mother asks. I can hear the disappointment in her voice.
Great, another evening I'll hear my parents lecture me. I fold my arms in front of me and sit further back in the chair I'm sitting on while I think about this.
"She has been caught harassing Miss Hallway again. I'm sorry, but I'm afraid that since it's not the first time she's done this, I must suspend her for a week.
As my mother continues to speak with Mrs. Miles, my father on his end don't say a word. He doesn't even have a single emotion written on his face. Which means it's not a good sign. Awesome!
I know what I did, it's not cool, but in my defence, I have to do what I have to do to survive in this hellhole.
I'm at the top of the food chain here. I'm the captain of the Vixen, the cheerleaders. I'm the most popular girl in my school. Nothing, I mean, nothing will stop me from keeping my crown. I would do whatever it takes to survive in this jungle.
After we all leave Mrs. Miles 'office, we get into my parents' van. I can feel the tension hanging in the atmosphere around us.
Hashtag I am in trouble.
"You guys don't know how it works around here. You don't understand what's like to be in there." I decide to break the ice around here.
Shit! The way my dad is looking at me right now, I really should keep my mouth shut.
"And you think what you did justify your behaviour towards other people." It wasn't a question, but a statement.
"Ugh. Whatever you guys know shit!"
Fuck! Me and my big mouth.
"Language young lady!" My mother warns me.
"Careful, Hannah. I'm not one of your friends to talk to me like that! You need to learn to respect others around you. You're grounded. No cell phone for a week. Give it to your mother now!
"I'll do no such thing." I stick to my ground.
"Keep this up and you won't have it for a month." He says whilst taking his eyes away from the road to look at me through the mirror above him.
"I hate you guys...DADDY LOOK OUT!" I scream when I see that a truck has come our way as I look to my left.
After that, everything is blank. All I know is when I wake up I found myself in a hospital room with my sister sitting next to me with her hand in mine.
"Tess? Tess where am I? Why are you here?" I'm confused, my head is spinning a little.
Tess jumps out of her seat when she hears me speak and starts to hug me so tight. Which is strange coming from her, me and Tess, not a good combination.
"Thank goodness you're alive." She still didn't let go of her hold on me.
"Ouch! Not so tight, it hurts." I manage to say painfully.
"Oh, sorry." She releases her hold on me and sits back in the chair she was occupying not long ago.
"Where are mom and dad? Why aren't they here with you?"
That was the question. Why was she here and not them? Then she starts to cry. She wipes her tears with the back of her hands, taking a few breaths to try to pull herself together.
"I, I have something to tell you." I can hear the struggle in her words. "You see, you, mom and dad were involved in an accident..."
"No! No! No! Please don't say it! Oh please don't say it!" I repeat over and over again, putting my hands over each of my ears so I cannot hear the words.
"Mom and dad didn't make it." She can't contain her pain any longer as she starts to cry once more and brings me back in her arms as she hugs me once more.
Everywhere hurts as she hugs me, but at this point, I don't give a shit as I welcome the pain.
Overall, I ended up with a nasty scar on the back of my left leg that looks like a leafless tree and every time I walk now I limp a little with every step I take.
The person I once was was all gone for good. I don't care anymore about a stupid crown or cheerleading, makeup or whatever I've done before. Now I want to be the person my parents would be proud of wherever they are. Oh, and by the way, my sister is now my legal guardian. Weird, right? I have to move and go to a town called Saint-Rock.
Before I go I have one last thing to do and although my sister and don't see eye to eye right now, I'm happy that she is here with me with what I have to do next. As I said, I want to make my parents proud.
The first step is simple, I have to ring the bell. It's the after that I'm most afraid of.
Hashtag here goes nothing.
Nervously, my hand is shaking like crazy as I finally press that simple button.
"You got some nerve to show yourself around here." Tracy Hallway's mom tells me when she opens the door.
"Ms. Hallway, my name is Tess Parker, I'm Hanna's sister. I know you don't want her to be here, but she's here to talk to your daughter to make amends."
"Mom, it's okay." Who knew that one day Tracy would be the one to come to my rescue.
Before her mother says another word, Tracy whispers to her mother and all I hear are the words 'it's her' and Mrs. Hallway looks at me sympathetically.
Ugh, I hate when people do that.
"Of course come in." Her mom says as she let us through.
So I did what I came here for. I apologize to Tracy for everything I did to her at school, especially when I bullied her in front of everyone.
After I left her house, I don't know, something in me made me feel a little better about myself.
We had a funeral for my parents before we left and decided to let them rest here where they grew up.
Now here I'm sitting on the couch in front of the shrink my sister wants me to see that I don't even like. I stare at the clock above the door as time goes by, as I still say nothing to him, not a word. Why would I?