Jim practically sprinted down the hall, past me, and into Jackson’s office. Suddenly they were both dashing back down the hall to the elevator. I saw Jackson’s face, his eyes darkening. He couldn’t control his wolf, he was about to shift right there in the office.
“Did we do that?”
We couldn’t have.. Raya replied distantly as though she was trying to figure it out herself.
“Right..” I replied distantly. I couldn’t help but wonder and be worried.
An hour later he came back up, the same composed Alpha he always was. Maybe I had read it all wrong.
You shouldn’t be caring hun. You know what his pack did to us, to our family. We should just leave this place...
I knew Raya wasn’t serious. She was just upset about this whole situation. She wanted him even more than I did, she wanted a pack and a home. I knew I would have to take some time to figure out if I could get past this and forgive his people and his family.
Thankfully tomorrow Jackson wouldn’t be here and I wouldn’t have to be near him all day. “Maybe I should just quit..” I thought before shaking my head. I needed this job. There was no way I could leave unless I found something to replace it. Maybe I should put out some feelers.
Thursday went by quickly. I thought I had escaped having to deal with all of this until I was ambushed at the end of the day.
"Sasha!" Jim hollered as the elevator doors began to close. I held them open and he jogged inside. "Thanks. On your way home?"
I nodded with a smile. I didn't want to have the conversation I knew was coming.
"So how are you doing?"
There it was. I exhaled, "I'm okay."
"Are you really? Sasha I want you to know that we had no idea. We knew our dad was a cruel man, but we had no idea something like what happened to you had ever occurred in our pack. If Jackson had been Alpha..."
"If Jackson had been Alpha none of that would have happened," I cut in.
Jim smiled down at me, "My big brother is stubborn and sometimes a grump but he isn't cruel."
Jim looked at the floor and kicked at some imaginary dust, "He told me about what happened. I'm sorry you don't feel safe in our pack or with us."
I snapped my head up, "It's not that. It's just..."
"It's a lot to digest. I get it," he added.
I liked Jim, I didn't want to hurt his feelings. The truth was I didn't know how I felt about any of this and I couldn't further complicate it with adding my feelings for Jackson. I gave him a smile and a "goodnight" before heading home.
Friday morning came and I groaned at the thought of having to go in to work. "Can we just call in?" I whined as I stood in the shower, letting the hot water rinse off all of my exhaustion.
If we don't show up, he might come looking for us. Do you really want him here?
My eyes widened. Being alone with him in my apartment was the last thing I wanted. "Work it is then."
Just as I sat on my desk the elevator dinged. Jackson made his way toward me, his gray suit fitting him perfectly and emphasizing every part of his muscular frame.
"Good morning, Miss Lovett."
"Good morning, Mr. Thorpe." I didn't follow him in today. I couldn't be alone with him.
Your 9am should be here any minute. Would you like to meet with them in your office or in the conference room?
I watched my computer waiting for a reply.
In here is fine. Can you bring in a pot of coffee please?
I let out a sigh and made my way to the kitchen before filling a thermal pot with coffee and placing it on a tray along with several cups. I walked into his office and caught his eye so I gave him a small smile. He was sitting at his desk going through some files, so I placed the tray on the coffee table before making my way back out. I went to open the door when suddenly it was pushed shut. I could feel him behind me, his body close to mine as he leaned against his hands placed on the door. It made my breath catch.
"I know you don't want to over complicate things for yourself right now and I understand that,” Jackson's voice was almost a whisper, husky and low. "Just know this Sasha, I’m sorry for this and I miss you." His breathy words left warmth on my cheek and suddenly the warmth was gone as he stepped away from me. I quickly left his office and just about collapsed at my desk. Once his meeting came in I decided I needed some air. I walked out of the building and sat on a bench outside.
"Well hey there, hun."
I looked up and smiled at my favorite person. "Hey Paulie."
"You look like you've got a lot on your mind." He sat down next to me with worry in his eyes.
I shrugged, "I just found some new information about where my family came from. Things are complicated. My past is complicated."
"Well, then make it less complicated."
I let out a scoff, "It's not that easy."
"But your past can't be changed. Take what you've learned and grow from it. Don't let it ruin what you have going for you."
I chuckled, "I don't have much going for me, Paul."
He let out a surprised laugh, "You have plenty my girl! You have a great job, a great home, and I'm pretty sure our boss is sweet on you." He winked at me with a nudge and I laughed.
I ran my hand through my hair, "Thanks Paul. Alright, I should head back up, I don't want to miss anything important."
He patted my knee and walked back in with me. As I sat back down Jackson's meeting ended and he motioned for me to come in.
"Can I get you something, Mr. Thorpe?"
"Yes, theres a group of files under the name Macy. Can you grab them for me?"
"Yes. Anything else?"
Jackson turned to me and smiled, "Yes. You look beautiful today."
I know for a fact that my face held everything from desire and appreciation to fear and confusion. I didn't know how to respond. He had never been so attentive. "I.. uhh.. Thank you." I turned to leave and I am almost certain I heard a low growl escape his lips before I closed the door.
"What the hell was that?" I muttered, hoping nobody would walk by and see me so flustered.
Mate wants us... Raya whispered. I was surprised, she had been so angry and hurt like I was. But she was a wolf and she wanted her mate. Now I just had to figure out if I wanted him too.