Chapter 1: The Swimming Pool
It was definitely not love at first sight, definitely not for me. I, being a larger woman, was very self-concious. I had been all my life. Whenever a guy had asked me out, I always thought 'Is he being serious or is he doing this as a joke or a dare', it really made me paranoid and made me feel rubbish about my self. So, obviously when Adam asked me out, it wasn't much different. I didn't know whether he was being genuine.
That's another issue I have I guess, trust. I don't trust a lot of people and, if you are one of the lucky few, it would have taken me a number of years to get there.
Adam came across as very confident, which was exactly what I needed. He started the conversation and was happy just to keep talking and telling me about himself. I am not really a talker, I listen a lot and am extremely shy until you get to know me. Once you get to know me however, I am a completely different person. I am, as my friends describe it, crazy, talkative and very confident. I will sing in front of my friends, mess around with them and completely relax because I know that they love me for who I am. But in front of a stranger, I am a polite, innocent woman who doesn't really talk much.
When Adam started talking, I understood straight away that he was confident. I mean, it takes a lot of guts to walk up to any stranger and start talking to them. However, I did feel a small connection with Adam. Not even a minute into the conversation, he made me laugh and that is one thing I love about him. The fact that he could always make me laugh. If I was having a bad day, he would be there and I would end up with a smile on my face. He just understood my sense of humour so well.
By the end of the conversation, my sides were hurting and I was crying due to the amount of laughing I had done. Adam looked happy too, as he had my number and had promised to call me to arrange a date. I was actually looking forward to it.
The thing about being self-concious and paranoid is you over think things. As soon as Adam had left, I had started to panic, 'Did I really just give this random stranger who I talked to for 10 minutes my number?' and 'What if it was a joke and he arranges a date but doesn't show up'. However, my friends managed to calm me down and convince me it would be okay. And I am so glad they did.