A new day arrives as my room flood with the colors of the morning sun—starting from a soft hue of gold and gradually turning brighter until I have to squint my puffy eyes open.
I’ve never ever cried for a boy before, so this time when I do, I don’t know how to feel. Too tired to feel sorry for myself, I decide to get up from my position on the floor.
My bones complain as my muscles ache from moving after hours. Dragging myself towards the washroom, I strip naked before standing under a freezing cold shower which jolts my body awake.
Willing my tears away, I clench my eyes refusing to cry again. I’m not one to cry over a problem. But this is a situation I cannot change so I try the next best thing—distract myself.
“Girl, I feel like you forgot me after getting a piece of Xavier.” Lily’s voice filters through the phone that I’m clutching to my ear as if my life depends on it, her voice bringing a sense of comfort.
“I literally talked to you the day before yesterday.”
“Exactly. You didn’t call me yesterday.”
A small chuckle escapes my lips despite my current mood.
“Yeah, I wasn’t feeling well.”
“Why? Are you sick?”
“No, it’s just...Xavier—he told me he never wanted to see me again. Whatever we had is over.” That came out more nonchalant than I expected but that’s how I deal with things I don’t want to. I make it seem like it’s no big deal.
“You wanna talk about it or you want a distraction?”
“Beth called me yesterday to send me an invitation to the fashion show. Guess what? I’m coming over tomorrow.” My heart lifts at the thought of seeing my best friend again. It has been almost two weeks since we met. “I have too much tea to spill.”
“And—um,” she trails off which is unusual for Lily because she’s someone who does not have a filter—one of the many reasons I love her.
“What is it, Lil?”
“Cole and I kissed.”
I shoot up from my bed, hair flying everywhere, and almost detach my neck from my shoulders in the process.
“I know, I know. It kinda just happened. You know about how I visit the paintball range once in a while?”
“He was there too, playing for the opposing team. Things got heated as we kind of just entered into a sort of competition between the two of us. And I almost had him cornered but then we were too close and I didn’t think. He didn’t think. I don’t—”
“Lil. Calm down and speak slowly.”
I hear her take in a large gulp of breath before releasing in a slow exhale. “I don’t know who went first but the next thing I know, we’re kissing.” Her voice turns meek as if embarrassed about this situation.
“How do you feel about it?”
“I don’t know about how I feel now But I do remember how I felt at that time.” I raise my brows in question before remembering she cannot see me but she answers anyway knowing what I was about to ask. “That bitch pulled away then shot me in the shoulder and fucking left me there, gaping like a baboon!
“But more importantly, I feel guilty because he was an ass to you, and here I am, fraternizing with the enemy.”
My lips threaten to curve in an amused smile at her choice of words but more importantly, at the way she’s speaking.
“Lily, you don’t have to worry about that. I’ll ask this again and I want you to tell me the first thing that comes to your mind like you always do, okay?” I can practically feel her nodding her head hesitantly. “How did you feel when you kissed?”
“I liked it.” Her voice is so soft, I almost miss it.
“Do you know what you want to do now?”
“I’m gonna beat the living shit out of him, that’s for sure.”
My lips turn flat. “No violence, woman.”
She huffs. “I’ll talk to him about it. I can’t just sit here not knowing what it meant so I’m going to confront him. Whatever his answer is, he’ll receive one hell of an earful from me.”
“I have no doubt about that.”
Four hours later, my phone rings again.
“We kissed again.” These are the first words that come through the device in a breathless voice. I smile and shift my body on the bed for a more comfortable position. I haven’t moved from here all day.
“You know I’ve always hated him.”
“Ugh, this is giving me a headache! Forget it, tell me about you and Xavier—oh shit, I’m so sorry, T, I didn’t mean to sound insensitive by talking about me when you’re upset like this.”
A frown comes over my expression. “Lil, no matter what is going on in my life, nothing is going to stop me from being happy for you. And I don’t want you to ever think you can’t talk to me about anything.”
I hear a faint laugh. “Ah, I miss you. Don’t worry, I’ll be there tomorrow.”
“I’m looking forward to it.”
Sorry for the short chapter but the next few ones will make up for it.
Let me know your thoughts about Cole and Lily.