13. The great escape
And they cut you like the tiny slivers of glass
And you feel too much
And you don't know how long you're gonna last,
But everyone you know, is tryna smooth it over,
Find a way to make the hurt go away,
But everyone you know, is tryna smooth it over,
Like you're trying to scream underwater,
But I won't let you make the great escape,
I'm never gonna watch you checking out of this place
I'm not gonna lose you
'Cause the passion and pain
Are gonna keep you alive someday
Gonna keep you alive someday
- The Great Escape – Pink
The look he gave me, I'd drive him to California if he asked me to. Hell, if I could I'd drive him across the ocean to China, if I could. Knowing him, he'd rather swim. He wanted to walk home, sopping wet, from that party.
As we speed walked up my drive way I pulled my keys out of my pocket, at the garage door I inserted the numbers in the keypad to unlock it and it opened.
He told me what part of the city Allie lives in. It's a good half an hour drive. I try hard not to speed in that direction.
I'm speeding. They can pull me over. I can pay any ticket easily.
"Will, don't worry. What's going on with her?" I felt a need to talk to him to make sure he's okay.
"She's… she's got test results from last week's doctor's appointment. It's probably bad. A year ago they gave her a year to live. Her health's been severely deteriorating over the last few months. That's why I've been trying to spend as much time as possible with her."
I nod, what can I possibly say? I lost my mom, my dad is dad, but I can't understand this. I was only four when my mom died. I barely remember her. I remember my dad's murder like it was yesterday, but I don't really care about him, I'm happy he's dead, I'd never forget his death.
But besides Will's family, this girl is his whole world. She truly doesn't deserve this kind of pain. She deserves happiness.
I let my fingers not on the wheel grab onto his, my fingers twinned through his. My thumb seemed to brush his hand of its own accord. Out of the corner of my eye I could see him visibly relax. "I need the address."
He gives it to me and gives me the directions. Just a few minutes later we're pulling up to a cute one story, light blue house. I can hear the tears in his voice, "Her parents and I hate that color. But she begged us to paint it like that. It was a couple ago, when she got out of the hospital last time. She wanted to paint with us too, her mom told her no since she was sick, and she threw a bucket of blue paint at me. For like three hours we used the majority of the paint on each other in a big paint war. We were covered, head to toe. Her mom and dad had to go out and buy more paint and make us promise not to get into another paint war. They were laughing though, it was a happy moment, and we didn't have many of those."
You can think I'm weird, but I know what he's talking about. It wasn't to long after school restarted after summer break. I passed him on the way down the hall and wondered if he'd colored part of his hair light blue.
I turned the key and flipped the lights off. "Do you want me to go in with you?"
He looked at me and this time I could see the tears in his eyes, "Please Elijah?"
I felt my fingertips brush against his cheek and I leaned in towards him and pressed my lips lightly against his. Not as passionate as before, but just a gentle brush of lips.
He smiled at me softly and opened his door. "Let's go in…"
We walked up the steps side by side and before we even got to the door a middle aged woman opened it. In her prime she must have been very beautiful.
Will didn't say anything, and she just walked up and engulfed him in her arms. He leaned down so she could whisper in his ear. I turned away to not appear as if I was eavesdropping.
Will looked at me before back at her, "I brought my friend, is that okay? I'm sure Allie wants people that care about her here. He likes her."
Allie's mom nodded, "She needs her friends. Right now most of all."
Will tilted his head, "What happened?"
Allie's mom's lips thinned, "She wants to be the one to tell you my dear. Make it quick, she's not feeling very well."
She walks into the house and Will holds the door open for me.
On the outside it's an adorable little house. On the inside it looks like a doctor's office. There's a hospital bed in the living room next to the TV.
Allie has on a black and white polka dotted shirt and plaid pajama pants. Even when she's not feeling well she still looks gorgeous.
Will moved in front of me and sat next to her on the bed. He seems so at home here, he must have done this often. The second he sat down she nearly leaped into his arms.
Will's cheeks turned pink. And I think my cheeks pinked a little bit too. What a shocker!
Will pulled away from her al little bit, "What's going on Allie girl?"
She looked away from him, "I needed to see you..."
He tilted his head again, "What did the doctors say?"
She looked back up at him, "Will I have another tumor. They can remove it but health wise; I wouldn't be able to survive surgery. But that's not all of it."
I watched as Will's hands began to shake, "What else is there?"
This time she looked towards where her parent's were sitting on the couch, I felt like the big freak in a somber story. Maybe I shouldn't have come in.
Will was quiet for a long time. If the situation wasn't so horrible it would have been comical.
Allie clutched at his chest with one hand and his back with her other. "We have to make the next couple weeks count. No more tears, we have to stop acting like I'm a frail little girl that is dying. I am dying, I'm gonna be dead soon. I don't want to be in a hospital when I die. I want to be with you, hanging out, playing video games or reading or something. Please Will."
Allie's mother stood abruptly, "We can save you Allie, and there must be a way! You can't give up!"
Allie looked back at her, "Mom you know there is no way. They can't do the surgeries because I wouldn't survive them. That was my hope, that was my way, and I lost it because I'm not healthy enough. Please mom, let me die like I want to."
I felt my hands clench, I wish I could do something…
Will looped his arm around her back and held her to him tighter, "I'll be with you, as long as you need me. I won't leave your side."
I could feel my heart break for him. In a few weeks his best friend will probably be dead and buried. And I will watch his heart break. It's obvious, she loves him.