Tobias gave her a solemn look. “Don’t you understand? I could kill you the first time we make love, Kendra. I can’t control myself, I don’t know why, but I can’t. All vampires learn to control when to stop feeding before taking too much. I know when to stop, but when I mix it with sex, something breaks, and I lose it.
“I don’t want to hurt you, Kendra, that’s why I pushed you away. You make me want you with just a look, and I feared taking it any further, no matter how desperately I wanted to. Now that I know you are my Geliebte, beloved, my fear is even greater because I can’t live without you.” He gave a soft sigh as he caressed her cheek. “That’s why I turned to vampire women if I become desperate because at least with them, I didn’t have to worry as much.”
With the mention of vampire women, he saw her face fill with jealousy.
“When was the last time you…um…?”
“It’s been a while, not since way before Falco and Kimberly’s wedding.” Then, he sheepishly admitted, “Although, I tried last night. I thought if I could find relief from the aching arousal, I was sporting, it would help me forget about you.
“So, I went to a club where I know vampires hang out and found a vampire woman that I thought could help me. She was lovely enough I suppose, and willing. I have been fighting an almost constant need for you since that night in the back lot of the dealership, yet as soon as she kissed me, it was like taking an ice water bath. She wasn’t you, Kendra. She didn’t smell like you, feel like you, kiss like you.”
“I had just gotten home when you called. Sadly, the minute I heard your voice, my arousal was back even harder than before,” he whispered, his eyes locked in on hers.
Kendra smiled with a look of female satisfaction.
He groaned at the look before taking her head in his hands and kissing her. The kiss was rough and aggressive because he had been holding back his need for her for so long. Nipping at her lip until she opened, he shoved his tongue in. Then he tasted every inch of her mouth before sucking on her tongue which caused her to moan.
With her needy moan, he was encouraged.
So, while his mouth still ravaged hers, his hands began to roam up under her shirt. Her skin was so soft and covering her breast with one hand, he gave a light squeeze. Pulling away from her mouth then, he began kissing along her jawline before traveling down to her throat. She continued to make little noises that had his cock twitching and wanting what only a woman could give.
Unfortunately, it also made his fangs descend as his beast rose, thirsting for a taste of her blood. He began to swirl his tongue around her pulse point, licking, anticipating the first taste of her liquid essence.
“Toby, I want you to make me yours.”
Her words brought him from his lusty haze. It was like ice water being dumped on his head, causing him to jerk back breathing hard.
Her eyes were closed, but feeling his retreat, she opened them to stare at him. “Tobias?”
He shook his head. Standing up with her in his arms, he crossed the room to place her on the bed. “We can’t, I can’t, it’s too dangerous.”
“Tobias, surely since I’m your beloved you wouldn’t take too much. Or, you know you could just not take any at all.”
“You don’t understand, Kendra, I have to complete the bond, or you will feel burned if someone touches you. Even your sister’s touch will hurt until it is completed,” he explained. “As much as it scares me, eventually it has to be done.”
She nibbled at her lip, as she ran her hands through her hair. “Okay, then what do we do exactly to complete this bond?”
“I have to take blood from you, then you will take it from me.”
“An exchange of blood, that isn’t so bad, right?”
“Except I want to do more than just exchange blood with you. I want you, all of you and my body needs you badly. I’ve been denying it to the point I can’t anymore. I want to bury my cock in you right along with my fangs.”
“I want that too, Tobias, I won’t deny it,” Kendra told him. “We’ll just have to be extra careful. We can do this Tobias, we can. We’ll get the bonding out of the way, then we’ll figure the rest out.”
Standing up, she began to pace as she mumbled to herself before turning to face him.
“Okay. Would it make it easier if we weren’t alone? If we may be asked one of your brothers to come and pull you back if they need to?”
Tobias frowned. The exchange of blood was one thing, but he knew how easy it would be for it to become sexual. She didn’t understand how arousing it could be, not only for him but for her also. So, nein, no, just the thought of one of his Bruders watching something that was as private and intimate as the bonding made him feel like hissing.
“Just the look on your face tells me that would be a no,” she told him. Then she came to stand almost toe to toe with him. “Take a deep breath and be calm. Tell me what I need to do.”
“I just…” He stopped as the need for her became undeniable. Taking a deep breath, he slowly lost himself in her green eyes. The time for talk was now over and it was time to act. Bending his head down, he ran his nose along her neck. “Just a taste, Geliebte, may I have just a taste?”
He felt his fangs descend and sank them deep into her neck. Her taste was even more delicious than he had dreamed it would be and he soon fell into the delirium of her flavor. His hands moved over her, under her shirt, the feel of her bare skin had his arousal growing. He wanted her under him moaning his name now. He began to tug at her clothes, wanting them off, so he could make love to her.
“Toby, you have to stop now,” she told him before giving her a breathless moan. Grabbing hold of his hair, she pulled slightly. “It’s my turn, what do I do?”
He heard the question as if from a great distance. Somehow though he managed to pull his beast back inside even as he hissed.
He pulled back his head, fangs still descended and most likely covered in blood. He shook his head, trying to clear the haze that had him wanting more.
Kendra stared at him; her eyes big on her pixie face as he struggled within himself to calm his need for her.
Finally, he was able to retract his fangs and take a deep breath. “I’m sorry, I just need you so desperately.”
“It’s fine, angel, and I promise you will have me,” she told him. “We need to get this done though, while you’re still able to.”
Reaching up, he cupped his hands around her face. “I wish for us to be one. From this day forward, I can age as you do, or make you as I am, so that we may live together until we are no more. Do you also wish me to make us one?”
“Then I will give you a bit of my blood as I have taken yours.”
Then, stepping back slightly, he pulled the t-shirt he was wearing over his head. Next, he picked her up and once more took a seat in the desk chair before causing his nail to lengthen. Last, he sliced open his chest, causing it to bleed heavily, and pulled her head forward, whispering, “Drink, baby.”
She began to lick at the blood.
“Nein, baby. You need to suck the blood from me, just like making a love bite,” he whispered to her. Encouraging her when he felt her uncertainty at what she was doing.
He felt her suck his skin into her mouth and begin to suck. He moaned, and his head rolled back to land on the back of the chair. It felt so good to have her taking his blood this way and it caused his cock to harden to the point of pain. He whimpered at the thought of her mouth on it instead of his chest and grabbed at her hand to place it there.
“Bitte! Please!” He wasn’t sure what he was begging for, but she seemed to, and her hand began to slowly move across his jean encased arousal.
The wound on his chest closed, and Kendra moved her mouth from there to his neck. Her hand continued to squeeze and rub until he was ready to explode.
“Time to lose the pants.”
He felt her unfasten and unzip them. She stood up then for a moment, so he could lift his hips. He quickly pulled his pants and his briefs down.
Kendra sat back down straddling his hips and gave him a flirty smile. Her hand once more headed for his arousal, cupping it and giving a gentle squeeze.
He had a feeling he was genuinely going to enjoy this.