Chapter 4 - Running
They didn’t follow me, they didn’t call out for me. The years we spent together meant nothing, the words whispered on late nights and the promises made were all lies. I was naive to hope to somehow have a future with them, even when the moon goddess herself had paired us together.
I felt a pain in my abdomen but didn’t think much of it, I expected the pain from a broken mate bond to take a while to disappear altogether. Breaking two of them would undoubtedly take longer to recover from.
I reached the packhouse and immediately made my way to Alpha Darren’s office. He was known for working late so I knew he would still be in there. I stopped right outside his door and took a few deep breaths, trying to calm myself down.
I knocked on the door and waited to hear his voice. “Come in,” He hollered after a few seconds. I grabbed the door handle and twisted it, pushing the door open to reveal a tired Alpha buried in papers behind his desk. “Ah, Olivia. How the party?” I didn’t reply but stepped further into his office. “Never mind that. What can I do for you?”
“Alpha Darren, I have made a decision.” I abruptly stated.
“And what did you decide?” Alpha Darren quirked his eyebrow and smirked. He already knew my answer, he knew me too well.
“I’ll go under one condition.”
“What condition?” Alpha Darren laughed, he didn’t expect any less from me.
“You don’t tell anyone where I am or what I’m doing.”
Alpha Darren stared at me briefly, mulling over my demand. “What should I say when they ask?”
By they, he meant the twins. I really didn’t care what they thought as long as they didn’t know the truth. “Tell the twins that I left to try to find my mate. That you don’t know where or for how long and you have no way of contacting me.”
“Why? Why do you ask this of me? What happened?” Alpha Darren questioned with a concerned look on his face.
I lied. “I thought of what you said the other day and I have decided to give all of us a chance to be happy. Who knows, my mate may be at the Academy.”
“Alright then, I will do as you ask as long as you check in with me once a month.”
I smiled and made a promise I had no intention of filling. “I will and please make Micheal keep his mouth shut as well.”
Alpha Darren chuckled “I will. The van leaves tomorrow 5.am out front. Be ready.”
“Thank you, Alpha Darren.” I hurried out of his office before he asked me any other questions. I didn’t have it in me to tell him that his sons rejected me even though I knew he wouldn’t have approved anyway. The old notions of a wolf’s stature in a pack were antiquated and although White Oak pack didn’t follow them as much as many other packs some traditions still remained.
I shut the door to my bedroom and pulled out the only bag I owned. I filled it with my clothes, hairbrush, deodorant, and some other odds and ends I might need. I was almost done when I felt a stabbing pain in my abdomen or a little lower. I was bleeding and panic set in. I didn’t know what was wrong but I knew I needed help.
I mind linked Greyson “Greyson, I need you.”
“Where are you?” He replied in seconds.
“In my room, hurry. I’m bleeding.” I cut the link and went into my bathroom. I pulled my pants and panties down to assess the damage. I had never heard of rejection causing internal bleeding and was dumbfounded.
Greyson came storming into my bedroom and strode towards the bathroom. He looked at the discarded clothes on the bathroom floor and scowled. “What happened?” He asked as he stepped closer to me.
“I don’t know. Please get me some pants and then help me to the clinic.” I pleaded.
Greyson grabbed some sweatpants, helped me in them, and then lifted me up bridal style. He hurried out of the packhouse and walked towards the clinic. When we arrived the nurse led us to a bed, and Greyson laid me carefully on the bed and closed the curtains.
We waited patiently for the doctor and both jumped when she abruptly opened the curtain. “What seems to be the problem?” She asked without looking up from her chart.
“Where?” She glanced up and inspected me, it didn’t take her long to find the blood. “Ah, Were you injured?”
The doctor pulled out a machine, pulled my shirt up, and squirted some cold gel on my stomach. She hummed and after a few moments she tsk, tsk, tsk. “Have you been under a lot of stress?” I shook my head. “Were you rejected?”
I stared at her and I heard Greyson’s breath hitch in his throat. The tears started to form in my eyes but I didn’t answer her. The doctor reached over and showed the first sign of compassion all night when she laid her hand on mine. “I’m sorry dear but you lost the baby.”
She withdrew her hand and left us as quickly as she had appeared. Greyson was the first one to speak since I was still recovering from the shock. How could I not know that I was pregnant?
“Are...are you ok?” Greyson broke the silence. “Did you know you were pregnant? Who is the bastard that rejected you, I will kill him!”
I cleaned up the gel on my stomach, pulled down my shirt, and swung my legs over the side of the bed. “Greyson, don’t.”
“Don’t what? Protect you, although I seem to be too late for that but I can always retaliate.” He angrily spat out while throwing his arms in the air.
“I’m leaving… In the morning.”
Greyson stopped pacing and looked at me. “Where to?” I shook my head. “Olivia, don’t leave like this. I have been your friend for years, you can talk to me.”
I sighed and started walking out of the clinic. Greyson followed and quickly caught up with my fast strides. “I’m joining the Lycan Academy, I didn’t know I was pregnant and it was the twins.”
“What was the twins?”
“Who rejected me.” I quickened my pace but Greyson kept up. We arrived back in my room where my bag laid packed and my discarded bloodied clothes were strewn on the bathroom floor.
I went to discard off the ruined clothes but Greyson grabbed my wrist right before I reached them. I was crying again and managed to let a few words out in between sobs. “Please don’t tell anyone.”
“Go and lay down. I’ll take care of everything.” Greyson led me to my bed and tucked me in. “I will miss you Oliva and don’t worry. I won’t say a thing.” He kissed me on the forehead and left the room with my dirty clothes. That was the last time I saw him for months.
I woke up to the alarm blaring. I was still hurting but hoped that a warm shower would ease the pain. After the shower, I threw some sweat pants and an overlarge t-shirt on and put my hair up in a messy bun. I left everything the twins had ever given me, including the t-shirt I stole.
Everything except the necklace they gave me, I didn’t have the heart to leave it behind. It would be my daily reminder to never make that mistake again, to love someone blindly without a second thought.
The van was waiting outside the packhouse and Micheal opened the door as I walked up to it. There were other wolves inside from other packs but none that I knew. The driver motioned towards me, irritated that I took my time.
This was it, the decision that would change my life entirely. I turned around, looked at what had been my home all my life, and glanced at the twins’ windows right next to each other. Their light was on and I could see their shadows moving around behind the curtains.
“Veni, vidi, and amavi” I whispered before I shoved my bag in the van and sat down next to Micheal.