“Have you been checking on me, Juliet?”
“Not really, but I saw you with her.” He seemed to be thinking pretty hard at the moment. “Look, Mr. James, you seem like a nice guy and I thank you for the wine, but if you’re looking for a side piece. I’m not your girl.” There was a slight smile on his face.
“Sidepiece, I never heard it called that way. No Juliet I’m not looking to make you my side piece. Yes I have a fiancé and if you must know, it’s complicated but that’s a story for a different time. I just wanted to get to know you.” I wasn’t sure what to say to that, but no matter what. Even with that sexy smile of his. I wouldn’t be that girl. I won’t be his whore. I stood up and he followed me.
“Thank you for the wine Mr. James”
“Please Juliet call me Nolan” I nodded at him.
“Nolan, I’m must be going now.” He followed me to the front door and as I was leaving he grabbed my hand and pulled me close to him. I froze, his eyes were piercing mine. “Nolan?” I whispered out. He reached out and moved a piece of my hair behind my ear. He didn’t say anything. He softly placed his lips to mine. Did I stop him? No, I fell in place with his lips against mine like a fool. “Damn it,” I hissed out. I wrapped my arms around him and he pulled me back into his place. My body was pushed against the wall. I felt his hands all over me. His lips never leaving mine. Get a hold of yourself, I tried to tell myself, but he just felt so amazing.
It has been over a year since I have had the touch of a man. This was hard on me. “Please Nolan,” I said softly and he stopped and placed his forehead on mine.
“I’m sorry Juliet. I don’t know what came over me.” He stood back and I just looked at him for a moment. I straighten myself out and stood there long enough to argue with myself. I didn’t say anything as I turned and left his home. I got in the elevator and hit the buttons fast. The doors closed as I saw him look over at me. Fuck, I said to myself and leaned against the wall. The doors opened to my floor and I couldn’t get myself in my home fast enough.
Kissing him was a huge mistake. One that was never going to leave my mind. No one has ever kissed me like that. It’s no secret that I’m not a virgin, but the small relationship that I had going was a secret. A secret my family could never know. I knew that I was supposed to be married to a man I didn’t love, but for me, marriage meant, love. It would go against everything I believed in if I let this happen between me and Nolan. I had to stay away. I had to or I wasn’t sure if I could trust myself. I was also wondering why me? What made him interested in me?
It’s been almost a week since my encounter with Nolan. I haven’t seen or ever heard from him. I don’t know why I thought I would. I mean we crossed a line. I also think I made myself kind of clear. I ended up getting the job with Madison publishing house. My first day was the next morning. My life was starting to fall into place. This morning I made mine and Willys coffee and decided I needed someone to talk to about this. Only because I couldn’t get Nolan off my mind. I needed to know if Willy knew if Nolan was nothing more than a playboy. As I stepped out of the elevator. I came face to face with Nolan, but not only Nolan. Nolan and his beautiful fiancé. She is her arm in his and she was giggling next to him. Our eye met and he stood still. Here I was in jeans and a red v neck tee shirt. While Nolan was in a suit that made his body look amazing. With his woman on his arm in a short skirt from Gucci looking like a runway model. I just gave him a small smile and walked past them. She didn’t even notice me. I stepped out of the building and a beautiful brush of cold air hit my skin. It felt wonderful.
“Problems?” I heard Willy say. I turned and looked at him. With the, I will scratch your eyes out. “Okay girl, talk.” You walked over to Willy and handed him his cup of coffee. I took a seat on the flower bed.
“Can I ask you a question without being judged?”
“Maybe, depends on what you ask.” At least he is honest.
“Is Mr. James a playboy?” Willy cocked his head at me.
“What do you mean? Wait, has something happened?” I sighed and told Willy the whole story. Of course, his mouth was opened the whole time.
“Well Juliet, I have to give you props for walking away from that, but the only woman I have ever seen Mr. Nolan James with is his fiancé and she is only rarely seen here.” Great, I was supposed to feel better about turning away from Nolan. If he was just some playboy like I thought then I would have this feeling of need for him. Damn it Willy wasn’t helping.
“I don’t know what he sees in me. I mean his fiancé is so beautiful.” Willy just starts laughing. I crossed my arms. “What’s so funny?”
Yes my sweet, you are what’s funny. Juliet, you are beautiful she is plastic and fake. Plus she is a huge bitch. Of course, he can see you.”
“But I’m a hopeless romantic. I’m not the slut that sits on the sidelines for someone’s fun. I want to be the fiancé, who’s man loves her.” Willy smiled at me.
“Don’t we all. Maybe he is a good guy stuck in a bad thing. Like your his fairytale he has been waiting for?” Both Willy and I laugh.
“I’m sorry but there is no such thing as being stuck.” I was being forced and I still got out. If he doesn’t love her then he should damn well tell her.
“I guess your right, Juliet.” He gave me a small smile. Willy is the only person that knows my story. I knew he understood. “Let me give you a little advice. No one ever knows what’s going on in someone’s life. Not every scenario turns into a bad one. All I’m saying is maybe look into it a little more before you push it away.”
“Willy, are you telling me to have an affair with this man.”
“No, what I’m saying is don’t push it away right away until you have all your eggs in a basket. Because if you didn’t know he had a fiancé. Would that night have gone a different way?” Shit, I just looked away from him. “That’s what I thought.”
“Shut up,” I said to myself and took a drink of my coffee.
Later on, that night while I was shoving cheddar popcorn in my mouth watching magic mike on the tv. Someone started knocking on my door. I hit pause on my movie and tried to wipe my cheddar fingers. “Coming!” I yelled out. I grabbed a wet paper towel and wiped my fingers. I opened the door and there he stood. “Nolan, what are you doing here?” Nolan walked in and I closed my door. Here I stood in my yummy cheeseburger pajamas. With cheddar cheese on my hands and my hair pulled in a ponytail. Yep, all sorts of sexy. Ugh, I crossed my arms. “Nolan?” He turned and looked at me for a moment.
“That’s what you sleep in?” He asked with a smile on his face.
“Yes, sorry it’s not silk lingerie like your fiancé probably wears for you, but yes these are my pajamas.”
“Your right, she does like her silk.”
“Nolan, what are you doing here?”
“I wanted to apologize for my rudeness this morning.”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean I didn’t even acknowledge you.”
“It’s okay Nolan.”
“No, it’s not. Look my life is complicated and not a story I want to get into right now, but I want to get to know you. I know that sounds selfish, but it’s true.”
“Why Nolan, why me? You don’t even know me and I’m a no one.” Nolan moved closer to me. I took a step back. “I mean you no harm.” I smiled.
“I know you don’t, but you don’t know me and I know this whatever it is, will only land me in tears.” Nolan reached out and touched my hand.
“Just think about it.” He smiled at me and left my apartment. What in the hell? I said to myself as I knew I was going to get hurt.