Two days have gone by and I hadn’t heard or seen Nolan. I was actually okay with it. Trying to move on was easier when he was out of mind and sight. Even though Willy and I talked. I still thought it would be better if I found a different place to live. I had been looking at apartments closer to work. My co-worker Monica and I have been getting close and she loved in the building a block from our work. She had told me that there were a few apartments available. I put in for a two-bedroom. I was just waiting to hear back. Willy was upset, but he did his best to understand. It wasn’t like we wouldn’t see each other. Today when I got to work. I went over my mail and found that I was accepted for an apartment.
“There is no way out of the contract. The only way I’d if she cheats on you or dies. Your screwed.”
“Thanks, Eric, you’re a big help.”
“I don’t know what you want me to say. You made a deal with your biggest client to get you out of debt. Besides Kimberly is a catch.”
“Then you marry her.”
“You were fine before. What changed?” I turned and looked out at the rainy city. I missed Juliet like crazy. I knew she hated me. I was doing my best to try and get out of this, but it looked like I was fucked. “Is there someone else?” I didn’t answer him. “Fuck Nolan, if you get caught. You will lose everything.”
“Don’t you think I know this?”
“Who’s the girl?”
“That’s not important.”
“Come on Nolan, we have known each other since we were kids. You can tell me.”
“She this new tenant in my new building. She is beautiful and kind. She makes me smile and she is amazing in bed. I want to be near here constantly.”
“Wow, that’s new.” I just gave him a smile.
“She saw me with Kim. I haven’t seen her since then.”
“Does she not know?”
“She knows about Kim, but she caught me almost fucking Kim.”
“Dude, what the fuck?”
“It was a bad move. Kim had just got back and she wouldn’t let up. I was giving in so she would back off. I was supposed to be meeting Juliet at her place, but Kim came walking in and I hadn’t had a moment to let Juliet know. She came to my place looking for me at the wrong moment. I’m pretty sure I have lost her.” Eric started to shake his head.
“Your good at this.”
“Shut up Eric, you’re my lawyer, not my love counselor.”
“Sounds like I should be. Have you thought about talking to her father? Maybe if you tell him you don’t love Kim. He will let you out of the contract. You could always come up with a different deal?”
“Her father has always been after my company. There is no way that son of a bitch is going to back down.”
I heard a knock at my front door. I had been doing a little packing. I was still in the process of looking for a place. I actually haven’t seen Nolan at all. I walked to the front door and looked through the peephole. There he stood, looking amazing as always. I felt a little sting in my heart. I kept looking at him while I argued with myself whether I should open the door or not. Then he started to walk away. That’s when I unlocked the door and opened it. He turned and looked at me. I didn’t say anything as I just stood there. “Hello.” He said as I started to cross my arms. I wasn’t doing it in an aggressive way, but I really didn’t know what to say to him. My mind was fighting with my heart. “Come on Juliet, won’t you even say hello?” I just sighed.
“What do you want Nolan?” I asked in a soft voice.
“I’d like to talk with you if your up for that?”
“I don’t know Nolan. I mean I’m just not cut out to be the other woman.”
“Just let me explain? Please?” I thought about his words for a second and then as my heart over road my brain. I stepped aside and let him in. Mistake number one. I closed the door behind me and walked to my couch and took a seat. Nolan took a seat across from me. “First of all, let me explain that I haven’t slept with Kimberly. You’re the last person I have been with.”
“Do you not remember me walking in on you? You know what? I have no right to say that to you. She is your soon to be wife.”
“Yes, you walked in on something almost happening, but it didn’t and this hole engagement with her is bullshit.”
“What does that even mean Nolan?” Nolan moved closer to me and started to tell me what was really going on. To say I was shocked was an understatement. I left my family and everything I loved to escape a loveless marriage, and now here I was listening to Nolan explain how he was almost in the same predicament as I was. Only if he does not do it he’ll lose everything he’s worked so hard for. “There is no other way?”
“I have been going over the paperwork with my lawyer. The only way out for me is if her father lets me out or she cheats on me. The only thing is Kimberly has no idea of the arrangement. If she finds out I lose everything. If I back out. I lose everything.”
“Why did you agree to this in the first place?” Nolan hung his head. Then he told me how he was in a rough place two years ago and if he didn’t take this deal. He would have lost it all anyway.
“I really care about you, Juliet. I don’t want this to end between us. I just need time to figure this out.” I felt sorry for him, but I just didn’t know if I could play this part. I know Kimberly meant nothing to him, but it all sounded so complicated. I didn’t know if I could get involved or if I even wanted to. Nolan took a look around my apartment. “Why are there boxes? Are you leaving?” Shit, I said to myself.
“I was planning on moving out.”
“Why? Are you not happy here?”
“I just needed to put some distance between us.”
“Please don’t leave.” I just took a deep breath. I needed time to think now that I knew what was going on. I needed to know just how much I really cared about Nolan. Was this worth it? How much does he care about me? If he finds a way out. Does he want to be with me?
“Nolan let me ask you this? If you find a way out. What are your plans?” He just looked at me. “What am I to you?” Nolan sat back and looked up to the ceiling.
“I know that I care about you and I don’t want this to end. I feel restless since I haven’t been with you. I need you around.” He then looked back at me and I couldn’t help but smile at him. “I know you probably hate me right now, but I’m just asking for some time.”
“I don’t hate you. I hate myself for allowing myself to get involved and then catch feelings.” As I said that Nolan smiled.
“Do you have feelings for me, Juliet?” I said nothing as he moved closer to me. “I asked you a question?” I bit my lip.
“That’s not an answer.” He moved even closer.
“Yes okay? Why do you think I wanted to move.” Nolan reached out and ran his fingers down my cheek. I closed my eyes.
“Will you give me time?” I took a deep breath and nodded at him.”
“That’s all I can ask for now.” He pulled my face to his and kissed me. I kissed him back and I realized just how much I missed him. He was in a mess that I wasn’t even sure if he could get out of or not. I didn’t want him to lose everything he had worked so hard for. Nolan picked me up off the couch and headed towards my bedroom. We have never been in my bed before. I thought it was smart for him to be with me here in my place instead of his. I didn’t want us to get caught. There was no way I could live with myself. If I was the reason he lost everything. We were going to have to have a talk about how we did things from here on out, but now all I wanted was to feel him again.