Chapter 30: Feel good
I followed Jax to them.
Am I supposed to trust these guys? But Jax is making me feel safe!He is behaving like a good guy.
B-but sugar and salt looks the same right?
Omg! I couldn't control the tears and I think he noticed the tears in my eyes just now.He is a eagle eyed person.Why am I making it obvious ? Probably,he'll know that I'm not okay.The problem is I couldn't control my emotions.
When we was about to reach the other four he stopped me.
"What happened to you?Are you okay?",he asked me while trying to make eye contact.
"Y-yes",i said as i averted my eyes from him.
"You sure?",he asked me with concerned eyes.
I nodded and assured him.It really feels like he's caring for me but what about the message?
"I will call Katy",i said and went away from him.
I immediately called Katy with literally shivering hand.Jax joined the other four.They were talking but Jax's didn't stopped observing me.I'm so sure that he will find out how I feel because he's too good in these things.
"Hello Katy.Where are you?",I asked her.
"We're on the way,near the funfair.We'll be there in five minutes"
"Katy come fast please"
"Why?Is everything alright?"
"Katy don't ask me anything.Just come fast",i said while glancing the devils.
"Okay.Blaire go fast..Anna,we will be there okay.I will hang up the phone now"
"Why?Are you okay?",she asked me.
"Katy don't hang up the phone until you reach here",i told her as i feel insecure.
"O-Okay",she assured me.
In around 3 minutes,they reached the funfair.I sighed and hanged up the phone.
"Hey are you okay?",Katy whispered to me as they approached me.
We turned around because of the whistle sound of Charles.
"Let's go",he told us.
We joined them and went inside.I stayed beside Katy and didn't went near Jax.He kept glancing at me.Jax told something to Lucas as Lucas glanced at me.
"Girls where are you gonna go first?",Lucas asked us.
"Anywhere.We'll follow you",Blaire said.
"Then, let's go to Waltzer first.Is it okay?",Lucas asked as Blaire nodded.
I could see a huge ferris wheel on the right path,which will approximately take 30 minutes for one rotation.
On my left path,i could see waltzer.
Out of the blue,I noticed Jax is walking beside me.
He cleared his throat.
"Guys,we will join you after a while",he informed everyone as he grabbed my hand.
Nonononono!I'm not gonna go.Please!
"B-but I-", before i could say anything,he interrupted,
"You all can spend some time together.We will join you later"
I didn't even get a chance to talk.They all nodded and went on the left path as Jax brought me to the right path.
"But Jax..I wanna go with them",I said in a trembling voice.
"Don't worry dear.We will join them later",he told me without looking at me.
"I d-don't want t-",before I finish my sentence,he pulled me and wrapped his arm around my shoulder to make me quiet.I look at him as he made eye contact.I swallowed after looking at his eyes which is darker than usual.
He is making me too nervous.
WHY THE HELL AM I FEELING THIS WEAK WITH HIM?
I'm sure that I won't be able to stand infront him.He's making me feel safe and nervous at the same time.Not to forget how hot I'm feeling while being this close with him.His heat could really burn me in a second.
He brought me to the huge ferris wheel and we sit inside.He sit beside me,too close.After it started to spin,
"What happened to you?",he asked me.
"N-nothing",i said while looking at another direction.
"Do you think I'm a stupid? You're not okay since we left the cafe",he told me.
I swallowed hard.
"There's nothing like that.I'm fine",I lied.
"I've already told you to not lie to me...You're really making me depressed by thinking what I did wrong",he admitted.
"Yahh believe me.I'm not lying"
"Then, why aren't you making eye contact?",he asked and tried to move my chin to his direction.
I avoided it.
"YOU'RE MAKING ME FRUSTRATED.DO YOU UNDERSTAND?",he shouted at me in gruff voice and made me scared as hell within a millisecond.Tears started to overflow in anxiety.
His dark eyes turned to concerned look.
"Why are you-",Jax whispered.Before he finishes his question he pulled me into a hug.I hold on his chest and sobbed.
"I'm so sorry for shouting at you..Wh-why are you crying?At least tell me something.Just be frank",he crooned.
Even if he's the one who's making me feel insecure and nervous,i don't have other choices.I should just depend on him right now.I have never seen a person being this scary when shouting.
"You're shivering.Angel, don't cry please.Why did you became weak in a sudden?",he asked me.
"Because of you",i admitted.
"M-me? What did I do?",he whispered while making his grip on me more tighter.
"Jax,I'm scared.Too scared",I whispered.
"Why baby?",he asked in a concerned voice.
"Don't ask me anything.I just feel nervous.I couldn't control my emotions..My emotions for you",I confessed.
"I-",before he starts to talk,I interrupted,
"Don't say anything till I finish... You're making me feel safe like nobody else but you're also making me feel so weak and nervous as hell",I buried my face on his chest and hugged him tightly.
I continued,"I don't know much about you...I don't know what you were doing before this.That day you confessed to me and today..This is a day that I won't forget in my lifetime.I've tried so hard but I couldn't control my feelings for you.If you know that you won't be able to spend the rest of your life with me,please go away from me Jax.Please!",I cried on his arms.
His heart is beating so fast,just like mine.He stayed quiet and I couldn't control my tears.I know that I'm crying too much.We're actually on the maximum height of the ferris wheel.They stopped it there for a while.
"I...I d-don't know what to say",he whispered like he don't have the strength to talk.
He continued,"please stop crying first...Baby I'm not being able to gather my strength to talk.I couldn't utter a word.Please don't cry"
He wipe all my tears and hugged me again.Tears are still flowing from my eyes.
"Anna,I've already confessed.I-I just wanna tell you that y-you can trust me and believe me,I-I won't go away",he assured me.
After a while,i stopped crying as he comforted me.His hand is holding mine while my head is taking rest on his shoulder.He wrapped his left hand around my shoulder to make me feel safe.
"Angel,can we just go back to the mood like when we're in this morning? Remember,this day haven't finished yet.Let's enjoy this day as much as we can.Deal?",he asked me.
"Please smile",he said but I didn't smiled.
"Isn't this ferris wheel is too height?",he changed the topic.
"Ahhhhhhh!",he screamed in a sudden.
"What happened?",i asked concernedly.
"Nothing.Does Blaire look this funny while screaming because of this height?",he asked me playfully.
Immediately, I burst out laughing as he laughed with me.
"I think she'll look more funnier than this",I laughed.
We get out from the ferris wheel and he wrapped his arm around my shoulder. I love this feel!